Finally had enough

[Stillamarine]

Ok got my name added to roll call.

Definitely starting to feel the crazy surges this morning, I am heading to the store in a few minutes to grab some sunflower seeds and gum. I had to step back this morning and catch myself from loosing my cool on the kids while they were arguing before school. I had to remind myself that the lack of Nicotine was what was really causing me to be angry (although my oldest was most definitely being a smart mouth and talking back).

Anyway I remember the initial insanity, which is why I should have stuck with my guns the first two times, so I didn't have to go back through this part again. The first time I quit, I got hard core into the brain fog stage and caved in one night when I really needed to concentrate (For safety reasons at work - I am a police officer and I was on a dangerous SWAT call out), I shouldn't have caved in, but I did, that was two years ago.

I am convinced that first responders/military have some of the most difficult quits because dipping is a big part of the culture. When I quit I was an SRO. Normally during the school year I only dipped a couple times during the day and never outside of work because my wife thought I had quit years ago. Well when I quit it was the summer and we were working patrol. On patrol I dipped almost the entire shift except when I was eating. Day 4 of my quit was on a Monday. About 1pm I started getting the shakes and nausea so bad I had to go to the hole. 20 mins later a high risk call went out that occupied my mind for the next 4 hours. Didn't think about a dip the rest of the day. Don't know if your religious but I'm convinced that call saved me. (Everyone made it out ok btw). We as police officers have a hard time thinking of ourselves as addicts because we see addicts every day. I want you to sit back and reflect on your behavior over the last how ever many years you dipped. Do any of them look familiar? Scrounging pennies to buy a can? Changing your day around to get a dip in? Hiding it from those you love? Craving a dip? Even now. Not knowing how you can make it without it? Brother we are addicts. Maybe our addiction isn't as culturally abhorrent as narcotics or alcohol but it is an addiction all the same. You can make it through this. I promise you. You will have roadblocks. You will have people you trust trying to lure you back. I know. I still have buddies try to get me to take "just that one." Let your teammates and partners know that it is going to be an ordeal. Tell your family. You have an amazing support system here. Trade numbers with your quit group. (I know as cops we are hesitant to give out our numbers to strangers, I was when I first got here but it has been a lifesaver.) You still have to have support in the real world. You got this. No day but today.

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[canofbeans]

Welcome Pain!

You stumbled into a great place with a great bunch of quitters who love seeing more and more people such as yourself telling nicotine to suck it!

Be sure you reach out to other quitters here for their number. It adds a whole other amount of accountability when you can't simply disappear from the website and cave. Whatever you do, post that promise each day and keep it!

[pain108]

Ok got my name added to roll call.

Definitely starting to feel the crazy surges this morning, I am heading to the store in a few minutes to grab some sunflower seeds and gum. I had to step back this morning and catch myself from loosing my cool on the kids while they were arguing before school. I had to remind myself that the lack of Nicotine was what was really causing me to be angry (although my oldest was most definitely being a smart mouth and talking back).

Anyway I remember the initial insanity, which is why I should have stuck with my guns the first two times, so I didn't have to go back through this part again. The first time I quit, I got hard core into the brain fog stage and caved in one night when I really needed to concentrate (For safety reasons at work - I am a police officer and I was on a dangerous SWAT call out), I shouldn't have caved in, but I did, that was two years ago.

[pain108]

As soon as I get to work and have time to check the video, I will post in roll call.

I only said that Inwas officially going to quit on 12/14 because, I had been dipping all day yesterday, technically I quit yesterday afternoon.

[Stranger999]

Alright everyone, I am here to make myself publicly responsible this time. My quit officially starts tomorrow morning. I am done, tired of this crap. I have been dipping for about seven years now and I have quit before (for 45 days and then 10 days), but I slipped back into the evil habit. I want to quit for the right reasons this time, not because my brother quit or because I have a test coming up for nicotine in my blood stream for life insurance, but because I want to for me and because I want to be here for a long time for my wife and two beautiful children.

Here comes the crazy times 'bang head'

Hi there!

Awesome to see you taking the correct steps in signing up on the website, let's make sure you succeed in quitting this time. By taking part in the KTC program then you will be joining a quit group, yours would be March 2018. MARCH 2018 LINK. Every morning you wake up and post your roll call promise which takes no more than 30 seconds.. Here is a link on how to post roll, HOW TO POST ROLL VIDEO..If you invest into your quit then I think we will see a good end result...

Please reach out to me or anyone if you need anything!

Big Red

Welcome and I hope to see you on roll tomorrow. The thing about tomorrow - you always have time to talk yourself out of your plans. Something can always come up in the meantime that prevents actual quitting. That is why we quit TODAY and succeed one day at a time.

[Big Red 77]

Alright everyone, I am here to make myself publicly responsible this time. My quit officially starts tomorrow morning. I am done, tired of this crap. I have been dipping for about seven years now and I have quit before (for 45 days and then 10 days), but I slipped back into the evil habit. I want to quit for the right reasons this time, not because my brother quit or because I have a test coming up for nicotine in my blood stream for life insurance, but because I want to for me and because I want to be here for a long time for my wife and two beautiful children.

Here comes the crazy times 'bang head'

Hi there!

Awesome to see you taking the correct steps in signing up on the website, let's make sure you succeed in quitting this time. By taking part in the KTC program then you will be joining a quit group, yours would be March 2018. MARCH 2018 LINK. Every morning you wake up and post your roll call promise which takes no more than 30 seconds.. Here is a link on how to post roll, HOW TO POST ROLL VIDEO..If you invest into your quit then I think we will see a good end result...

Please reach out to me or anyone if you need anything!

Big Red

[pain108]

Alright everyone, I am here to make myself publicly responsible this time. My quit officially starts tomorrow morning. I am done, tired of this crap. I have been dipping for about seven years now and I have quit before (for 45 days and then 10 days), but I slipped back into the evil habit. I want to quit for the right reasons this time, not because my brother quit or because I have a test coming up for nicotine in my blood stream for life insurance, but because I want to for me and because I want to be here for a long time for my wife and two beautiful children.

Here comes the crazy times 'bang head'