I had been dipping for about 22 years. Never smoked, didn't drink much, but one of my best friends offered it up(cherry skoal) i reluctantly tried it and started spinning maybe 30secs later. I bought my first can the next day. Not sure why i liked it but i did and was hooked. I started with Cherry Skoal and transitioned to Kodiak at some point and then back to skoal. Even chewed the LG Leaf for while. I played baseball into college and never dipped until after baseball ironically enough. Once i started playing tourney slowpitch the addiction really kicked in. if you weren't dipping you were in the minority. Stopped playing slowpitch after about 10 years and concentrated my efforts on golf which definitely didn't help the addiction. I travel a descent amount for work which gives me idle time to dip. doesn't matter if i am on a 13 hour flight or 1 hr flight, id have a can. If i was flying to EURO for a long trip (1 week) id make sure i had 2 -3 cans with me. It was just stupid, its embarrassing to write it. I have 2 amazing daughters and an absolute angel of a wife who loves me unconditionally. She has wanted me to quit for a long time for really no other reason than to make sure i am around for my daughters and her for a very long time. For some reason the addiction was stronger than that and i am ashamed to admit it its true. I lost my dad about 1 1/2 years ago to cancer and for some reason that didnt kick me in the a$$ enough to quit. We lost him to cancer in about 2 weeks. He found out, we talked thanksgiving day and said we needed to fly to florida to see him and to bring the girls because it was going to happen fast. My dad wasnt the healthiest man but when i arrived in florida he was up and walking around like the last time i saw him about 1 year. 1 week later he was gone. The cancer just ate him up in the matter of a week. Im sure it was in him for a while but from what we saw it it killed him in a week. I was mad, sad, all good reasons to dip regardless of what my family just went through. My girls are in HS now and although they are a pain in my butt some times i love them more than anything in this world and i realized it was finally time for me to show that. I also want to show my wife she means more to me than some stupid can of cancer. I want to quit, i dont want to end up like my dad and put my kids and wife through that because of my pour choices. I have been such a hypocrite for the longest time because i would always tell my girls and my wife, when they were going somewhere, "be good, be responsible, make good decisions, I love you" and then 2 mins later i was doing the complete opposite and stuffing that crap in my mouth. My oldest daughter just received her 1st car the other day and will have her license in about 3 weeks. My younger daughter is only about 1 year behind her. I want to be there for them when they need me and when i need them to need me. Same goes for my wife. Im stronger than i have shown the past 20+ years when it comes to this stupid addiction and its time i started acting like. I will need all of your help. I tried on my own and couldn't do it.
I visited this site a few years ago and everything i read inspired me to quit, so i did, cold turkey. I never signed up or posted roll and i was good, really good for little more than a year. Then for some stupid reason i cant even remember, although i know was leaving an Angel game (Anaheim, CA), i had the crazy urge to dip so i decide i could have 1 or even the whole can and not even flinch about quitting again. Well that was at least 3-4 years ago and i am proud to say i am now 2 days quit.
I will not have nicotine today.
Thank you, KTC
