My baby boy that I had prayed so hard for, turned one, on July 3rd. While giving him a shower, and enjoying a dip, I noticed that every time I spit, he would lean over in my arms, and do the same. I guess at first I thought it was cute, daddy's boy and all that stuff. Then it hit me, he is going to grow up doing whatever he sees me doing. I may as well teach him to look down the barrel of a gun while I'm at it. It took me a few days, but after finding this site, and seeing ODT's pictures, I took my dip out, dumped what I had left, and do not plan on turning back. I am now 32 years old, and have been dipping since I was ten. It was Copenhagen Snuff until 1996 when Long cut came out, and that has been my drug ever since. I used to smoke, and dip. I kicked the smokes over three years ago, and now it's time to do the same with the can. I guess it is time to lay boyish things aside.
My baby boy that I had prayed so hard for, turned one, on July 3rd. While giving him a shower, and enjoying a dip, I noticed that every time I spit, he would lean over in my arms, and do the same. I guess at first I thought it was cute, daddy's boy and all that stuff. Then it hit me, he is going to grow up doing whatever he sees me doing. I may as well teach him to look down the barrel of a gun while I'm at it. It took me a few days, but after finding this site, and seeing ODT's pictures, I took my dip out, dumped what I had left, and do not plan on turning back. I am now 32 years old, and have been dipping since I was ten. It was Copenhagen Snuff until 1996 when Long cut came out, and that has been my drug ever since. I used to smoke, and dip. I kicked the smokes over three years ago, and now it's time to do the same with the can. I guess it is time to lay boyish things aside.
I can relate to what you are speaking about. I have two children. I would keep a bottle on my desk non-see through. I always thought I was tricking them. I wasn't, I was hurting them. I have a son, who wants to be just like dad, always wants me to take him to the gym or watch me in my soccer games. My daughter is 17 even though she is going through that rebellious stage. She stills comes to dad to talk. She knows dad is always there for her. I don't to take that away from her because I was stupid. Believe me I have been stupid for 27 years.
It is almost 3 weeks now. Some days it seems like no problems. Sure I think about the dip. But I am able to push it out of my head and remind myself why I am doing this. I like my jaw where it is. I want to see my daughter and son get married have children. I don't want to be that idiot that has to sit down and tell them I have cancer because I was putting this crap in my mouth.
Other days are tough, family stress work stress and I am dying for that dip. My mind plays the games, one dip no big deal. As I go to the gym there is a Royal Farm store calling my name. But I don't go in. I do have to be honest though. I have told all of my friends what I am doing, even the guys I work out with. So they keep me honest too.
So far there have been a couple of members on here who have regularly contacted me as well to check up on me. I ask them questions, tell them some of the physical things I experienced. They have been very helpful.
I appreciate that.
