Here we go again

[THansen2413]

Jeez last time I posted in my introduction was 10 days ago. My how the time flies when you QLF! 22 days of quit now under my belt. It wasn't easy getting to double deuces, but oh how sweet it feels. Contrary to my first 2 weeks on here, I've now been speaking up a bit more. As fate would have it, I was one of the first quitters to join June Quit Saloon (it will always be June Bugs to me) :rolleyes: . At 22 days quit, I feel it's my obligation to help, correct, motivate, listen to young quitters in June group. I remember how shitty the suck was and having vet's guide and encourage me through it. Like other's say daily, the recipe isn't complicating. Thousands of others have tested this recipe and every time it comes out as a savory, delicious bowl of success. But, you have to follow the recipe for it to work. Correct me if I'm wrong, please.

My understanding of the recipe
-Post Roll EDD, first thing
-Immerse yourself in this site, free chat, different threads
-Exchange numbers and emails with fellow quits, build your network up
-ODAAT, anybody can do anything for just one measly day
-Under no circumstance is putting a dip in your lip a justifiable answer

Things do get better. I still have tough days, I still think of that shit every once and a while. But I'm silencing the nic bitch every day just a little more. With my understanding of the recipe, failure is not an option for myself and it shouldn't be for you either!

[Scowick65]

Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...

-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating

^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^

THansen - fellow Eagle Scout on day 28. Keep fighting, you are doing great. It continues to get better. Proud to quit with you today!

That's the way to KICK ASS AND TAKE NAMES cowboy

'clap'

[construction24$7]

Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...

-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating

^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^

THansen - fellow Eagle Scout on day 28. Keep fighting, you are doing great. It continues to get better. Proud to quit with you today!

That's the way to KICK ASS AND TAKE NAMES cowboy

[rtpope]

Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...

-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating

^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^

THansen - fellow Eagle Scout on day 28. Keep fighting, you are doing great. It continues to get better. Proud to quit with you today!

[Mogul]

Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...

-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating

^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^

[THansen2413]

Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...

-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating

[THansen2413]

Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,

-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket

It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our  'arse' everyday!

All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!

You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.

Thank you both for the continued support. You two, along with a few select others are playing a huge part in my quit. There's no stopping this quit train! Just have to continue following the recipe of success that has been laid forth and keep my guard sharp!

Congratulations on 8 days of continued success. I remember those really foggy days. I would check the spreadsheet every morning against my own calculated days quit. Many times the two numbers did not agree LOL. You are going to feel much better soon and these Suck days will be well behind you. Proud to be on your quit team :D

Great timing Construction, as you well know you are one of the select few I'm talking about. I have great respect for you and what you are doing. Keep on QLFEDD!

[construction24$7]

Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,

-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket

It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our  'arse' everyday!

All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!

You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.

Thank you both for the continued support. You two, along with a few select others are playing a huge part in my quit. There's no stopping this quit train! Just have to continue following the recipe of success that has been laid forth and keep my guard sharp!

Congratulations on 8 days of continued success. I remember those really foggy days. I would check the spreadsheet every morning against my own calculated days quit. Many times the two numbers did not agree LOL. You are going to feel much better soon and these Suck days will be well behind you. Proud to be on your quit team :D

[THansen2413]

Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,

-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket

It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our  'arse' everyday!

All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!

You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.

Thank you both for the continued support. You two, along with a few select others are playing a huge part in my quit. There's no stopping this quit train! Just have to continue following the recipe of success that has been laid forth and keep my guard sharp!

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,

-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket

It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our  'arse' everyday!

All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!

You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.

[slug.go]

Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,

-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket

It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!

All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!

[THansen2413]

Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,

-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket

It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!

[Etxaggie]

"losing a best friend or relative."

I had this exact same feeling. That's the only way I could explain it to my wife.

It will get better, I promise.

[construction24$7]

Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.

My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."

Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."

I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.

Great post. Everyone's quit is different and I enjoy reading these because even if someone's quit is different than mine, I can always relate to some degree. I too at one point had the craving...the desire to have just one, because I thought a part of me actually enjoyed having a nice fatty in. Now, even typing that sounds ridiculous to me...that is pure addict talk. I never enjoyed a brown wad of nasty tasting, lip cutting, cancer causing, worm shit in my mouth. No freakin way. Nicotine made me think that way. My addiction made me think that way. When I look at your last post I see:

Addict: Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again."

Quitter: I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits.

You're doing a great job THansen, and for someone on the younger side of life you're putting up some inspirational quit fodder for your June quit group and everyone else. No quittin the quit.

I appreciate the kind reply Steakbomb and everyone else who's been commenting and sending me PM's. For only being 24 I'm pretty good with words. But that leads me to one of the demons in my closet that fueled my addiction. F my life, I'll never succeed I thought, not when I was born with this. I was born with a stutter. My Grandpa had one, my mom has one, my brother has one and luckily I kept with tradition and have one. Mine is what my speech pathologist would call "moderately severe". This was a big scar for me growing up and even into my first years as a 20yr old. I'm happy to say through hard work and learning "tools" to deal with my stutter I can achieve much more fluent speech than as recent as 2 years ago. I was able to find a job at a local grocery store as a night manager, then was offered a full time position as a meat cutter, and that lead me to my position now as a supervisor of the meat department. Fake it till ya make it, right? Anyway long story short, I'm like a walking thesaurus thanks to my stutter, you have to know a lot of words with similar meanings, just in case you get stuck on the original word you wanted to say :)

Day 6.

I can honestly say days 1-4 were a cake walk compared to days 5-6. Seems like all I think about is chew. No doubt an addict trait. I know it's poison, I know the short term effects it causes in my mouth, and know that someday it will cause cancer. Yet, I think, damn I could sure go for one. If it weren't for KTC and all you badasses I would have caved already. With that being said, today was a little easier than yesterday. I'm learning to throw in a couple pieces of gum when I get that crave and that settles me down quick. When I'm driving I reach for my Smokey Mountain, driving has always been a huge trigger. I absolutely love that my mouth feels the best it has in over a year. My cheeks are actually smooth and fleshy and my gums aren't sore. I missed that feeling! Sleep wise last night was my worst. Woke up at 3:30 am and couldn't get back to bed. Thinking about work and I'm sure my addiction was part of the blame. Looking forward to a day off tomorrow and doing some healthy things that I enjoy doing. Keep on quitting, quitters!

That is some badass quit going on. On day 101 I was sitting in my dentists' chair explaining about my last 100 days of quit and my support group at KTC. The dentist said "... if you hadn't told me that you were a past dipper, I would have never known" It's funny how the body can heal itself when the cancer weed has left your body. Proud to be quit with you today :D .

[THansen2413]

Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.

My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."

Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."

I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.

Great post. Everyone's quit is different and I enjoy reading these because even if someone's quit is different than mine, I can always relate to some degree. I too at one point had the craving...the desire to have just one, because I thought a part of me actually enjoyed having a nice fatty in. Now, even typing that sounds ridiculous to me...that is pure addict talk. I never enjoyed a brown wad of nasty tasting, lip cutting, cancer causing, worm shit in my mouth. No freakin way. Nicotine made me think that way. My addiction made me think that way. When I look at your last post I see:

Addict: Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again."

Quitter: I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits.

You're doing a great job THansen, and for someone on the younger side of life you're putting up some inspirational quit fodder for your June quit group and everyone else. No quittin the quit.

I appreciate the kind reply Steakbomb and everyone else who's been commenting and sending me PM's. For only being 24 I'm pretty good with words. But that leads me to one of the demons in my closet that fueled my addiction. F my life, I'll never succeed I thought, not when I was born with this. I was born with a stutter. My Grandpa had one, my mom has one, my brother has one and luckily I kept with tradition and have one. Mine is what my speech pathologist would call "moderately severe". This was a big scar for me growing up and even into my first years as a 20yr old. I'm happy to say through hard work and learning "tools" to deal with my stutter I can achieve much more fluent speech than as recent as 2 years ago. I was able to find a job at a local grocery store as a night manager, then was offered a full time position as a meat cutter, and that lead me to my position now as a supervisor of the meat department. Fake it till ya make it, right? Anyway long story short, I'm like a walking thesaurus thanks to my stutter, you have to know a lot of words with similar meanings, just in case you get stuck on the original word you wanted to say :)

Day 6.

I can honestly say days 1-4 were a cake walk compared to days 5-6. Seems like all I think about is chew. No doubt an addict trait. I know it's poison, I know the short term effects it causes in my mouth, and know that someday it will cause cancer. Yet, I think, damn I could sure go for one. If it weren't for KTC and all you badasses I would have caved already. With that being said, today was a little easier than yesterday. I'm learning to throw in a couple pieces of gum when I get that crave and that settles me down quick. When I'm driving I reach for my Smokey Mountain, driving has always been a huge trigger. I absolutely love that my mouth feels the best it has in over a year. My cheeks are actually smooth and fleshy and my gums aren't sore. I missed that feeling! Sleep wise last night was my worst. Woke up at 3:30 am and couldn't get back to bed. Thinking about work and I'm sure my addiction was part of the blame. Looking forward to a day off tomorrow and doing some healthy things that I enjoy doing. Keep on quitting, quitters!