Day 55,
Walked into a cluster at work, total chaos, understaffed(bad employees), and total lack of communication overall. I spent the first hour and a half, fixing everything that our general manager screws up daily. It truly is incredible he still has a job, with the amount of poor business decisions, customer service skills, and overall introvertive personality. Through all of this I have some how managed to stay sort of calm, and not even consider bumming a pinch off of one the donkeys I call employees.
I honestly could not stand work for the last two years, but if i didn't work here I would not have been able to continue my passion of coaching. They told me either I work at the rink or find employment else were coaching wise. Not sure if it was boarder line depression, or just pure anger in general, I got pretty low in overall self esteem. I was drinking to much, chewing way more then usual, and packed on the pounds. My friends and family couldn't stand being around me, I was in a bad place, and didn't even realize it.
April 15th I found this site a Day after I stopped dipping, this place has been a true life saver ever since. Its given me so much more then just being nicotine free, I've started to take control of my life again. I've re-enrolled in school, slowed the drinking almost to a halt, I'm slowly getting back into shape, dieting, and most importantly staying true to my promise everyday. As stupid as it sounds, I am actually happy with my life.
I really have no idea why I decide to ramble on this afternoon. Mostly, I would just like to thank everyone here, for being so supportive, and wanting to help everybody fight through their addiction to nicotine. This is not the end for me, that promise to not use nicotine for 24 hours, has changed my way of life for the better.I quit with everyone today!
Murph