I get what you all are saying, and thanks for the advise. Yes, I know it wont be easy, and I know that tomorrow is not promised. I'm also a strategist. I'm not putting anything off. I don't need to accept that I'm an addict, I already do, thats why I am here. One thing about me though, is that once I decide to do something, I make a plan and I do it. Period. I have never made this decision before, or failed. I will not fail at this, and I will not jump into it without the tools I know that will help ME as an individual. For me, fireballs and toothpicks don't work, to reduce my oral cravings. The fake stuff does. I choose this route for myself, because the physical addiction is tremendous and I choose not to add to my misery and frustration by trying to do it without at least a substitute for the part that I can control.
This is my choice, I am doing it for me. Doing it for me is the same as doing it for my wife and children. I married her and we became one flesh, my daughter is my flesh. I do it for myself and them because in my mind there is little distinction.
I know there are doubters out there that are thinking, "this guy isnt committed, he won't do it." And for those of you, I have heard your opinions, I respect them, and to those of you who agree, I have heard it represented. I won't be bullied into anything based on taunts of "be a man" or "there is no "excuse." I am a man and I can make plenty of excuses. That has nothing to to with this.
I will quit by making a plan, a resolution and then implementing it one day at a time. My plan begins Thursday. My time to prepare, to get the house ready, to get my wife on board, and to make sure that all my stashes are gone and my weapons are in place. I know for a fact alot of you took that "one last dip" before you quit the next morning, and the same principle applies here.
For those of you who doubt me, check back in Thursday and see who is on the roll call and who is not. I will expect apologies ;)
Read the Tom and Jenny Kern story. Then tell us that you think your plan is better than ours. Don't reply until you read the whole story. It can be found by clicking on "Killthecan.org" link above.
You can do this.
Pretty f'd up story.
Like I said, I won't be bullied or scared into deviating from my plan and objectives. Just like the nic won't be able to bully me back into it once I start Day 1.
My response is and will be: See who is on roll call Thursday and who isn't. If I'm not, call me a pussy and a coward and a yellow livered sumbitch.
We are all different, and we all do things differently. The only common denominator is that we quit. If I had a local store that carried alternatives I would have my Day 1 today. But I know where my weakness is. Its with taking the pinch. I know that because I quit for over a week while I was trying samples and at the time, I had made no commitment and wasn't even quitting. I did crave nic for a few days, but that was tolerable as long as I had a pouch to suck on.
I'm not saying your way doesnt work. You can't say my way doesn't work. We can both say that both ways don't work where there is a lack of resolve, commitment and support.
Some people quit smoking cold turkey with a pack of gum. Others buy electronic cigarettes and are successful. Some try electronic cigarettes and fail. Each person is unique, and different and are addicted for different reasons. For me, overcoming chemical addiction is a minor thing. Getting the nicotine out, whereas its pure hell for some, is much easier for others. For me, individually, I am a creature of habit. I associate comfort and familiarity to good times and happiness to those times when I sit back and dip. My biggest obstacle is, as silly as it may seem, the act of putting the dip in, and feeling it where it needs to be.
Sure its not the same thing as real tobacco. But it works for me. Like any program. It works if you work it. An alcoholic that is able to overcome by filling beer cans with water and drinking it, good to go. If it works for them, then thats all that counts.
