Just decided today that enough was enough. I'm tired of this addiction controlling what I do on a day to day basis. My decision making process usually started with" am I going to be able to get a dip in during (whatever event was going on)" I have 5 yr old twin boys and a 3 yr old daughter that I would very much like to see grow up, they are the biggest inspiration that I am pulling from, but I'm also doing this for myself as I deserve better. I know this is going to be hard, but I can do it!