Hi all- my name is Dee. Today is the first day! I am 12 hours into my quit. I suppose I'll tell a little about myself...
I am a 30 year old wife and mother to two beautiful boys. I always hesitate when or if I decide to tell someone I chew... being a woman who chews ins't very "ladylike"! I smoked for 2 years in my late teens. When I got pregnant with my first son, I quit smoking and haven't gone back. However, my husband (bf at the time) smoked as well and switched to chew so after giving birth I thought why not? That was 9 1/2 years ago. I can't believe I spent a DECADE of my life putting that crap in my mouth. So many times I would hate doing it WHILE I was doing it but would still finish the dip. I feel like I am lazy and chained to where I can have a dip. I'm done. I want to be a better wife and mother and be more active. I am doing it today. I have quit before... longest I made it was 3 weeks- I don't remember much of that time because I was in the middle of a move, away from my husband with my 2 kids, and doing a new job. I was so distracted and upset from missing my husband I barely made it through that part. Then when he was finally able to move up to us (bc of work), he brought the chew with and BAM. That was 2 years ago. For quite awhile I have been doing a tin a day. No more. He still chews, and I know it will be hard with him doing it here but I told him why I'm doing it and recommended he come to this site.
Everyone here has been such an inspiration! I will certainly come as often as I can. I find myself wanting to reach for my chew because that's what I would be doing. It is very weird to me that my whole "plan of action" is altered. My husband is working 16 hour shifts for the next 3 days. I thought this would be the best time to quite to maximize the amount of time he is gone so I don't see it. I am REFUSING to get in my car and go to the gas station lol
I am not feeling edgy or irritated yet but from past experience I know it will come. I worry about snapping at my boys. They are 9 1/2 and 3. But I know they are proud of me for doing this too. I feel dizzy. I also notice that I have the need to be moving... tapping fingers-bouncing my legs- pacing. I feel restless. No matter...I can do this!!! BRING ON THE CHOCOLATE!!! ;-)
Dee
