Day 43 - starting week seven being quit! Five weeks ago I never though I would be here, but here I am. And I am looking forward to keep adding up the +1 - one day at a time.
So glad I found this place and started posting roll, it has really helped strengthen my quit and reading and learning from others that have gone through the same experiences has really helped.
I still have some anxiety and sleep issues, but because of all of the knowledge and wisdom on ktc I am learning to embrace this suck. What really helps is not being fearful of my anxiety or sleep problems. Instead of worrying about worrying, I say FU nic bitch - you crazy bitch - bring it on - whatever you throw at me I know I can move on and enjoy life without you and your deceiving ways! I know there will be more hard times ahead, but I never want to go back to day 1. I never want to go through those first weeks again where I thought I was going crazy, where I thought I might lose my job because I couldn't do anything productive, where I couldn't get motivated to do anything. F that noise.
Was at a party this weekend with all of my friends that use nicotine. I told them I quit and they respected it. Told them if they ever wanted to quit to let me know and I can send them to the right place. I noticed how much nicotine still has control over them - chew, cigs, even e-cigs. This is something I would have never noticed before. Being there with the nicotine slaves really made me happy that I decided to quit and take my life back.
Anyway - thanks to everyone that contributes to this site. I believe it is one of the reasons that has helped me stay quit. I wanted to write all of this down so that I have a record of some of my thoughts that I can file away and look back at sometime.
