Electdale Intro

[Hutch18]

Well said.

Quitting with you, only i am slightly behind. Day 59!

[Electdale]

Day 781 and still going strong...Make that life change and turn the page to your life. It can be done!

[Electdale]

Here's day 223 lame update. Appreciate the help everyone gave here on the journey. To bad posting success stories are lame? (Unless you came on and posted roll, then its okay). Post roll call to your small group or update a success story that everyone can read?

Im 213 days in and could I have done it without the site? no. Did the site help? yes. Did the site provide a big fn wake up call to this idiot? yes. Did the on-line chat help in those first crucial days/weeks, of course it did. Did helping others feel good...Of course it did as we all have the human spirit in us.

However, just because I didn't post roll doesn't mean I or others can not succeed. You quit for YOU and I'm fairly certain I read that right here on this web page.

Didn't quit for all of these members, I quit for myself first, my family second and my freedom third. Some need to post roll for 100, 1000 or 4000+ days to stay quit and be successful. I respect that and understand it better than most. In my family alone I have had three generations of addicts of some vice or another. Some went to meetings for decades until their deaths and yet some changed their life overnight. I have seen it, lived it and been through it now.

I had a long term, nasty, life draining problem... and choose for myself to change it. Just because I chose to do it my way and it worked doesn't make it a bad thing to come on and share a success story does it?

Sorry for missing roll call
Sorry for wasting your time with posting updates
Sorry
NEVER SORRY for finding this site
NEVER SORRY for quitting
NEVER SORRY for staying Quit

100% NEVER SORRY for taking more time writing this than a post 1 x day for 100, 1000 or 4000+ days.

[JGlav]

Has always amazed me how "posting" becomes a chore. It is literally a 30 second effort. However if you stick around long enough and you may end up liking some of these
lunatics. I will tell you they will get your back whenever that sneaky bitch wants back in your life.

[AppleJack]

For a bit of closure I thought that I would post on day 110 for giggles. I fell off the writing in the post horse long ago (90+ days ago).

Symptoms have mostly all past but I still deal with the addiction part everyday. I know that I can never have a "Casual" dip, that's not me or my personality. My mouth has healed but I still battle some tongue issue's to this date. Those revolve or at least hopefully revolve around a jagged tooth that needs attention anyway. Dentist is on the list in very short order so hopefully I can fully move on.

One thing I did not count on even after 100+ days of Quit. The fear and un certainty of oral cancer. Since I quit it has been on the forefront of my mind. I check my mouth at least twice daily for signs of any changes...Almost to the point of ridiculousness. Delusional paranoia I guess.

I hope that so many who are looking for help can find this place. Read the stories and succeed. Even though I didn't make it to the HOF because I fell off the roll call wagon. I can tell you that the people, the stories and the help is real! It worked for me and it can work for you too.

I have and will continue to stay quit for family, friends and most importantly myself.

Fight everyday like it is your last....Because one day, sooner rather than later, it will be.

Glad you're still quit but...

Status updates are lame.

This place works because we do it together. How hard is it to post roll daily!?! It took you 20x as long to type that li'l update.

You go ahead and keep trying on your own... I hope you stay quit. Me?... I'll be here doing what we all know works.

[Electdale]

For a bit of closure I thought that I would post on day 110 for giggles. I fell off the writing in the post horse long ago (90+ days ago).

Symptoms have mostly all past but I still deal with the addiction part everyday. I know that I can never have a "Casual" dip, that's not me or my personality. My mouth has healed but I still battle some tongue issue's to this date. Those revolve or at least hopefully revolve around a jagged tooth that needs attention anyway. Dentist is on the list in very short order so hopefully I can fully move on.

One thing I did not count on even after 100+ days of Quit. The fear and un certainty of oral cancer. Since I quit it has been on the forefront of my mind. I check my mouth at least twice daily for signs of any changes...Almost to the point of ridiculousness. Delusional paranoia I guess.

I hope that so many who are looking for help can find this place. Read the stories and succeed. Even though I didn't make it to the HOF because I fell off the roll call wagon. I can tell you that the people, the stories and the help is real! It worked for me and it can work for you too.

I have and will continue to stay quit for family, friends and most importantly myself.

Fight everyday like it is your last....Because one day, sooner rather than later, it will be.

[worktowin]

Last Day #11 EVER: Yesterday and today have had some major habit driven craves. Stuffing my mouth with seeds as I type this. Not sure what the deal is but I have an inclination of why the past two days have gotten worse.

Around day #6 I purchased a mint tin. Its a tin that looks and feels like the real deal. Inside is ground up mint but I added cinnamon as well and works for the strong craves (for me). However, now I find that the habit side of the equation is wanting something in my mouth all the time..... Ill take a raw mouth from sunflower seeds over the grip of dip thank you. Especially after the first 10 days as I am NEVER going back. A bit of pain or discomfort here or there during a crave is nothing compared to the pain and anguish of withdraw those first few days.

Anyway, that's what Im dealing with. Doesn't matter if your on day 0 fighting for that first hour or day 15000.....Win the Day today!

Don't worry about the fake stuff... one day you'll wake up and most likely just be done with it. It won't make your jaw fall off either. If it helps - use it.

You'll never have to relive the last 11 days.

I like your name, by the way... is there any chance you'd consider running for President? Please? PLEASE????

[Electdale]

Last Day #11 EVER: Yesterday and today have had some major habit driven craves. Stuffing my mouth with seeds as I type this. Not sure what the deal is but I have an inclination of why the past two days have gotten worse.

Around day #6 I purchased a mint tin. Its a tin that looks and feels like the real deal. Inside is ground up mint but I added cinnamon as well and works for the strong craves (for me). However, now I find that the habit side of the equation is wanting something in my mouth all the time..... Ill take a raw mouth from sunflower seeds over the grip of dip thank you. Especially after the first 10 days as I am NEVER going back. A bit of pain or discomfort here or there during a crave is nothing compared to the pain and anguish of withdraw those first few days.

Anyway, that's what Im dealing with. Doesn't matter if your on day 0 fighting for that first hour or day 15000.....Win the Day today!

[Electdale]

Las Day #10: i had a couple strong craves yesterday but was near the family and the forum so it wasnt to bad.

Still catch myself reaching for or looking for my can. Dealing with the habit side I guess as Im rewiring my mornings, afternoons and evenings without the nic breaks.

Slept a lot this weekend and got caught up from "hell week". ( especially day 1-5). Im in good spirits and actually caught myself enjoying family time and not worrying about "when is this over so I can have a dip".. It is liberating being in the moment and not being ruled by the gorilla.

Win the day and stay quit! I rest knowing that I will never be back at day 1-9. Each day I push myself more and more..In return I get more clarity on how bad it was and how much better I am off without the grip of dip.

Last Quit day #10 EVER

[pab1964]

Eric the mental part sucks balls. Be a man an kick that bitch in the throat! It may take weeks, months, years to get over the mental struggle but every day you're nic free is worth whatever you endure. Everyone is different in how long what phase of quit is going to affect you. No matter you've got this if YOU Want IT BAD Enough! I quit with you today my friend! Post roll early Edd ODAAT!

[Stillamarine]

Last Day #9 Ever! Slept and relaxed a lot yesterday.. Didnt have much motiviation except give the body what it needed...Sleep.

Only had 3 craves yesterday but curbed it with chat and the family being near.

Feel like Im entering a new phase of mental road blocks and struggles. I am happy of my accomplishment but know there is much more mental work ahead.

Last say #9 Ever

Now this is a bad ass quitter! Go on with your bad self. My only comment is this is not the Day 9 of your life. It is day 9 of your new life free from the nic-bitch. Keep it up bad ass!

[Electdale]

Last Day #9 Ever! Slept and relaxed a lot yesterday.. Didnt have much motiviation except give the body what it needed...Sleep.

Only had 3 craves yesterday but curbed it with chat and the family being near.

Feel like Im entering a new phase of mental road blocks and struggles. I am happy of my accomplishment but know there is much more mental work ahead.

Last say #9 Ever

[Electdale]

Last Day #8 EVER is upon me... Slept for 11 hours last night and Ill probably go back to sleep here after writting this entry. So very tired from a week of hell. I can feel clarity out of the fog this morning. Just need to play some catch up here. Im not down and out just tired today.

Im taking it easy this weekend and staying close to the family and kids. I know I can draw off of them for strength if needed.

Craves yesterday were long but not as sharp feeling. Wanted to lash out 1 time so making progress. I let the cat out of the bag with the president of our company as we work fairly closely. 14 years I have worked with the man and he had zero idea I had a nic problem.. Ninja at work.!

Anyway I have told anyone and everyone I can so that everyperson I see I must hold myself accountable. There will be no going back...Only forward away from the grip of dip.

My mouth and tongue have healed very nicely which is great. No more nasty breath and I swear my teeth have gone 2 shades lighter thus far. Physically im tired but thats on me for whipping my own ass working out and running ALOT. Mentaly it still is in my mind.. Where is my trigger or is that going to be a trigger or that is a sure fire trigger scenario. Where is my can and feeling for it multiple times per day. These are automatic thoughts and I just have to deal with them 1 at a time as they come.

Today is better than yesterday and we push through to win the day in front of us! Never forget day 1-7 as it sucked so fn badly and remember that I will NEVER go through that again.

Last Day #8 Ever

[worktowin]

Last Day #7 EVER. Wake up this morning, post roll and reflect that today is Day 7. I will never live again in the pain and discomfort of withdrawl day 1-7 again. Fairly certain day 1-3 and Day 5 were the worst of it for me thus far.

Yesterday the craves came on suddenly (usually around stress). Walked into a store and the line was really long and for some reason my mind said "You cant handle this wait without a dip". Subsequently, I walked out as it was a bit much...It wasnt like I had a dip to take but that scenario is not what I needed, felt it and changed course. Came back an hr later, no line and no urge to dip or kill?. Less overall craves day 6 but they came on much more quickly like a tidal wave. Took a few min each time but they past...read/post/repeat until the urge is gone.

Zero chance I make it 7 days without writing on this forum. Reading my notes day 1-6 and a promise to OCT group has got me through thus far. Thank you all here and in chat that seem to do the trick during a crave. Thank you for holding me accountable to others!

Last Day 7 EVER

One week of freedom. Seriously - this is a huge milestone man!

You are really smart to document this bs that you have lived courtesy of a chopped up plant in a can! This isn't the new normal. You will soon see life get better, then good, then great, then just beyond what you would ever imagine. What nicotine took from you isn't apparent quite yet- right now your mind is still jacking with you a bit and telling you that you are the one that is losing. Lies! Every day you become a stronger and more confident winner. One day at a time.

Congratulations on breaking free!

[Electdale]

Last Day #7 EVER. Wake up this morning, post roll and reflect that today is Day 7. I will never live again in the pain and discomfort of withdrawl day 1-7 again. Fairly certain day 1-3 and Day 5 were the worst of it for me thus far.

Yesterday the craves came on suddenly (usually around stress). Walked into a store and the line was really long and for some reason my mind said "You cant handle this wait without a dip". Subsequently, I walked out as it was a bit much...It wasnt like I had a dip to take but that scenario is not what I needed, felt it and changed course. Came back an hr later, no line and no urge to dip or kill?. Less overall craves day 6 but they came on much more quickly like a tidal wave. Took a few min each time but they past...read/post/repeat until the urge is gone.

Zero chance I make it 7 days without writing on this forum. Reading my notes day 1-6 and a promise to OCT group has got me through thus far. Thank you all here and in chat that seem to do the trick during a crave. Thank you for holding me accountable to others!

Last Day 7 EVER