Well, no question in my mind that I am an absolute addict to this nicotine thing. It's been Gold River, Silver Creek, Copenhagen, Kodiak, Camels, Marlboro Lights, Levi Garret or Red Man for as long as I care to remember.
When you lay awake at night knowing that you're killing yourself every day it's not a good feeling. When you're too weak as a human being to do what is right and stop killing yourself it is a sad narrative about your will power. Time to get smart, realize you need some assistance and seek out some help.
Time to "grow up" and do the right thing. I have "quit" lots of times but this one is different. Can't play with this stuff because it doesn't work like that. Nothing will do but stop and stay stopped!
Looking for help and resources when the guard gets let down.