My name is Ben and as the title suggests, I am coming to terms with my quit. What I mean is, I am here and I am admitting to myself that I want to quit, need to quit and will quit.
I dipped from ages 15-30 religiously, can a day. Stopped at age 30 for 5 years and picked up a can March of this year. You all know how that goes, I have read the stories and I am just like you...couldn't stop once I had one. Can at night, snus at work to fill the nic void and the cycle went on.
15 days ago I had enough, after reading the boards for months (years actually as I read this site during my first quit) I finally created a username.
Today I posted my commitment to my group and did my best to screw up the roll. I look forward to posting roll (properly) each day and mostly look forward to never being in the fog, depression and anxiety of the first few days of no nicotine ever again. Plus, I had a dip dream last night that solidified my commitment.
