One day on my way home from classes I stopped by my local convenience store to buy my usual Dr. Pepper. As I approach the clerk, I look up and see that ever-flowing display of smokeless tobacco products staring me in the face. I've always wondered what it was like to take that first dip, so I thought, "What would it hurt if I bought 1 can?" That fatal error in judgment has consumed my life and the addiction has taken over my body.
Throughout the past 10 years, I've hidden my obsession with smokeless tobacco and always concealed my stash of Copenhagen cans...What can I say other than I loved that stuff. It all started with a simple dip, then two, then ten a day. Within the past few years, my addiction lead to dip 1 to 1 1/2 cans a day...I simply couldn't do ANYTHING without it. I would have one immediately after breakfast, then another on my 40 minute drive to work, then another one when I arrived at work (if I could hide it), then another one FOR my lunch break, another on the way home, immediately after dinner, a few more before bed. I would even find myself waking up in the middle of the night just for another dip...repeat every day!!
The other day I came to the realization that this is ruling and ruining my life and it's time for a change! By accident, if you want to call it that, I happened upon this website and began to chat and make some new friends. I vowed that I would end this horrible addiction with the crap in the can and quit. I even flushed two fresh cans of Cope during our online chat.
Unfortunately, I fell off the horse...and you can't tell me that I'm the only one to do that! The addiction reared it's ugly head when I was on my to work and I gave up...simple as that! I thought is this for real...what would it hurt? I bought my usual can of Copenhagen Long Cut and dipped the whole thing! Not long after that, I received a message from one of the bros I had previously chatted with and realized that I not only let myself down, but I had broken my promise to him.
I never thought quitting would be easy, but I never realized it would be this difficult. It is an overbearing monster, always waiting to consume you once again. This time I am quit...I realize that it's only Day 1, but Day 1 is always better than Day 0. I cannot let this addiction rule my life anymore. It's time to take my life back...