Hey everybody ! This is totally not my style, but here it goes! My lying about my addiction has just about ruined my marriage! I started when I was 13 years old, and seeing how my parents were so dead against it I developed a very very good habit of hiding it from everybody. See I was also a leader in my church and many people looked up to me. Well, 16 years, 4 kids, career, and 7 years of marriage later nothing has changed. I have had many times of quitting( as many as 2 years) but somehow always fall off by trying it just once. Then it continues to snowball from there. I always act like I have been quit for awhile and even preach to my students about quitting. I have completely lost my wife's trust through all of this. She does not back down and will not allow me to slip so when I have slipped I end up hiding it for the fear of being found out. I ain't going to lie, I love nicotine especially dip, but I refuse to let this stronghold take hold of me any longer . Mabely this sit will help! Thanks!