Zak3188- Day 1!!! So I am embarrassed and ashamed to say that I fell off the wagon. What I am about to tell ya'all is why it happened and by no means is it an excuse for doing so. I should have reached out for help instead of turning back to the Nic BITCH!! But instead I stayed to myself and caved like a pussy!! I had someone very close to me pass away and I had medical issues going on that really depressed me. I was angry and pissed off all the time. I went back to my old habbits and bought a can thinking Im only going to take one dip and then I will be fine. One led to two then two to three then so on and so forth until I started to believe I needed it again. I was taking a shit this morning had a dip in looked at myself in the mirror and was disgusted with myself and what I was doing. Im no longer depressed about what happened I was just dipping becuase I thought I needed it. Well FUCK THAT NIC BITCH! I am fully prepared to be bitched at called a pussy and take all the beatings from all of you for caving. But right now I do need support from you guys and to be held accountable to drop this shit again for the last time! I apologize for caving and not contacting anyone before it happened. I know better and should have. Sorry for letting my previous HOF Class down.
what you need to want/need this more than air
no excuses.
post roll every damn day 1st thing when your feet hit the floor
get involved with your quit group
write a quit plan
exchange numbers and expect to have your phone blown up if you miss roll call
rinse and repeat
This isn't a kickball game.. Newbs, get digits from your group, reach out BEFORE you cave. it isn't rocket science. 'finger point'
This is what bothers me about this you know what you should have done and you didn't do any of it. For some reason you felt nicotine would make the problem/s better. here is a simple formula that one of the brothers here on the site has devised it is simple and can be applied to any future problem you have
1problem+nicotine=2 problems.
Tattoo that on your forehead if you have too so you see it when you look in the mirror.
I have see your total posts count pretty low which means that you were a bump and run kind of person. This also means that you didn't spend much time paying it forward or back. So you posted once in your intro and the rest roll but not much investment was made on your behalf as opposed to all that reached out to you.
In YOUR future PLAN OF QUIT, I would become accountable to everyone in your new group as well as your old group(share digits), post roll in both groups, if you have any left in your tank help someone who is struggling.
Go back to the basics of this site accept this time believe them!
