D-Day was Feb 28/Mar 01, 2010

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I pulled this from another introduction up the page.

There is no such thing as "just one"

Sobering.

Hello fellow addicts and quitters. This is Day 1 of my quit. I am a biologist living in West Texas. I had been quit for 7 years. Over a year ago I put a dip in. Just one. Just for old times sake. Just because the outside environment and work called for a simple single dip, and that would be it. Now, daily for over a year. All. Over. Again.

Before the 7 yrs of my successful quit, I had been dipping for well over a decade. High School, peers, and baseball. That kid grew into a man, and was still dipping. Full-blown addict.

My first quit was terribly hard. Physically and mentally; as I had basically grown up, had developed into an adult with nicotine and dipping hardwired into my brain and body.

I now need to do it all over again. I now will do it all over again. A bit pissed at myself for having to start over. I am also understanding.

I will find out if this quit differs from my first quit.

Anyways, another and now defunct (I believe) website and forum helped me way back then. It is my hope that the same type forum and community will be just as helpful.

I choose not to be a slave.

Thank you for having me, brothers and sisters.

Let us all live free.

So, here. I. go....

Right?! That was one of the main pieces of understanding I never really took in before coming here. Even then it took a while, and some stories of others to really sink in. This is really a battle. Glad you're in it too, I like your style and it will help others here.

I'm always reminded of Corn's intro when "just one" comes up:

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[brettlees]

I pulled this from another introduction up the page.

There is no such thing as "just one"

Sobering.

Hello fellow addicts and quitters. This is Day 1 of my quit. I am a biologist living in West Texas. I had been quit for 7 years. Over a year ago I put a dip in. Just one. Just for old times sake. Just because the outside environment and work called for a simple single dip, and that would be it. Now, daily for over a year. All. Over. Again.

Before the 7 yrs of my successful quit, I had been dipping for well over a decade. High School, peers, and baseball. That kid grew into a man, and was still dipping. Full-blown addict.

My first quit was terribly hard. Physically and mentally; as I had basically grown up, had developed into an adult with nicotine and dipping hardwired into my brain and body.

I now need to do it all over again. I now will do it all over again. A bit pissed at myself for having to start over. I am also understanding.

I will find out if this quit differs from my first quit.

Anyways, another and now defunct (I believe) website and forum helped me way back then. It is my hope that the same type forum and community will be just as helpful.

I choose not to be a slave.

Thank you for having me, brothers and sisters.

Let us all live free.

So, here. I. go....

Right?! That was one of the main pieces of understanding I never really took in before coming here. Even then it took a while, and some stories of others to really sink in. This is really a battle. Glad you're in it too, I like your style and it will help others here.

[Nolaq]

I pulled this from another introduction up the page.

There is no such thing as "just one"

Sobering.

Hello fellow addicts and quitters. This is Day 1 of my quit. I am a biologist living in West Texas. I had been quit for 7 years. Over a year ago I put a dip in. Just one. Just for old times sake. Just because the outside environment and work called for a simple single dip, and that would be it. Now, daily for over a year. All. Over. Again.

Before the 7 yrs of my successful quit, I had been dipping for well over a decade. High School, peers, and baseball. That kid grew into a man, and was still dipping. Full-blown addict.

My first quit was terribly hard. Physically and mentally; as I had basically grown up, had developed into an adult with nicotine and dipping hardwired into my brain and body.

I now need to do it all over again. I now will do it all over again. A bit pissed at myself for having to start over. I am also understanding.

I will find out if this quit differs from my first quit.

Anyways, another and now defunct (I believe) website and forum helped me way back then. It is my hope that the same type forum and community will be just as helpful.

I choose not to be a slave.

Thank you for having me, brothers and sisters.

Let us all live free.

So, here. I. go....

Unfortunately, we see this here all too often. Guys with years of Quit, find themselves back here on Day 1.

Fortunately, we are here for them. We continue to be here everyday for them to find their way.

Keep posting, allec. Every day. I got your back. We won't be that guy.

[allec]

I pulled this from another introduction up the page.

There is no such thing as "just one"

Sobering.

Hello fellow addicts and quitters. This is Day 1 of my quit. I am a biologist living in West Texas. I had been quit for 7 years. Over a year ago I put a dip in. Just one. Just for old times sake. Just because the outside environment and work called for a simple single dip, and that would be it. Now, daily for over a year. All. Over. Again.

Before the 7 yrs of my successful quit, I had been dipping for well over a decade. High School, peers, and baseball. That kid grew into a man, and was still dipping. Full-blown addict.

My first quit was terribly hard. Physically and mentally; as I had basically grown up, had developed into an adult with nicotine and dipping hardwired into my brain and body.

I now need to do it all over again. I now will do it all over again. A bit pissed at myself for having to start over. I am also understanding.

I will find out if this quit differs from my first quit.

Anyways, another and now defunct (I believe) website and forum helped me way back then. It is my hope that the same type forum and community will be just as helpful.

I choose not to be a slave.

Thank you for having me, brothers and sisters.

Let us all live free.

So, here. I. go....

[Scowick65]

Thanks for posting today. I hadnt seen your intro. Inspired me and made me feel good to know that the fact it still isnt easy should be no surprise at day 300 or so.

Holy cow, this is one of the best things I have ever read.

Thanks for posting up and sharing this in your signature.

And no, there is nothing easy about this journey.

This is awesome.

[allec]

Thanks for posting today. I hadnt seen your intro. Inspired me and made me feel good to know that the fact it still isnt easy should be no surprise at day 300 or so.

Holy cow, this is one of the best things I have ever read.

Thanks for posting up and sharing this in your signature.

And no, there is nothing easy about this journey.

[brettlees]

Thanks for posting today. I hadnt seen your intro. Inspired me and made me feel good to know that the fact it still isnt easy should be no surprise at day 300 or so.

[Thumblewort]

^^^^ QFT. I knew the Kurt Schilling news would spark conversation, as it very well should.

[allec]

Day 1,634.

I still post roll more days than not; I also think about dip about as many days as I don't. I am an addict to nicotine pure and simple. That fact will never change. It's a good thing I think about it because the first two years of this journey were white knuckles a lot of the time. The years 2010 - 2012 were a dark place for me.

I'm thinner than I have been in a long time and by all accounts physically fit for a 45 year old man who dipped for 22 years until March 1, 2010.

The recent passing of Tiny Gwynn and now this remind me that 22 years of bad choices could still have future consequences.

The best advice I have been given and the best advice I can give is to take it a day at a time or even break it down further into a minute at a time if necessary. The tools on this website are foolproof; use them.

The fact is, the day I think I have this addiction "beat" is the day I make a left turn on the road to perdition and refeeding my addiction.

Many of you give more to this site than you receive; I salute and thank you.

[TSNUS]

Day 947

There were three (maybe four) of us who quit on March 1, 2010. I can remember the day vividly. It's a period of my life I care not to repeat.

When I see one of those three - he had disappeared a long time ago - post up a day 2 today, it saddens me and makes me shudder.

Really the only difference between that individual whose weak ass addict shit we are all calling out and my weak ass addict shit is that I stuck around. That's it - just a little bit of time and daily accountability. I am one bad decision or one trip to a convenience store away from being "that guy."

I am still an addict - I always will be and I take full responsibility for it - and 947 days away from the can does not change that fact one bit.

Thanks for the reminder alec.

I'll quit with you today and see you here tomorrow as well.

[allec]

Day 947

There were three (maybe four) of us who quit on March 1, 2010. I can remember the day vividly. It's a period of my life I care not to repeat.

When I see one of those three - he had disappeared a long time ago - post up a day 2 today, it saddens me and makes me shudder.

Really the only difference between that individual whose weak ass addict shit we are all calling out and my weak ass addict shit is that I stuck around. That's it - just a little bit of time and daily accountability. I am one bad decision or one trip to a convenience store away from being "that guy."

I am still an addict - I always will be and I take full responsibility for it - and 947 days away from the can does not change that fact one bit.

[Greg5280]

Day 851 and life is good.

Sure, I have craves. Believe it or not, I am affected when someone with a lot of days under their belt disappears and inevitably returns throwing down a Day 1. It just disappoints me, saddens me, and makes me very much aware that without your accountability and support that I too could be "That Person".

One of the best practices of successful people are rituals. Professional athletes practice for hours on end - shagging balls, hitting golf balls, throwing passes, doing free throws - thousands and thousands of hours day after day.

I have a couple of rituals. One is walking almost every morning and the other is posting roll. Walking is my newer ritual in that it helps me get some much needed exercise and shed some weight. Posting my promise in the form of roll is my older ritual that makes me accountable to you.

Nicely said !! Posting roll daily is what keeps you quit.

I will quit with you today!
Greg

[allec]

Day 851 and life is good.

Sure, I have craves. Believe it or not, I am affected when someone with a lot of days under their belt disappears and inevitably returns throwing down a Day 1. It just disappoints me, saddens me, and makes me very much aware that without your accountability and support that I too could be "That Person".

One of the best practices of successful people are rituals. Professional athletes practice for hours on end - shagging balls, hitting golf balls, throwing passes, doing free throws - thousands and thousands of hours day after day.

I have a couple of rituals. One is walking almost every morning and the other is posting roll. Walking is my newer ritual in that it helps me get some much needed exercise and shed some weight. Posting my promise in the form of roll is my older ritual that makes me accountable to you.

[Scowick65]

Wow. 793 days goes by fast, but I have no wish to repeat the first several hundred of those days.

Thanks to God for helping me find this place and keeping my eye on the ball.

:)

[allec]

Wow. 793 days goes by fast, but I have no wish to repeat the first several hundred of those days.

Thanks to God for helping me find this place and keeping my eye on the ball.