DAY 4 New here long time lurker

[hemistry08]

all i can say is coffee can't touch as a replacement LOL went out and over ate at 2 sports bars yesterday desperately craving nic..and got a coffee....served it's purpose ...on the path another day nicotine free....
thank you for the support guys and gals!!

[Candoit]

day 7 and staying strong last 2 days sick to stomach (not real sickness) cravings come and go..but i will not budge....2 giant tests today first one down- usually clean the kitchen and do housework on Saturdays then go the tavern to watch football.....first one down just finished everything with no dip - never thought it would be possible always looked forward to the dip as a reward during cleaning....this time though I am quit so spent my time in what would have been spitting sipping cold water from me hydro flask...feel really GREAT mentally - strong and motivated...physical will come and go ... never going back...no matter what!

Hell yes! Victories big or small are all huge! Remember as many as you can. You're doing this quit by the book and that's what it takes. Some come in here and try doing it there way, modifying what they don't like or what's a little tough for them. Stay the path you're on and you will have no problems! Damn proud to be quit with you!

You have my digits. I am here, as are many others, we are strong enough, so you do not have to be.

[pab1964]

day 7 and staying strong last 2 days sick to stomach (not real sickness) cravings come and go..but i will not budge....2 giant tests today first one down- usually clean the kitchen and do housework on Saturdays then go the tavern to watch football.....first one down just finished everything with no dip - never thought it would be possible always looked forward to the dip as a reward during cleaning....this time though I am quit so spent my time in what would have been spitting sipping cold water from me hydro flask...feel really GREAT mentally - strong and motivated...physical will come and go ... never going back...no matter what!

Hell yes! Victories big or small are all huge! Remember as many as you can. You're doing this quit by the book and that's what it takes. Some come in here and try doing it there way, modifying what they don't like or what's a little tough for them. Stay the path you're on and you will have no problems! Damn proud to be quit with you!

[hemistry08]

day 7 and staying strong last 2 days sick to stomach (not real sickness) cravings come and go..but i will not budge....2 giant tests today first one down- usually clean the kitchen and do housework on Saturdays then go the tavern to watch football.....first one down just finished everything with no dip - never thought it would be possible always looked forward to the dip as a reward during cleaning....this time though I am quit so spent my time in what would have been spitting sipping cold water from me hydro flask...feel really GREAT mentally - strong and motivated...physical will come and go ... never going back...no matter what!

[Gdubya]

Hey Brotha, you are doing a great job. The stresses that life throws out at you is just the healing process taking place. It really is strange how simple tasks during the initial part of Quitting can be such as task. Yet even though the fog can cause things to be difficult, I assure you, when this passes, you will have new clarity that you've never known. Keep up the hard work. It really does get better day by day. It so worth all of your effort. Freedom is actually priceless. And that's because we earn it. One day at a Time !

[hemistry08]

I must say last night was the toughest test yet, but yet the most rewarding because I fought the nicotine b*tch and kicked her ass.
Normally at 5 PM I head down to our company gym, but I was still working on documents till seven. On days like these when work interferes with exercise, I would pack my computer up, get excited for the ride home and stop by the store and grab some cope skoal whatever they had shove it in and buzz out on the way home to finish work.
Last night I felt that same excitement - but quickly reminded that craving that the option to put that dirt in my mouth was never going to happen again. I stayed and finished my work, then went down and worked out late, and as I drove home I passed those 3 stores that used to be my haven for buying tobacco.
I felt a brief sense of anxiety when I drove by but yet at the same time the feelings of elation/excitement overwhelmed as I passed them.
I know my calling and it gets stronger everyday.

As I read the many posts on here as much as I can the HOF speeches, and the tons of member posts I remind myself I am in a brotherhood and that I will not let you or myself down.

No headache last night, or this morning, a little un-rested on 5 hours sleep but the feeling of freedom has it's own little high and I am going to ride that wave through my many days of ups and downs. There will be a long road ahead for the rest of my life but the base I have established here will keep me focused on my main goal -never again will i touch nicotine in any form.

take care all i am feeling better each and everyday and you KTC guys are a huge reason for it.

Stay strong and focused.

[Viking]

the mental and physical effects are taking it's toll, I just got word 15 documents I did this week have to be rewritten....I about passed out - went out and took some breaths and did some quick one minute meditation to recover...gonna post this before I settle down to work.

This morning I ran into an artifact of last week, I put out my dry cleaning on Thursdays and ran into a wad of tobacco I dry heaved out last week while putting the clothes out back then on the same spot. In my rush to get an extra buzz since I was running late - I over-loaded my top and lower lips with skoal and ended up dry heaving all over the front porch. What did I do? Swept is aside in a pile and I went in and rinsed my mouth out and put more in for the ride to work.

I am not that person anymore - the more I read on here the stronger I get - I know I am not alone and all of the posts here and HOF give me inspiration and solidifies my attitude that I am succeeding everyday I make that roll promise.
Never again I mutter as the fog sets in.

will try to post more tonight in support of the KTC brothers and sisters here.

You, sir, will be a BAQ in no time. I love your attitude and the way you are doing this.

Proud to quit with you!

[hemistry08]

the mental and physical effects are taking it's toll, I just got word 15 documents I did this week have to be rewritten....I about passed out - went out and took some breaths and did some quick one minute meditation to recover...gonna post this before I settle down to work.

This morning I ran into an artifact of last week, I put out my dry cleaning on Thursdays and ran into a wad of tobacco I dry heaved out last week while putting the clothes out back then on the same spot. In my rush to get an extra buzz since I was running late - I over-loaded my top and lower lips with skoal and ended up dry heaving all over the front porch. What did I do? Swept is aside in a pile and I went in and rinsed my mouth out and put more in for the ride to work.

I am not that person anymore - the more I read on here the stronger I get - I know I am not alone and all of the posts here and HOF give me inspiration and solidifies my attitude that I am succeeding everyday I make that roll promise.
Never again I mutter as the fog sets in.

will try to post more tonight in support of the KTC brothers and sisters here.

[Candoit]

Nice work getting around to the other intro's to new quitters. Way to build that accountability early.

thanks brother just trying to give back what i take.
I feel absolutely terrible today...hit me like a ton of bricks getting ready for work after breakfast...sipped some strong black coffee on the way to work dizzy and nauseous but there is light at the end of the tunnel headed to day 6 and beyond never going back...

Never forget the way you feel now. Fight through it. Hour by hour if necessary. I can promise you the reward is so worth it. You are doing great. Keep crushing it.

It sucks till it doesnt. Push through and remember the lows, it makes the good that much better.

[JGlav]

Nice work getting around to the other intro's to new quitters. Way to build that accountability early.

thanks brother just trying to give back what i take.
I feel absolutely terrible today...hit me like a ton of bricks getting ready for work after breakfast...sipped some strong black coffee on the way to work dizzy and nauseous but there is light at the end of the tunnel headed to day 6 and beyond never going back...

Never forget the way you feel now. Fight through it. Hour by hour if necessary. I can promise you the reward is so worth it. You are doing great. Keep crushing it.

[hemistry08]

Nice work getting around to the other intro's to new quitters. Way to build that accountability early.

thanks brother just trying to give back what i take.
I feel absolutely terrible today...hit me like a ton of bricks getting ready for work after breakfast...sipped some strong black coffee on the way to work dizzy and nauseous but there is light at the end of the tunnel headed to day 6 and beyond never going back...

[JGlav]

Nice work getting around to the other intro's to new quitters. Way to build that accountability early.

[hemistry08]

thank you guys all i appreciate it- had a long talk with the wife last night - showed her this site and she is offering her support....was wondering why I had starting writing X's on the calendar. LOL. She hated me having that stuff in my mouth the cups of brown spit everywhere- you know the deal.
I found some old nicorettes last night doing a clean sweep of my kitchen and tossed them. I used to use them at work or other places to try and get my fix in a clean way, but since I quit nicotine - there is no need for replacements. My mom quit smoking years ago with nicotine gum and is still on them. I don't see the point of keeping the poison around to prolong the pain.
My doc put me on ambien (Monday) because of my insomnia - ongoing for last few years and I have sleep apnea (sleep with a bi-pap) so it seemed to help sleep, but it robs me of my dreams.
woke up feeling pretty good physically - well rested - but my mind is out of control - racing... anxious - got up at 5 am and took my dog for about 1/2 mile brisk walk and drank 4 glasses of water ...no headache for now and prepping for work...i'll never go back. toughest part of the day coming is my ride to work.... but i'll make it....will check in later today...thankful for all of you and this site.

[FLLipOut]

Hemi...all solid advice ^^^ up there so far. Read everything you can about this addiction. Become an expert. There is great advice here, whyquit.com has an enormous nicotine quit library, read Allen Carr's book (The Easy Way to Stop Smoking...but don't let the smoking throw you, it is about nicotine). Once you really see it for what it is - a drug addiction (read that again and let it set in...you,me, all of us are nicotine addicts), it will make it easier to hate it...which will in turn make it easier to battle. Also, about a dozen times (a day, some days!) you are going to think...am I ever going to sleep again, lose the rage, lose the fog, feel NORMAL again?! The answer is YES. I promise you that. But you have to give your body a chance to heal and your brain time to rewire. In the meantime, just take it one day at a time and lean on everyone here. We are all here for you and YOU WILL DO THIS!

[Candoit]

You shared alot. Keep sharing, keep posting, keep being active.

Here are Candy's 4 corner stones of quit:
- You are only as accountable as you let yourself be.
- You post and ghost your ass is toast.
- There is no such thing as cured, only quit.
- We quit for 24 hours. We can do anything for 24 hours.

It has worked for 863 days, I do not plan on changing it now.