im pretty stubborn, and prideful. I would totally admit to being addicted, but I don't like the idea of "needing help," to quit. Like, if i want to quit, I will.
I hear you brother. When I first quit I was real skeptical of joining a forum like this one. The thing is, I realized that maybe for once I needed help with this addiction. I never even made it one day until ktc. I'm so glad I let go of that PRIDE and jumped in. PRIDE will keep you using brother. PRIDE is one of this addictions best friends.
Now, i'm 203 days quit on one of the most addictive drugs known to man and I owe it to ktc, along with everyone that takes time here to help people quit. Your going to be so surprised at how words from people that know all about what your going through helps. You will learn here how to stay quit. You will learn that 1 is to many and 1000 is never enough. You will learn that one day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. You will learn never again for any reason and you can keep it.
The accountability that ktc brings is key. Posting roll with a bunch of brothers and making them a promise each day that you will not use. You let yourself down, you let them down. You place your name on that roll and your making a promise. If your a man of of your word and I believe you are,,, you'll keep that word. That word will save your quit. Glad to be quit with you. Need another number let me know.
srans is right on... nice job posting day "enumero" uno.
You said... "Like if I want to quit, I will." Got news for you. That is what it will come down to on this site regardless. You got to want to quit. If you do, you will. This site is a different type of help... this is not like going to some quack Dr. that sits and has you discuss the meaning of life, why you are where you are, and why you are fucked up. This is a bunch of addicts... just like you kicking back an addiction. We all know the lies, the tricks and there is no BS here. Just quitting.
Recommend you maintain your commitment to quitting today... I will do it with you. then report around to post ROLL for "enumero" dos tomorrow. QLF brother!
Stubborn and prideful?! You ain't the only one bro. Keep an open mind to what some of these brothers are offering in helpful words and support. Follow the path already set out for you. I'll gladly walk shoulder to shoulder with you on it ODAAT if you're willing. Any pride I had about not needing help was beat outta me by this addiction during my last round. I'm sure it'll rear it's ugly know-it-all head again, but luckily I'll have Srans and Derk there to knock it the fuck down.
I am quit with you today. We will handle tomorrow together when we get there.
Peace.
If you want to talk about stubborn and prideful, consider this...I initially thought that I didn't need to post roll to quit. I was fluent with every cliche in the book...quit when I want to, just a habit, light dipper, just the taste, etc.
In fact, I told myself that I would post roll until the HoF just to humor the folks on KTC...you know, play by the rules. But after that, no way...because I didn't really need help in the first place, right? I didn't really have a problem, afterall.
Holy crap was I wrong!!! I have a wife, two kids, great life and I almost threw it all away because I was too stubborn and prideful to face one simple fact...I am a nicotine addict and I need help. KTC offered to help me control my addiction. "Tough love" would have run me off...hurt my pride. But I read post after post from the folks who know. And for the first time in over 20 years, it began to sink in. These folks get it. They understand.
Holy shit...I'm an addict. But there's nothing wrong with that. I can learn to control it. And what did KTC charge me for all of this substance abuse knowledge and expertise? Not one thin dime. All they asked me to do was to post roll. So, I decided I would...just until I reached the HoF because by then I would be cured, right? HAHA Glad I kept reading.
This site is as much about getting help from others as it is about giving help to others. Pride and ego have no place here. Quit on!