Waffles, you are in the heat of the battle right now. Remember, this is only a small snap shot of suckiness in your life. You will not always feel this way. Things will get better, trust me.
Everything you are experiencing is commmon most on here have gone through the same crap. Hell, I thought I would never love my wife or kids again because I believed dip made me love them. What a fucking idiot!!!!! Today, 191 days later I can honestly say I love them more than any time in my life...because I am not a slave to nicotine.
Stay close to the site. Continue in chat, read, ask questions, get numebers. You got this shit waffles. I'm here for you anytime.
Stay quit!