We'll everyone, here I am at day 148. 100% posted. My quit is strong and I know that everyday is a battle. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about Nicotine. I still find myself reaching for my pocket, putting my hand on the truck doorside under the handle. Really unbelievable that nic still has influence on me. I live ODAAT and by keeping my daily promise to my brothers, I know I am stronger and will not cave that day. I am not immune. I am human and my body ingested poison for years. I am only now training my body and mind how to deal with the absence of that poison.
My quit has become my new best friend and I nurture it and talk to it like a best friend. I treat it right, I play with it (sending memes of quitting) I encourage it and I bring it out to show to others. I love my new friend Quit. It's kinda like an imaginary friend but when a crave comes, I know it's not imaginary. It's like my quit is playing a game of hide and seek with Nic in the woods. I'm creeping along, that nervous gut feeling that I could get tagged or chased, but if I do get tagged I laugh it off and go hide a again, this time learning where Nic likes to hide and find me.
It's amazing how much I'll actually talk to myself out loud about my quit. How many times I pass the C store and yell "Fock You!" as I go by. I keep this entire quitting as a game. Some might yell and scream, "This is no game!! This is serious shite!". No doubt it is but I will tell you this, If you hate quitting you will stop quitting. No one continues to do something they hate to do. That is why quitting dip is hard...because you loved it. If you enjoy quitting just as much, it is something you will look forward to doing every day. I look forward to it. I enjoy quitting! Sure, sometimes the cravings suck out loud, but I turn that into something fun. Today I have a huge aerospace audit. I walked right down the middle of my plant and sang ELO Hold On tight To Your Dreams for my employees like an idiot as loud as I could. Some of them yelled at me to stop, others joined in, others just shook their heads. I find the greatest meme pictures and send them to my list of quitter friends (I can tell the ones who enjoy their quit). You always hear vets talking about embracing the suck. Take it one step further and turn it into something enjoyable. This, my fellow BAQ, will help your quit, put a smile on your face, and at the end of the day you will be a hellova' lot more fun to be around.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkekqVPIc2M
