Congrats on the best decision of your life!!!
Age 15 to 39...that sounds familiar. Oh yes...that is my exact story too. First thing you have to do is decide YOU'RE QUIT...not trying to quit, not giving it a shot, etc. But honest to God quit. Dump and flush your stash, even the cans you've hidden.
Next, click on the Welcome Center link and learn how to post roll and why we do it, what it means, etc. Then post roll and you're a bad-ass quitter.
Then read all you can on this site...read everything in the Welcome Center, read Killthecan.org, and keep reading. Read, vent, shout, cuss...whatever you have to do to get through today. Then wake up and do it again. Don't think about tomorrow, next week, next year, etc...we'll deal with them when they get here. You just focus on doing what you must to stay quit today...and ONLY TODAY.
One day at a time is your new way of life. You really can do this. You may not think so now, but you can. Yes, it is tough, but anything worth doing is. And saving your own life is worth doing. Stay strong by learning about addiction and being an active participant on this site. Everybody has been right where you are right now. We KNOW you. And we know you can beat this.
Post roll and live free!!! Congrats!!!