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[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Day 16 - seems longer actually but I think that is because the days don't go as fast as they seemed to go when I was using nicotine.  I guess it is like MJ said, "gotta replace one bad habit with one good habit" and everything will come together. Creating a new reality. Maybe it's just another mind trick. The latest mind trick I'm getting from the Nic Bitch is that I "miss her" and that it was "more fun" with her.  That is a pretty shitty feeling. It's kinda like breaking up with someone....so used to the day to day stuff that you catch yourself realizing that things are different.  It's all good though. 16 days quit is longer than I have ever gone....even combined in 22 years actually from any previous attempts.  Anyone from outside KTC or outside the knowledge of this struggle would believe 16 days is a mere 384 hours and a very small portion of life span pretty much equating to no big deal. I and my fellow KTC family get the enormity of 16 days and the very long, suffocating, aching, mentally straining, physically draining and epic intensity that is 384 hours!

Today I am faced with my first "battle" that has actually required planning on my part to feel ready to face it. I Have to drive for 4.5 hours alone!!!  Now, I love to drive. I spend a lot of time in my car. I have a sweet system and yes, I use the shit out of it. I will probably be deaf early in life.....what?  Huh? Say again? I have nice tint so the world can leave me the hell alone and mind their own business. Low pros and sweet rims to make the ride smooth.  All of that is fine.  Problem is, I have always chewed. This is where my habit started and it has been my "safe haven" for chew time.  I have a bag of seeds, an entire package of gum (the three pack orbit), some grapes in a bag, some carrots, some MM's minis, and a fresh can of Smokey Mountain.  Most importantly, a fully charged cell phone with my Quit Buddies numbers.  Gotta face this shit head on.  See ya tomorrow for Roll!

Good job planning for your drive. Fuck that nic junk dog shit.

Thank you....

Awesome job on having a plan just remember that having a plan is another tool in keeping this nic bitch away from any of us

quitting an addiction is similar to experiencing a death. There are definitely stages and similarities in this process. experiencing anger, sadness, disbelief, etcÂ… you have to give it time, and in time your mind will change. instead of losing a loved one, you'll feel as though you lost an enemy, and thus will be easier to let go in the end. in my eyes the nic bitch is dead, she's no-longer around, and at this point i just don't really care. in time you will feel the same way. peace

And it's good when you realize that you're addicted to dog shit in a can. I was paying for canned dog shit to kill myself with. I could've just went out in my backyard for free dog shit. Good quitting with you Ginet. Sorry for all the dog shit. I'm fired up.

[kana]

Day 16 - seems longer actually but I think that is because the days don't go as fast as they seemed to go when I was using nicotine.  I guess it is like MJ said, "gotta replace one bad habit with one good habit" and everything will come together. Creating a new reality. Maybe it's just another mind trick. The latest mind trick I'm getting from the Nic Bitch is that I "miss her" and that it was "more fun" with her.  That is a pretty shitty feeling. It's kinda like breaking up with someone....so used to the day to day stuff that you catch yourself realizing that things are different.  It's all good though. 16 days quit is longer than I have ever gone....even combined in 22 years actually from any previous attempts.  Anyone from outside KTC or outside the knowledge of this struggle would believe 16 days is a mere 384 hours and a very small portion of life span pretty much equating to no big deal. I and my fellow KTC family get the enormity of 16 days and the very long, suffocating, aching, mentally straining, physically draining and epic intensity that is 384 hours!

Today I am faced with my first "battle" that has actually required planning on my part to feel ready to face it. I Have to drive for 4.5 hours alone!!!  Now, I love to drive. I spend a lot of time in my car. I have a sweet system and yes, I use the shit out of it. I will probably be deaf early in life.....what?  Huh? Say again? I have nice tint so the world can leave me the hell alone and mind their own business. Low pros and sweet rims to make the ride smooth.  All of that is fine.  Problem is, I have always chewed. This is where my habit started and it has been my "safe haven" for chew time.  I have a bag of seeds, an entire package of gum (the three pack orbit), some grapes in a bag, some carrots, some MM's minis, and a fresh can of Smokey Mountain.  Most importantly, a fully charged cell phone with my Quit Buddies numbers.  Gotta face this shit head on.  See ya tomorrow for Roll!

Good job planning for your drive. Fuck that nic junk dog shit.

Thank you....

Awesome job on having a plan just remember that having a plan is another tool in keeping this nic bitch away from any of us

quitting an addiction is similar to experiencing a death. There are definitely stages and similarities in this process. experiencing anger, sadness, disbelief, etcÂ… you have to give it time, and in time your mind will change. instead of losing a loved one, you'll feel as though you lost an enemy, and thus will be easier to let go in the end. in my eyes the nic bitch is dead, she's no-longer around, and at this point i just don't really care. in time you will feel the same way. peace

[Dave1903]

Day 16 - seems longer actually but I think that is because the days don't go as fast as they seemed to go when I was using nicotine.  I guess it is like MJ said, "gotta replace one bad habit with one good habit" and everything will come together. Creating a new reality. Maybe it's just another mind trick. The latest mind trick I'm getting from the Nic Bitch is that I "miss her" and that it was "more fun" with her.  That is a pretty shitty feeling. It's kinda like breaking up with someone....so used to the day to day stuff that you catch yourself realizing that things are different.  It's all good though. 16 days quit is longer than I have ever gone....even combined in 22 years actually from any previous attempts.  Anyone from outside KTC or outside the knowledge of this struggle would believe 16 days is a mere 384 hours and a very small portion of life span pretty much equating to no big deal. I and my fellow KTC family get the enormity of 16 days and the very long, suffocating, aching, mentally straining, physically draining and epic intensity that is 384 hours!

Today I am faced with my first "battle" that has actually required planning on my part to feel ready to face it. I Have to drive for 4.5 hours alone!!!  Now, I love to drive. I spend a lot of time in my car. I have a sweet system and yes, I use the shit out of it. I will probably be deaf early in life.....what?  Huh? Say again? I have nice tint so the world can leave me the hell alone and mind their own business. Low pros and sweet rims to make the ride smooth.  All of that is fine.  Problem is, I have always chewed. This is where my habit started and it has been my "safe haven" for chew time.  I have a bag of seeds, an entire package of gum (the three pack orbit), some grapes in a bag, some carrots, some MM's minis, and a fresh can of Smokey Mountain.  Most importantly, a fully charged cell phone with my Quit Buddies numbers.  Gotta face this shit head on.  See ya tomorrow for Roll!

Good job planning for your drive. Fuck that nic junk dog shit.

Thank you....

Awesome job on having a plan just remember that having a plan is another tool in keeping this nic bitch away from any of us

[Ginet]

Day 16 - seems longer actually but I think that is because the days don't go as fast as they seemed to go when I was using nicotine.  I guess it is like MJ said, "gotta replace one bad habit with one good habit" and everything will come together. Creating a new reality. Maybe it's just another mind trick. The latest mind trick I'm getting from the Nic Bitch is that I "miss her" and that it was "more fun" with her.  That is a pretty shitty feeling. It's kinda like breaking up with someone....so used to the day to day stuff that you catch yourself realizing that things are different.  It's all good though. 16 days quit is longer than I have ever gone....even combined in 22 years actually from any previous attempts.  Anyone from outside KTC or outside the knowledge of this struggle would believe 16 days is a mere 384 hours and a very small portion of life span pretty much equating to no big deal. I and my fellow KTC family get the enormity of 16 days and the very long, suffocating, aching, mentally straining, physically draining and epic intensity that is 384 hours!

Today I am faced with my first "battle" that has actually required planning on my part to feel ready to face it. I Have to drive for 4.5 hours alone!!!  Now, I love to drive. I spend a lot of time in my car. I have a sweet system and yes, I use the shit out of it. I will probably be deaf early in life.....what?  Huh? Say again? I have nice tint so the world can leave me the hell alone and mind their own business. Low pros and sweet rims to make the ride smooth.  All of that is fine.  Problem is, I have always chewed. This is where my habit started and it has been my "safe haven" for chew time.  I have a bag of seeds, an entire package of gum (the three pack orbit), some grapes in a bag, some carrots, some MM's minis, and a fresh can of Smokey Mountain.  Most importantly, a fully charged cell phone with my Quit Buddies numbers.  Gotta face this shit head on.  See ya tomorrow for Roll!

Good job planning for your drive. Fuck that nic junk dog shit.

Thank you....

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Day 16 - seems longer actually but I think that is because the days don't go as fast as they seemed to go when I was using nicotine. I guess it is like MJ said, "gotta replace one bad habit with one good habit" and everything will come together. Creating a new reality. Maybe it's just another mind trick. The latest mind trick I'm getting from the Nic Bitch is that I "miss her" and that it was "more fun" with her. That is a pretty shitty feeling. It's kinda like breaking up with someone....so used to the day to day stuff that you catch yourself realizing that things are different. It's all good though. 16 days quit is longer than I have ever gone....even combined in 22 years actually from any previous attempts. Anyone from outside KTC or outside the knowledge of this struggle would believe 16 days is a mere 384 hours and a very small portion of life span pretty much equating to no big deal. I and my fellow KTC family get the enormity of 16 days and the very long, suffocating, aching, mentally straining, physically draining and epic intensity that is 384 hours!

Today I am faced with my first "battle" that has actually required planning on my part to feel ready to face it. I Have to drive for 4.5 hours alone!!! Now, I love to drive. I spend a lot of time in my car. I have a sweet system and yes, I use the shit out of it. I will probably be deaf early in life.....what? Huh? Say again? I have nice tint so the world can leave me the hell alone and mind their own business. Low pros and sweet rims to make the ride smooth. All of that is fine. Problem is, I have always chewed. This is where my habit started and it has been my "safe haven" for chew time. I have a bag of seeds, an entire package of gum (the three pack orbit), some grapes in a bag, some carrots, some MM's minis, and a fresh can of Smokey Mountain. Most importantly, a fully charged cell phone with my Quit Buddies numbers. Gotta face this shit head on. See ya tomorrow for Roll!

Good job planning for your drive. Fuck that nic junk dog shit.

[Ginet]

Day 16 - seems longer actually but I think that is because the days don't go as fast as they seemed to go when I was using nicotine. I guess it is like MJ said, "gotta replace one bad habit with one good habit" and everything will come together. Creating a new reality. Maybe it's just another mind trick. The latest mind trick I'm getting from the Nic Bitch is that I "miss her" and that it was "more fun" with her. That is a pretty shitty feeling. It's kinda like breaking up with someone....so used to the day to day stuff that you catch yourself realizing that things are different. It's all good though. 16 days quit is longer than I have ever gone....even combined in 22 years actually from any previous attempts. Anyone from outside KTC or outside the knowledge of this struggle would believe 16 days is a mere 384 hours and a very small portion of life span pretty much equating to no big deal. I and my fellow KTC family get the enormity of 16 days and the very long, suffocating, aching, mentally straining, physically draining and epic intensity that is 384 hours!

Today I am faced with my first "battle" that has actually required planning on my part to feel ready to face it. I Have to drive for 4.5 hours alone!!! Now, I love to drive. I spend a lot of time in my car. I have a sweet system and yes, I use the shit out of it. I will probably be deaf early in life.....what? Huh? Say again? I have nice tint so the world can leave me the hell alone and mind their own business. Low pros and sweet rims to make the ride smooth. All of that is fine. Problem is, I have always chewed. This is where my habit started and it has been my "safe haven" for chew time. I have a bag of seeds, an entire package of gum (the three pack orbit), some grapes in a bag, some carrots, some MM's minis, and a fresh can of Smokey Mountain. Most importantly, a fully charged cell phone with my Quit Buddies numbers. Gotta face this shit head on. See ya tomorrow for Roll!

[RAZD611]

I use this Intro thread to keep track of thoughts or situations that come up as my quit continues.  Helpful to me, entertaining sometimes, and maybe helpful to someone down the road. Either way, it's a good thing. So, I guess part of the quit is awareness of the destruction of tobacco/nicotine....that point where it finally sinks in, deep in your core, and the shell begins to harden around you to protect you from it. That hit me last night around 2:45 am when of course, I was awake with insomnia again. I literally looked at my husband who was fast asleep and my mind screamed out to him "Please hate Copenhagen (his brand", "Please look at the photos and read the stories" "Please don't die" "Please don't let my 100 day celebration be the same day that you waited too long to stop"  And finally, I noted in my intro that "we" have custody of his son, (my step-son).  It is actually HE that has custody as the "father" and I legally basically have shit even though I have been mom forever. Therefore, should my husband die while our son is a minor, my son will go back to his birth mother.  No, that's not gonna be something that I will let Nicotine take from me! So, needless to say last night was a bit rough. I'm thankful for it though because a dose of reality is all I want. Keep it real. Keep it on track. Keep it going, One day at a time!  Here's to a better day 13....lucky 13!

Ginny - glad you're active on your intro. This will be an invaluable tool down the road when you look back at how miserable things were to start. You will realize that as long as it took to get through the suck, once you've reached the other side, the craves don't come as often, the side effects of quitting have mostly subsided, and all in all you're a healthier person, you will marvel at the fact that you had enough gumption to do it once and for all.

You've been a great inspiration to your April 2014 and to many others on the site as well. Keep at it and your quit will ironclad in short order. Proud to be quit with you today.

ODAAT

Ah, the old jedi mind trick while he is sleeping.

I think it happend to me the other night. For some reason I when I woke up on Sunday I didn't feel like going fishing. I could not for the life of me figure out why till now.

Need to change my name from Razd to sleeping with one eye open.


All you can control is yourself and your destiny.

[jzzyzag01]

I use this Intro thread to keep track of thoughts or situations that come up as my quit continues. Helpful to me, entertaining sometimes, and maybe helpful to someone down the road. Either way, it's a good thing. So, I guess part of the quit is awareness of the destruction of tobacco/nicotine....that point where it finally sinks in, deep in your core, and the shell begins to harden around you to protect you from it. That hit me last night around 2:45 am when of course, I was awake with insomnia again. I literally looked at my husband who was fast asleep and my mind screamed out to him "Please hate Copenhagen (his brand", "Please look at the photos and read the stories" "Please don't die" "Please don't let my 100 day celebration be the same day that you waited too long to stop" And finally, I noted in my intro that "we" have custody of his son, (my step-son). It is actually HE that has custody as the "father" and I legally basically have shit even though I have been mom forever. Therefore, should my husband die while our son is a minor, my son will go back to his birth mother. No, that's not gonna be something that I will let Nicotine take from me! So, needless to say last night was a bit rough. I'm thankful for it though because a dose of reality is all I want. Keep it real. Keep it on track. Keep it going, One day at a time! Here's to a better day 13....lucky 13!

Ginny - glad you're active on your intro. This will be an invaluable tool down the road when you look back at how miserable things were to start. You will realize that as long as it took to get through the suck, once you've reached the other side, the craves don't come as often, the side effects of quitting have mostly subsided, and all in all you're a healthier person, you will marvel at the fact that you had enough gumption to do it once and for all.

You've been a great inspiration to your April 2014 and to many others on the site as well. Keep at it and your quit will ironclad in short order. Proud to be quit with you today.

ODAAT

[Ginet]

I use this Intro thread to keep track of thoughts or situations that come up as my quit continues. Helpful to me, entertaining sometimes, and maybe helpful to someone down the road. Either way, it's a good thing. So, I guess part of the quit is awareness of the destruction of tobacco/nicotine....that point where it finally sinks in, deep in your core, and the shell begins to harden around you to protect you from it. That hit me last night around 2:45 am when of course, I was awake with insomnia again. I literally looked at my husband who was fast asleep and my mind screamed out to him "Please hate Copenhagen (his brand", "Please look at the photos and read the stories" "Please don't die" "Please don't let my 100 day celebration be the same day that you waited too long to stop" And finally, I noted in my intro that "we" have custody of his son, (my step-son). It is actually HE that has custody as the "father" and I legally basically have shit even though I have been mom forever. Therefore, should my husband die while our son is a minor, my son will go back to his birth mother. No, that's not gonna be something that I will let Nicotine take from me! So, needless to say last night was a bit rough. I'm thankful for it though because a dose of reality is all I want. Keep it real. Keep it on track. Keep it going, One day at a time! Here's to a better day 13....lucky 13!

[MN_Ben]

Hi Emmy. Yes I had this today. Was supposed to be tuesday but got pushed back. ...anyway it was the 5th one and I hope the last one as my mouth heals from my quit. I am sure guys want teeth but a chic MUST have them. I was mortified at the thought of not having a tooth there in the front of my smile. ...damm tobacco use! Hard and expensive lesson but a necessary one indeed. There is a price to pay. This is just one of mine.

hang in there, you are doing great..

Seriously though the description of that made me cringe.. You are one tough lady..

[Ginet]

Hi Emmy. Yes I had this today. Was supposed to be tuesday but got pushed back. ...anyway it was the 5th one and I hope the last one as my mouth heals from my quit. I am sure guys want teeth but a chic MUST have them. I was mortified at the thought of not having a tooth there in the front of my smile. ...damm tobacco use! Hard and expensive lesson but a necessary one indeed. There is a price to pay. This is just one of mine.

[Emulator]

Yea!!!! Another dental implant! They are so wonderful. Just think about it. Your jaw is basically held open while the tooth you have or the bits of what remained of a tooth, are extracted. OOOOHhh here comes the blood. Then they like to make a nice slice into your bleeding gums to peel them back a bit to get a better look at the path they need to drill through to get into your jaw bone. Don't want them slipping and drilling out of the side of your mouth.

So when the bleeding stops a bit and the drilling path is clear, it's on. Drilling through your gums into your freaking jaw bone with a screw in order to catch bone and keep it in place.

The screw is long enough to hand about a quart of an inch from your gum line once secured into your jawbone.

The temp tooth is molded and adhered so you don't have to walk around like a jack o lantern and you get to come back in two weeks to have a porcelain crown screwed onto the deal.

Now, you can look forward to this if you really want to keep your front teeth, or just go have them pulled and be toothless. You will have to make a decision either way when you choose to use chewing tobacco. No lie.

Have you had this done? Sounds really bad.Are you still hanging strong Ginet? It has been a increasing roller coaster for me days 7-8-9. Hang in there.

[Ginet]

Yea!!!! Another dental implant! They are so wonderful. Just think about it. Your jaw is basically held open while the tooth you have or the bits of what remained of a tooth, are extracted. OOOOHhh here comes the blood. Then they like to make a nice slice into your bleeding gums to peel them back a bit to get a better look at the path they need to drill through to get into your jaw bone. Don't want them slipping and drilling out of the side of your mouth.

So when the bleeding stops a bit and the drilling path is clear, it's on. Drilling through your gums into your freaking jaw bone with a screw in order to catch bone and keep it in place.

The screw is long enough to hand about a quart of an inch from your gum line once secured into your jawbone.

The temp tooth is molded and adhered so you don't have to walk around like a jack o lantern and you get to come back in two weeks to have a porcelain crown screwed onto the deal.

Now, you can look forward to this if you really want to keep your front teeth, or just go have them pulled and be toothless. You will have to make a decision either way when you choose to use chewing tobacco. No lie.

[MN_Ben]

Note to self (and any other newbie out there)
This bitch who calls herself NICOTINE has an unexpected way of coming back strong and mean on day 8. I hate her. She is cruel and evil. I was having a fine day and WHAM, like a freaking rock and a roundhouse kick to the head, she's there, staring at me, seducing me with her calm and soothing tone "Good Afternoon Ginet, how have you been? I've missed you" It was definitely a Smokey Mountain kind of drive home, a few choice words screamed aloud in my car in-between high volumes of some of my favorite rage tunes. Day 2 violent Ginet was near by........log on......come here......get control......and still quit! Thanks KTC for arming me with knowledge and reminding me to not be a Puss, suck it up and move on and DO it. 'winker'

Why can I like cat videos on facebook but I cant hit a button to like this?

Doesn't matter, cause I LOVE THIS

[Emulator]

Note to self (and any other newbie out there)
This bitch who calls herself NICOTINE has an unexpected way of coming back strong and mean on day 8. I hate her. She is cruel and evil. I was having a fine day and WHAM, like a freaking rock and a roundhouse kick to the head, she's there, staring at me, seducing me with her calm and soothing tone "Good Afternoon Ginet, how have you been? I've missed you" It was definitely a Smokey Mountain kind of drive home, a few choice words screamed aloud in my car in-between high volumes of some of my favorite rage tunes. Day 2 violent Ginet was near by........log on......come here......get control......and still quit! Thanks KTC for arming me with knowledge and reminding me to not be a Puss, suck it up and move on and DO it. 'winker'

You're Awesome "G" . Outstanding Nic B ass kickin' post.