Electdale Intro

[DjPorkchop]

Love how you are tracking your days by posting daily. This will be real handy come HoF time or just when ever you want to reflect on where you were and where you are at that certain point in time.

Keep at it man! 'oh yeah'

[Electdale]

Welcome to my last Day #6 Ever. Finally slept for a solid 4-5 hours last night (first in 5 full nights). Yesterday was a BITc* for some reason ALL dang day. Made it through with the guys here on chat and some at work so thank you to all!

Fog has lifted a slight bit today and Im excited to see what I can push through today. Been pretty useless at work the last 4 + days...Very strange as I know and can do my job at a very high level. I can see the problem and know the solution right off hand. Problem is that I can not get from problem to solution without loosing track of my wondering mind. The Fog is thick in here but I didn't get my first crave until 8:45AM which is almost 4 hours from the time I wake in AM. Two days ago that was a laughable statement so there is progress on my bodies part.

I didn't rage at anyone yesterday but defiantly fought the urge several times. Ran 3.5 miles before work and another 5 miles last night to keep the monster at bay. I don't run so that should tell you that I have a fn huge gorilla that I'm trying to get away from.

Today my goal is to get to Tomorrow.

Last Day #6 EVER

[soot]

Welcome Eric.

[Electdale]

Welcome to my last Day #5 EVER!. Exhausted today as I havent slept real well over the past 4. When I do get to sleep im exhausted. Between dreams and these damn night sweats its not very peaceful. Its 4:30 am my time and I already need a nap...or to go to bed.

Stay mentally tough today as the mind and body ate trying to wear me down.
Working on my withdrawl notes and reading them...So I never foget this anguish Im in now.

Last Day #5 EVER

[jswiss11]

Welcome to my last day #4 EVER! Last night was rough and woke up several times in complete night sweat mode. I thought the vivid dreams were just here and there but DANG that was crazy last night.

It's day #4 and before I get out of bed today I am posting to curb that first AM crave...Hmmm the joys of withdrawl are firm within my grasp as the nic has technically already passed my body.

Lets see what tricks the mind plays today as it grasps for new and exotic ways to bring me to my knees. I can feel the fog setting in already and know its gonna be tough mentaly today....its all in the mind and I can control it for the most part...when I cant you will see me on chat.

Last Day #4 EVER!

ah yes - so glad to be through the worst of that shit. watch out for those mind games brother. I was such a mess that I was driving erratic and just wanted to scream out at anything or anyone. Just know that this shit will pass. you'll come out the other side a new man! hang in man and don't be afraid to reach out to any of us for help.

[wildirish317]

One day at a time. Anyone can quit for a day. You can do this. Just quit for today.

You hope you are strong enough to do this. I have news for you, you aren't. But WE are strong enough to do this! This is what it takes: Posting roll, forming bonds with other quitters, banding together, because not a single one of us can do this alone. Welcome!

[Electdale]

Welcome to my last day #4 EVER! Last night was rough and woke up several times in complete night sweat mode. I thought the vivid dreams were just here and there but DANG that was crazy last night.

It's day #4 and before I get out of bed today I am posting to curb that first AM crave...Hmmm the joys of withdrawl are firm within my grasp as the nic has technically already passed my body.

Lets see what tricks the mind plays today as it grasps for new and exotic ways to bring me to my knees. I can feel the fog setting in already and know its gonna be tough mentaly today....its all in the mind and I can control it for the most part...when I cant you will see me on chat.

Last Day #4 EVER!

[DjPorkchop]

Welcome Eric. Glad to see you made it on roll bud. I have to kindly remind you to never forget what these last 3 days have felt like. Keep that feeling near and dear so you never forget it and never decide to ever do it again. Notice I said decide? A cave is not an accident. It is a decision. I made one once my self. I decided ah fuck it and caved. No excuses, I just said fuck it. And in the process, shafted my brothers of quit.

There are all kinds of valuable tools available on this site to use. Gather phone numbers, build that friend network, posst in other groups too. Don't confine your self to just one group. You are more than welcome to post in newbie groups and old timers groups. Just keep that promise if you post.

There are about 25000 of us behind you if you ever need it Eric. lean on us when ever bud.

Take care and look forward to seeing you on roll.

Ray

[CavMan83]

Damn brother I wish you had Soot's phone number. I'd ask you to call him and explain the significance of the daily roll post, cause if your intro is any indication, you have GOT it. Welcome!

[Mike1966]

I see you've already posted roll, that's awesome Electdale. Welcome to the group. We've got a really good bunch of folks here that will help support you in your quit. Post your promise every day and early in the day. It's a promise to the group not to use, not a report on how you did for the day. Exchange numbers with the guys in your group and get to know people. Posting your promise to a bunch of funny looking avatars and weird user names won't give you much incentive to keep your promise.

I know how you feel about being sick and tired of being controlled by this thing. It's no longer that dizzy high you had years ago when you 1st experimented with it but a slavery to trying to quench the withdrawal every couple of hours.

Congrats on your decision to change your life. You can do this.

Proud to be quit with you today!

[Electdale]

Short and sweet because I'm at a cross roads between nic withdrawl and mental incapacitation.... Welcome to my last Day #3 EVER.
2-4 x cans per week/ 14 years. Tried taking a break, tried controlling the beast, tried to change sides, tried to tell myself over and over it didn't matter, it didn't effect anyone but me and me alone.

My name is Eric and I can remember the first dip I ever took. I remember the dizzy feeling, the rush of the buzz, the warm blanket that seemed to do just the trick every time. That was 14 years ago.

However, I can also remember the countless fights with my wife. The lies to friends, family and myself....I remember all of it!

This beast has controlled me and the life of others around me for to long. I know it and they know it. Today I make the pledge to quit for ME and my well being first and foremost. I hope that I am strong, strong enough to kick this MF beast in the arse once and for all. Im tired of the monkey on my back and I want to leave the zoo.

I vow to post roll call and take each passing second/minute without the grip of dip in my life. Although I can't see it right now those seconds/minutes will eventually turn to hours and hours into days.

DONE! I AM DONE DAMN IT

Last Day #3 EVER