Hello All, My Intro

[Jdalrymple]

Day 29 of my Quit.

In early December of 2012, I had a referral to an oral surgeon from my dentist. I went the first week of December. The verdict from him at the time was Leukoplakia. I mentioned that I was cutting down on chewing and working to quit. He told me to come back in 8 weeks, if I didn't quit chewing and things looked the same, I'd have to have a biopsy.

Well my day 29 was the visit to the oral surgeon. The tissue didn't improve and I just had a biopsy sample cut from my cheek. As I sit here writing this, my cheek is bleeding, I've just spent $300+ on a procedure, and I'm scared as hell. I'm 32 years old, I can't believe I'm facing the potential of cancer, and I'm scared as hell if I do have it.

Many emotions are running through me right now, fear, sadness, regret, anger.....

Regret -- Why in the hell did I have to poison my body for 17 years with lip turds. I told myself for 17 years that i needed to dip so I'd feel normal, that life was too hard without it. I'm 29 days into my quit -- yea the first 7 days sucked ass, and I felt like absolute hell, but they weren't impossible. On day 29 I know I have a whole log of quitting to do, but I also subscribe to the motto "Never again, for any reason"

Sadness -- I'm sad that I did not think that this would happen or could happen to me. I was invincible in my younger years and I always put off quitting. I'll quit after i get through this big test. I'll quite when I get through this major project at work. I'll quit after I get married. I always had a next step for quitting, but didn't get there until 17 years later. If you wait for the next step or the perfect time to quit, it will never come. Just fucking quit.

Anger -- I'm a dumbass, and I'm angry at myself for being a dumbass. What stupid motherfucker poisons himself day in and day out for 17 years. Not to mention all of the fucking warning signs that people had. The dentist had been warning me for years. I just thought I was invincible, or that it was too hard. The reality: I was too big of a pussy.

Fear -- at 32 years old, I could have cancer. I won't know for a week. This is probably the most terrifying thing that I've faced. Cancer is terrifying, and unfortunately some get it without ever poisoning their bodies, but I can't help but blame myself. I don't know what will come, but the unknown is scary as hell.


For anyone out there lurking on this site: READ THIS. It's not as compelling as the stories on the main site, or the pics, but it's an average 32 year old man that's going through what you may have to face one day if you don't pull that shit out of your lip. Stop being a pussy and man up. look at how many people have been able to quit. And you have access to talk to them. To walk the path with many, rather than the lonely path you are on now.

This site works. It's given me 29 days. 4 weeks. That's 4 weeks nicotine free. I've never had 4 weeks nicotine free since I started.

Today I quit like fuck.

jdalrymple

Thoughts and prayers, buddy.

thinking of you and sending best wishes jdal,

JD, thanks for sharing. I hope and pray that this one has a happy ending. Hang in there bro, I am sure it will be a long week for you. Please keep us posted. When this shit comes back negative, you must stay the course. You will view it as a warning and it will strengthen your quit. Reach out if you need to talk.

I hope you don't mind, that a copied your story and posted it on some new guys thread, 18yr old kid.

No I don't mind at all. Feel free to share this. If it helps someone quit today, then this post has served a function.

I posted to vent, but to also help others. Hopefully someone will quit because of this post.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Day 29 of my Quit.

In early December of 2012, I had a referral to an oral surgeon from my dentist. I went the first week of December. The verdict from him at the time was Leukoplakia. I mentioned that I was cutting down on chewing and working to quit. He told me to come back in 8 weeks, if I didn't quit chewing and things looked the same, I'd have to have a biopsy.

Well my day 29 was the visit to the oral surgeon. The tissue didn't improve and I just had a biopsy sample cut from my cheek. As I sit here writing this, my cheek is bleeding, I've just spent $300+ on a procedure, and I'm scared as hell. I'm 32 years old, I can't believe I'm facing the potential of cancer, and I'm scared as hell if I do have it.

Many emotions are running through me right now, fear, sadness, regret, anger.....

Regret -- Why in the hell did I have to poison my body for 17 years with lip turds. I told myself for 17 years that i needed to dip so I'd feel normal, that life was too hard without it. I'm 29 days into my quit -- yea the first 7 days sucked ass, and I felt like absolute hell, but they weren't impossible. On day 29 I know I have a whole log of quitting to do, but I also subscribe to the motto "Never again, for any reason"

Sadness -- I'm sad that I did not think that this would happen or could happen to me. I was invincible in my younger years and I always put off quitting. I'll quit after i get through this big test. I'll quite when I get through this major project at work. I'll quit after I get married. I always had a next step for quitting, but didn't get there until 17 years later. If you wait for the next step or the perfect time to quit, it will never come. Just fucking quit.

Anger -- I'm a dumbass, and I'm angry at myself for being a dumbass. What stupid motherfucker poisons himself day in and day out for 17 years. Not to mention all of the fucking warning signs that people had. The dentist had been warning me for years. I just thought I was invincible, or that it was too hard. The reality: I was too big of a pussy.

Fear -- at 32 years old, I could have cancer. I won't know for a week. This is probably the most terrifying thing that I've faced. Cancer is terrifying, and unfortunately some get it without ever poisoning their bodies, but I can't help but blame myself. I don't know what will come, but the unknown is scary as hell.


For anyone out there lurking on this site: READ THIS. It's not as compelling as the stories on the main site, or the pics, but it's an average 32 year old man that's going through what you may have to face one day if you don't pull that shit out of your lip. Stop being a pussy and man up. look at how many people have been able to quit. And you have access to talk to them. To walk the path with many, rather than the lonely path you are on now.

This site works. It's given me 29 days. 4 weeks. That's 4 weeks nicotine free. I've never had 4 weeks nicotine free since I started.

Today I quit like fuck.

jdalrymple

Thoughts and prayers, buddy.

thinking of you and sending best wishes jdal,

JD, thanks for sharing. I hope and pray that this one has a happy ending. Hang in there bro, I am sure it will be a long week for you. Please keep us posted. When this shit comes back negative, you must stay the course. You will view it as a warning and it will strengthen your quit. Reach out if you need to talk.

I hope you don't mind, that a copied your story and posted it on some new guys thread, 18yr old kid.

[SirDerek]

Day 29 of my Quit.

In early December of 2012, I had a referral to an oral surgeon from my dentist. I went the first week of December. The verdict from him at the time was Leukoplakia. I mentioned that I was cutting down on chewing and working to quit. He told me to come back in 8 weeks, if I didn't quit chewing and things looked the same, I'd have to have a biopsy.

Well my day 29 was the visit to the oral surgeon. The tissue didn't improve and I just had a biopsy sample cut from my cheek. As I sit here writing this, my cheek is bleeding, I've just spent $300+ on a procedure, and I'm scared as hell. I'm 32 years old, I can't believe I'm facing the potential of cancer, and I'm scared as hell if I do have it.

Many emotions are running through me right now, fear, sadness, regret, anger.....

Regret -- Why in the hell did I have to poison my body for 17 years with lip turds. I told myself for 17 years that i needed to dip so I'd feel normal, that life was too hard without it. I'm 29 days into my quit -- yea the first 7 days sucked ass, and I felt like absolute hell, but they weren't impossible. On day 29 I know I have a whole log of quitting to do, but I also subscribe to the motto "Never again, for any reason"

Sadness -- I'm sad that I did not think that this would happen or could happen to me. I was invincible in my younger years and I always put off quitting. I'll quit after i get through this big test. I'll quite when I get through this major project at work. I'll quit after I get married. I always had a next step for quitting, but didn't get there until 17 years later. If you wait for the next step or the perfect time to quit, it will never come. Just fucking quit.

Anger -- I'm a dumbass, and I'm angry at myself for being a dumbass. What stupid motherfucker poisons himself day in and day out for 17 years. Not to mention all of the fucking warning signs that people had. The dentist had been warning me for years. I just thought I was invincible, or that it was too hard. The reality: I was too big of a pussy.

Fear -- at 32 years old, I could have cancer. I won't know for a week. This is probably the most terrifying thing that I've faced. Cancer is terrifying, and unfortunately some get it without ever poisoning their bodies, but I can't help but blame myself. I don't know what will come, but the unknown is scary as hell.


For anyone out there lurking on this site: READ THIS. It's not as compelling as the stories on the main site, or the pics, but it's an average 32 year old man that's going through what you may have to face one day if you don't pull that shit out of your lip. Stop being a pussy and man up. look at how many people have been able to quit. And you have access to talk to them. To walk the path with many, rather than the lonely path you are on now.

This site works. It's given me 29 days. 4 weeks. That's 4 weeks nicotine free. I've never had 4 weeks nicotine free since I started.

Today I quit like fuck.

jdalrymple

Thoughts and prayers, buddy.

thinking of you and sending best wishes jdal,

[SummersEve]

Day 29 of my Quit.

In early December of 2012, I had a referral to an oral surgeon from my dentist. I went the first week of December. The verdict from him at the time was Leukoplakia. I mentioned that I was cutting down on chewing and working to quit. He told me to come back in 8 weeks, if I didn't quit chewing and things looked the same, I'd have to have a biopsy.

Well my day 29 was the visit to the oral surgeon. The tissue didn't improve and I just had a biopsy sample cut from my cheek. As I sit here writing this, my cheek is bleeding, I've just spent $300+ on a procedure, and I'm scared as hell. I'm 32 years old, I can't believe I'm facing the potential of cancer, and I'm scared as hell if I do have it.

Many emotions are running through me right now, fear, sadness, regret, anger.....

Regret -- Why in the hell did I have to poison my body for 17 years with lip turds. I told myself for 17 years that i needed to dip so I'd feel normal, that life was too hard without it. I'm 29 days into my quit -- yea the first 7 days sucked ass, and I felt like absolute hell, but they weren't impossible. On day 29 I know I have a whole log of quitting to do, but I also subscribe to the motto "Never again, for any reason"

Sadness -- I'm sad that I did not think that this would happen or could happen to me. I was invincible in my younger years and I always put off quitting. I'll quit after i get through this big test. I'll quite when I get through this major project at work. I'll quit after I get married. I always had a next step for quitting, but didn't get there until 17 years later. If you wait for the next step or the perfect time to quit, it will never come. Just fucking quit.

Anger -- I'm a dumbass, and I'm angry at myself for being a dumbass. What stupid motherfucker poisons himself day in and day out for 17 years. Not to mention all of the fucking warning signs that people had. The dentist had been warning me for years. I just thought I was invincible, or that it was too hard. The reality: I was too big of a pussy.

Fear -- at 32 years old, I could have cancer. I won't know for a week. This is probably the most terrifying thing that I've faced. Cancer is terrifying, and unfortunately some get it without ever poisoning their bodies, but I can't help but blame myself. I don't know what will come, but the unknown is scary as hell.


For anyone out there lurking on this site: READ THIS. It's not as compelling as the stories on the main site, or the pics, but it's an average 32 year old man that's going through what you may have to face one day if you don't pull that shit out of your lip. Stop being a pussy and man up. look at how many people have been able to quit. And you have access to talk to them. To walk the path with many, rather than the lonely path you are on now.

This site works. It's given me 29 days. 4 weeks. That's 4 weeks nicotine free. I've never had 4 weeks nicotine free since I started.

Today I quit like fuck.

jdalrymple

Thoughts and prayers, buddy.

[jaynellie]

Day 29 of my Quit.

In early December of 2012, I had a referral to an oral surgeon from my dentist. I went the first week of December. The verdict from him at the time was Leukoplakia. I mentioned that I was cutting down on chewing and working to quit. He told me to come back in 8 weeks, if I didn't quit chewing and things looked the same, I'd have to have a biopsy.

Well my day 29 was the visit to the oral surgeon. The tissue didn't improve and I just had a biopsy sample cut from my cheek. As I sit here writing this, my cheek is bleeding, I've just spent $300+ on a procedure, and I'm scared as hell. I'm 32 years old, I can't believe I'm facing the potential of cancer, and I'm scared as hell if I do have it.

Many emotions are running through me right now, fear, sadness, regret, anger.....

Regret -- Why in the hell did I have to poison my body for 17 years with lip turds. I told myself for 17 years that i needed to dip so I'd feel normal, that life was too hard without it. I'm 29 days into my quit -- yea the first 7 days sucked ass, and I felt like absolute hell, but they weren't impossible. On day 29 I know I have a whole log of quitting to do, but I also subscribe to the motto "Never again, for any reason"

Sadness -- I'm sad that I did not think that this would happen or could happen to me. I was invincible in my younger years and I always put off quitting. I'll quit after i get through this big test. I'll quite when I get through this major project at work. I'll quit after I get married. I always had a next step for quitting, but didn't get there until 17 years later. If you wait for the next step or the perfect time to quit, it will never come. Just fucking quit.

Anger -- I'm a dumbass, and I'm angry at myself for being a dumbass. What stupid motherfucker poisons himself day in and day out for 17 years. Not to mention all of the fucking warning signs that people had. The dentist had been warning me for years. I just thought I was invincible, or that it was too hard. The reality: I was too big of a pussy.

Fear -- at 32 years old, I could have cancer. I won't know for a week. This is probably the most terrifying thing that I've faced. Cancer is terrifying, and unfortunately some get it without ever poisoning their bodies, but I can't help but blame myself. I don't know what will come, but the unknown is scary as hell.


For anyone out there lurking on this site: READ THIS. It's not as compelling as the stories on the main site, or the pics, but it's an average 32 year old man that's going through what you may have to face one day if you don't pull that shit out of your lip. Stop being a pussy and man up. look at how many people have been able to quit. And you have access to talk to them. To walk the path with many, rather than the lonely path you are on now.

This site works. It's given me 29 days. 4 weeks. That's 4 weeks nicotine free. I've never had 4 weeks nicotine free since I started.

Today I quit like fuck.

jdalrymple

Wow jdalrymple, if that doesn't reach out and slap the shit out of everyone of us then I'm not sure what would. I could feel my muscles in my arms tighten up as I read that. Proud as hell to be quit with you today brother. Thanks for sharing that, it must be brutally hard waiting to hear. Prayers brother.QLF

[Jdalrymple]

Day 29 of my Quit.

In early December of 2012, I had a referral to an oral surgeon from my dentist. I went the first week of December. The verdict from him at the time was Leukoplakia. I mentioned that I was cutting down on chewing and working to quit. He told me to come back in 8 weeks, if I didn't quit chewing and things looked the same, I'd have to have a biopsy.

Well my day 29 was the visit to the oral surgeon. The tissue didn't improve and I just had a biopsy sample cut from my cheek. As I sit here writing this, my cheek is bleeding, I've just spent $300+ on a procedure, and I'm scared as hell. I'm 32 years old, I can't believe I'm facing the potential of cancer, and I'm scared as hell if I do have it.

Many emotions are running through me right now, fear, sadness, regret, anger.....

Regret -- Why in the hell did I have to poison my body for 17 years with lip turds. I told myself for 17 years that i needed to dip so I'd feel normal, that life was too hard without it. I'm 29 days into my quit -- yea the first 7 days sucked ass, and I felt like absolute hell, but they weren't impossible. On day 29 I know I have a whole log of quitting to do, but I also subscribe to the motto "Never again, for any reason"

Sadness -- I'm sad that I did not think that this would happen or could happen to me. I was invincible in my younger years and I always put off quitting. I'll quit after i get through this big test. I'll quite when I get through this major project at work. I'll quit after I get married. I always had a next step for quitting, but didn't get there until 17 years later. If you wait for the next step or the perfect time to quit, it will never come. Just fucking quit.

Anger -- I'm a dumbass, and I'm angry at myself for being a dumbass. What stupid motherfucker poisons himself day in and day out for 17 years. Not to mention all of the fucking warning signs that people had. The dentist had been warning me for years. I just thought I was invincible, or that it was too hard. The reality: I was too big of a pussy.

Fear -- at 32 years old, I could have cancer. I won't know for a week. This is probably the most terrifying thing that I've faced. Cancer is terrifying, and unfortunately some get it without ever poisoning their bodies, but I can't help but blame myself. I don't know what will come, but the unknown is scary as hell.


For anyone out there lurking on this site: READ THIS. It's not as compelling as the stories on the main site, or the pics, but it's an average 32 year old man that's going through what you may have to face one day if you don't pull that shit out of your lip. Stop being a pussy and man up. look at how many people have been able to quit. And you have access to talk to them. To walk the path with many, rather than the lonely path you are on now.

This site works. It's given me 29 days. 4 weeks. That's 4 weeks nicotine free. I've never had 4 weeks nicotine free since I started.

Today I quit like fuck.

jdalrymple

[wastepanel]

Day 21

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past week.  Last night was terrible.  I think I only slept for an hour or two.  Also I find myself extremely anxious about even the smallest things.

Your brain has to adjust to the mood changes and emotional swings. For many years, nicotine dulled the peaks and valleys. Really think about that. We never experienced the lowest points because nicotine dulled them. We also never completely enjoyed the emotional highs because they were quelled also. Nicotine held our sensory system hostage, so we only saw a small portion of the range that "normal" people experience. As a matter of fact, many of us have never completely experienced situations as adults since we started dipping/chewing as early teens. With that said, there is a learning curve. Yeah, the anxiousness is real. Many quitters have anger problems. I'm a laid back guy, but even I had some problems with anger for the first few months. You have to learn to just walk away. That's the gospel. Just walk away. I would get mad at my kids over nothing. One thing is for sure: our situation is not the fault of our families, friends, or coworkers. None of our self-inflicted suffering should be directed at them. Bring it here. Post on the boards. Go to live chat. Text a quitter. Call a quitter. We've all been there. We can't fix the problem, but we won't take the attitude personally and you can vent away.

Now, the good news: you will start to notice those emotional highs more than ever before. Seriously, there is more enjoyment to be had. Trust me on this. You've gotta take a little bad to get the good stuff, but..... it is really, really good.

Take your time and know that everything you are going through is normal. Strange things will happen around the following days: 20's, 40's, and 120's as I remember them. Around day 120 I had a panic attack so bad I almost went to the hospital. For no apparent reason I just got scared shitless. But, having read as much as I could here at KTC I knew what it was and was able to work through it.

Do not be afraid to communicate with your family and friends. Let them know if you start feeling strange. Let them know that your are a quitter and your body is going through changes.

And above all else, use this site. We are here to help. Our quit is a group effort.

Perfect advice from some hard core quitters. One day at a time. The body will adjust. The psyche will adjust. You will gradually and often unnoticeably reinvent what it is to be you. You shall be restored one day at a time.

hey Mr. Jdalrymple,

Life saving advice from the Vets of QUIT.
If I were you I would print this out and keep it handy to read 11 times a day.
Seriously, this stuff will save your life and your quit.

How many days did you use nicotine?

I probably used half of my life (17 years).

17 X 365 = 6205 days

21 days is awesome, but it is a drop in the bucket compared to how long you used. It doesn't happen overnight, and our bodies will fight for these first few days. But even if my first 100 were completely miserable, that is 1.6% of the total time I used nicotine.

Trust me. It gets better.

You'll soon have more good than bad moments, and eventually hardly any bad moments. It just takes some time.

You can do this.

Fight.

[30isEnuff]

Day 21

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past week.  Last night was terrible.  I think I only slept for an hour or two.  Also I find myself extremely anxious about even the smallest things.

Your brain has to adjust to the mood changes and emotional swings. For many years, nicotine dulled the peaks and valleys. Really think about that. We never experienced the lowest points because nicotine dulled them. We also never completely enjoyed the emotional highs because they were quelled also. Nicotine held our sensory system hostage, so we only saw a small portion of the range that "normal" people experience. As a matter of fact, many of us have never completely experienced situations as adults since we started dipping/chewing as early teens. With that said, there is a learning curve. Yeah, the anxiousness is real. Many quitters have anger problems. I'm a laid back guy, but even I had some problems with anger for the first few months. You have to learn to just walk away. That's the gospel. Just walk away. I would get mad at my kids over nothing. One thing is for sure: our situation is not the fault of our families, friends, or coworkers. None of our self-inflicted suffering should be directed at them. Bring it here. Post on the boards. Go to live chat. Text a quitter. Call a quitter. We've all been there. We can't fix the problem, but we won't take the attitude personally and you can vent away.

Now, the good news: you will start to notice those emotional highs more than ever before. Seriously, there is more enjoyment to be had. Trust me on this. You've gotta take a little bad to get the good stuff, but..... it is really, really good.

Take your time and know that everything you are going through is normal. Strange things will happen around the following days: 20's, 40's, and 120's as I remember them. Around day 120 I had a panic attack so bad I almost went to the hospital. For no apparent reason I just got scared shitless. But, having read as much as I could here at KTC I knew what it was and was able to work through it.

Do not be afraid to communicate with your family and friends. Let them know if you start feeling strange. Let them know that your are a quitter and your body is going through changes.

And above all else, use this site. We are here to help. Our quit is a group effort.

Perfect advice from some hard core quitters. One day at a time. The body will adjust. The psyche will adjust. You will gradually and often unnoticeably reinvent what it is to be you. You shall be restored one day at a time.

hey Mr. Jdalrymple,

Life saving advice from the Vets of QUIT.
If I were you I would print this out and keep it handy to read 11 times a day.
Seriously, this stuff will save your life and your quit.

[Diesel2112]

Day 21

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past week. Last night was terrible. I think I only slept for an hour or two. Also I find myself extremely anxious about even the smallest things.

Great advice from the boys. Not much to add, as you got some sage advice.

Just know that it is all normal and if that anxiety gets to a level that scares you, don't be afraid to see a doctor. No shame in it. Quitting is hard enough, but doing it with your balls stappled to your thigh is harder yet.

[Scowick65]

Day 21

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past week.  Last night was terrible.  I think I only slept for an hour or two.  Also I find myself extremely anxious about even the smallest things.

Your brain has to adjust to the mood changes and emotional swings. For many years, nicotine dulled the peaks and valleys. Really think about that. We never experienced the lowest points because nicotine dulled them. We also never completely enjoyed the emotional highs because they were quelled also. Nicotine held our sensory system hostage, so we only saw a small portion of the range that "normal" people experience. As a matter of fact, many of us have never completely experienced situations as adults since we started dipping/chewing as early teens. With that said, there is a learning curve. Yeah, the anxiousness is real. Many quitters have anger problems. I'm a laid back guy, but even I had some problems with anger for the first few months. You have to learn to just walk away. That's the gospel. Just walk away. I would get mad at my kids over nothing. One thing is for sure: our situation is not the fault of our families, friends, or coworkers. None of our self-inflicted suffering should be directed at them. Bring it here. Post on the boards. Go to live chat. Text a quitter. Call a quitter. We've all been there. We can't fix the problem, but we won't take the attitude personally and you can vent away.

Now, the good news: you will start to notice those emotional highs more than ever before. Seriously, there is more enjoyment to be had. Trust me on this. You've gotta take a little bad to get the good stuff, but..... it is really, really good.

Take your time and know that everything you are going through is normal. Strange things will happen around the following days: 20's, 40's, and 120's as I remember them. Around day 120 I had a panic attack so bad I almost went to the hospital. For no apparent reason I just got scared shitless. But, having read as much as I could here at KTC I knew what it was and was able to work through it.

Do not be afraid to communicate with your family and friends. Let them know if you start feeling strange. Let them know that your are a quitter and your body is going through changes.

And above all else, use this site. We are here to help. Our quit is a group effort.

Perfect advice from some hard core quitters. One day at a time. The body will adjust. The psyche will adjust. You will gradually and often unnoticeably reinvent what it is to be you. You shall be restored one day at a time.

[Parputt]

Day 21

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past week.  Last night was terrible.  I think I only slept for an hour or two.  Also I find myself extremely anxious about even the smallest things.

Your brain has to adjust to the mood changes and emotional swings. For many years, nicotine dulled the peaks and valleys. Really think about that. We never experienced the lowest points because nicotine dulled them. We also never completely enjoyed the emotional highs because they were quelled also. Nicotine held our sensory system hostage, so we only saw a small portion of the range that "normal" people experience. As a matter of fact, many of us have never completely experienced situations as adults since we started dipping/chewing as early teens. With that said, there is a learning curve. Yeah, the anxiousness is real. Many quitters have anger problems. I'm a laid back guy, but even I had some problems with anger for the first few months. You have to learn to just walk away. That's the gospel. Just walk away. I would get mad at my kids over nothing. One thing is for sure: our situation is not the fault of our families, friends, or coworkers. None of our self-inflicted suffering should be directed at them. Bring it here. Post on the boards. Go to live chat. Text a quitter. Call a quitter. We've all been there. We can't fix the problem, but we won't take the attitude personally and you can vent away.

Now, the good news: you will start to notice those emotional highs more than ever before. Seriously, there is more enjoyment to be had. Trust me on this. You've gotta take a little bad to get the good stuff, but..... it is really, really good.

Take your time and know that everything you are going through is normal. Strange things will happen around the following days: 20's, 40's, and 120's as I remember them. Around day 120 I had a panic attack so bad I almost went to the hospital. For no apparent reason I just got scared shitless. But, having read as much as I could here at KTC I knew what it was and was able to work through it.

Do not be afraid to communicate with your family and friends. Let them know if you start feeling strange. Let them know that your are a quitter and your body is going through changes.

And above all else, use this site. We are here to help. Our quit is a group effort.

[Radman]

Day 21

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past week.  Last night was terrible.  I think I only slept for an hour or two.  Also I find myself extremely anxious about even the smallest things.

Your brain has to adjust to the mood changes and emotional swings. For many years, nicotine dulled the peaks and valleys. Really think about that. We never experienced the lowest points because nicotine dulled them. We also never completely enjoyed the emotional highs because they were quelled also. Nicotine held our sensory system hostage, so we only saw a small portion of the range that "normal" people experience. As a matter of fact, many of us have never completely experienced situations as adults since we started dipping/chewing as early teens. With that said, there is a learning curve. Yeah, the anxiousness is real. Many quitters have anger problems. I'm a laid back guy, but even I had some problems with anger for the first few months. You have to learn to just walk away. That's the gospel. Just walk away. I would get mad at my kids over nothing. One thing is for sure: our situation is not the fault of our families, friends, or coworkers. None of our self-inflicted suffering should be directed at them. Bring it here. Post on the boards. Go to live chat. Text a quitter. Call a quitter. We've all been there. We can't fix the problem, but we won't take the attitude personally and you can vent away.

Now, the good news: you will start to notice those emotional highs more than ever before. Seriously, there is more enjoyment to be had. Trust me on this. You've gotta take a little bad to get the good stuff, but..... it is really, really good.

[Jdalrymple]

Day 21

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past week. Last night was terrible. I think I only slept for an hour or two. Also I find myself extremely anxious about even the smallest things.

[Radman]

Many of us have been there. Keep reading and learning. Intros will show you similarities, but HOF speeches will do the same. Read any of those? Mine is linked below. Help yourself. Keep searching out folks with common ground, then build relationships with them. Accountability comes in layers, and is valuable beyond measure. Posting roll and reading here is one step. Texting, calling and making a plan is another step. Creating friendships is yet another. Each layer I've built made my quit stronger. I am at a point that I am closer to my quitter friends in many ways than with any others. That is accountability that cannot be reckoned with.

Do not get cocky. That is my one warning. Just when you think you've got everything handled, a crave will pop out of nowhere. If you aren't prepared for it, you'll fail.

Glad to see you here. Quit on.....

[Wt57]

That's a really great story man. I can relate; I had a sore throat recently, that passed within a day. But I got to REALLY thinking about what if it was cancer? So I googled, came here, and stopped (I dumped my tins right then.)

Glad to be part of your quit group!

We can all relate to the fears of the big 'C'! That being said never underestimate the power of your addiction. I can't tell you how many times over 40 years I swore it was my last dip because of a sore throat, gum graft, tooth loss, etc.. You can go back and check each month and look at the number of well intentioned addicts that come here and introduce theirselves with powerful 'FU nicotine' statements and don't even make it 50 days! Why? Addiction is a bitch!

If you get bored, pick a group take a look at their spreadsheet and make a list of quitters that quit posting or caved and search their intros. Many of them started 'bad ass'!