I'm behind doug: May the line start here. I also dipped for over 38 yrs. hid it from my family also. Not just a 2nd job HELL IT WAS A 2ND LIFE!!!! I quit also for about 3 yrs when I first got married 32 yrs ago but went back to the ex as soon as I got settled into married life and our daughter came along. We've all had the sores, the fear of the big C, fear of being caught, fear of acknowledgeing were addicts and all the other shit. 65 days ago I sat where you are now. I went and sat by the toilet and said good bye to my ex again (FLUSHED 3 FULL CANS OF COPE DOWN THE SHITTER WHERE IT BELONGED) This time for good. I remind her and myself every morning that we are through. If I can do it so can you. WHO'S NEXT?? I see a damn long line forming.