just started my first job out of college. lot of the guys i worked with dipped, i'd always thought it was nasty - but i worked outside and for some reason, it sounded good. that was over 5 years ago, and although i had a stint of about 8 months of not dipping, it's been a habit i've hid from nearly everyone since.
i told myself i'd quit when i proposed to my future wife. didn't happen.
i told myself i'd quit when i moved in with my future wife. didn't happen.
i told myself i'd quit when i married my wife. didn't happen.
i told myself i'd switch from pouches to long cut bc i hated long cut and that would make me quit. didn't happen.
had plenty of close calls/wakeup calls. one of the best was signing up for life insurance but not realizing i was going to take a urine test for tobacco. had barely enough time to detox and pass.
time to man up and stop making excuses.
It's very easy to find the excuse to keep chewing.
As you have learned, it's also very easy to set a target Quit date and not follow through.
That list you have is one that we've all had.
And it would continue with:
When my child is born
When my second child is born
When my child's birthday arrives
When my anniversary arrives
etc....
It just never ends.
Glad you realize that enough is enough. You can do it and we can help you. Read as much as you can and pay attention to what people are telling you.
PM me if I can be of any assistance to you.
Brian