Just wanted to post an update. I'm on day 15 and I've noticed a few things. First, Nicotine is one son of a bitch. Two, it won't win, not a chance in hell. Not as long as I have the support of the KTC community behind me.
I've tried to quit in the past, but failed every time. I've tried not thinking about dip, but that just leaves me open to a cave when I do think about it. Instead of fighting it head on I'm hiding from it and when it rears its head, I cave.
This time, I think about dip. I think about it all the time. I think about it when I'm posting roll. I think about it when I'm texting fellow quitters. I think about it to and from work. But each time I think about it, I'm also thinking about how much stronger I am than dip. I'm learning how to overcome cravings instead of trying to run from them.
Also, I just want to say how the quit has affected me so far.
So day 1 I had a pretty nasty fog, really couldn't even tell you what happened that day. Pretty sure it was better than any day on dip.
Day 2 I got hit with a head cold (sore throat, nasal congestion, light cough) and that lasted up until about day 8 or 9. I don't know what else happened, the cold kind of ruled everything for that week.
Day 10-13, I actually felt pretty good. My wit was quicker than normal and I felt good, accomplished.
Day 14 and the first part of today was weird. I was definitely thinking about dip more than previously, but still no chance of a cave. Like I stated earlier, thinking about it is helping me to tackle it head on. I don't want to forget about dip, I want to learn about the addiction and how to manage it.
Anyways, rant over. More to come.