Welcome and hang in there brother. Nothing you're going through is unusual, personally ive experienced the depressed and anxious feelings. Things will get better with time, I promise!!! Keep posting roll and turn to this site if you are struggling. Rage if you must, jump in chat, get some numbers and read as much as you can. Educate yourself on this shit. Get to know your enemy and what to expect from her. You can do this!!! Pm me anytime if you have any questions. Keep grinding!!!