Well howdy everyone, today is the day I get my butt back to feeling 100%. I have used copenhagen for the past 4 years but the last 2 is where it has gotten to a scary amount. Haven't felt invincible like I did in high school in a long long time, I'm headed to my senior year of college in the fall and I've decided enough is enough. I am tired of dip emptying my wallet, keeping me up late, making me self conscience around the ladies, encouraging other poor habits, pooping on my breath at night, causing disappoint in my mother, draining my motivation and energy, and above all else running/ruining my life.
This is not my first quit, I had seen the site sometime last summer, but figured the advice was enough motivation to make it through and I never registered. Needless to say I didn't make it more than 36 hours. I have had mini quits in the past as well, but as soon as the scare was gone I reverted right back to the cave. Yesterday I woke up without the desire to put a pinch in...but I did it anyways. I spent all morning trying to figure out why I continued to put this crap in my mouth and body. Only to throw one right back in without any thought of it. Well as I was getting ready for bed I put my last one of the night in, I couldn't manage to hold it in for more than 5 minutes. The pain had gotten to a point that I couldn't bare, and I have always had a high pain tolerance so I knew something wasn't right. I checked my mouth for the source of the pain and well it just looked horrible, so bad that I was embarrassed to the point that I would rather give a lecture in front of a 300 seat class ass naked than to have my gums look the way they did.(nothing terribly alarming, just a lot of wear and tear)
I'm the proud owner of a new 7 month old rescue chocolate lab, my sister just got married, I'm on track to graduate soon and have the easiest summer to date since senior year of high school. Things are too good to have a cloud hanging over me everywhere I go concerning the need to throw toxins in my mouth at every opportunity, only to leave me feeling so low because I wasn't strong enough to quit. So I decided no more excuses, no more BS, no more give it the old college try. No this time is for real.
I'm a friendly guy so don't be afraid to give me a chat, lord knows I'll need some motivation to get through this process.
God Bless,
Taps