Welcome. 45 days on your own is badass.
Nice job posting roll. Do that early every morning no matter what. Make your promise, keep your promise. It's that simple.
95% of your intro is great. It's a small 5% that I urge you to reconsider...
For my grandfather, my 3yr old daughter, and the rest of my family.
Do this for yourself. Period. That it will make things better for your daughter and family is icing on the cake. But unless you are selfish, and quit because you want to quit, because you're sick and tired of being a slave to the can, you will not be successful.