Day 5 - Going to keep things simple. I choose not to dip today.
I had a serious craving this morning. Probably the strongest yet. I thought about just one, then thought about losing the progress of 5 days. NO WAY am I going back to that place. I can't imagine starting over. Posted roll. Texted a brother. Making plans to not dip today. Progress. ODAAT.
You got the system....ODAAT....You are right, never want to go through those first few days again!!!!
I think it was Trauma that used to talk about burning the bridge back to dip... Always one to think in analogies, I imagined two islands. One is the place you used to live, Addict Island. It was great! Sunshine, palm trees, friends, all the time in the world to "chew in peace"... so you thought. There's a bridge about 100 yards long that leads Freedom Island. It's a place that you would glance at every once in a while but never made the trek.
On Day 1 you stepped onto the bridge and started walking. You looked back toward Addict Island and your buddies were calling at you, cold beer in hand, wondering why you were leaving the party. They were having so much fun! You stepped foot on Freedom Island and it was kinda foreign. You felt uneasy and anxious, but you stayed. A few days have gone by and now when you look back through some binos you notice that your buddies don't look so good... and the foundation of some of the buildings are rotting... have you ever seen
Shutter Island?
Some day you will look back and see a leper colony that reeks of death and despair. But now? Burn the bridge. Gasoline, C4... whatever. Make it impossible to go back by weaving layers of accountability into your life. You're doing GREAT. Keep piling on. Take the fight to this battle Every Damn Day and do things to strengthen your quit.
