I'm on day 2 and still none, I feel like crap today but I refuse to go back to dipping. I'm glad I've found this group, I can already see it's going to help a lot.
Embrace the suck! You are doing great! Just stay quit today, and make that promise again tomorrow. The suck will fade, and you quit will grow stronger.
Make a mental note of how shitty you feel today and honestly will feel for about a week and then remember you never want to feel like that again
I have a suggestion for you and I have found it to be helpful more than once during my quit. Starting today get a journal and keep track of your quit each day. How you feel, the struggles you are having, the night sweats, loss of appetite etc. Write it all down in vivid detail. When you want to rage get the journal out and write it all down. Even the days when you are so foggy you cannot get a clear thought need to be written in the journal. Hold nothing back. Why you say ?
Here is why; believe it or not there will be a day in the not too distant future, when you will be far removed from the NIC bitches recovery effects. A day when the pain of quitting has faded, you feel great. A day when the fear of physical damages done have subsided. A day when the reasons you quit are not so clear anymore. A day when the whisper of " I have this beaten, I deserve just one" starts playing in your head. "I have this thing licked, I do not need to post anymore" will be your next thought. " I no longer need the site or my brothers" and you wander away and eventually find yourself back in the arms of the bitch.
When those days arrive, and they will, go get your journal out and in your own words read about the misery you endured to get to where you are. Remember every miserable second of it, then get your ass lined back out, get in here and post your promise and stay quit. Always remember you are an addict and you are NEVER cured.
STAY QUIT
Greg
