Getting harder than I thought

[Souliman]

Thanks all.

It's been a hard day. The hardest was this morning. I drove down my street to go to work and was about to pass the convenience store on the corner. I kept thinking and had almost made up my mind to stop, get a can and have a little pinch.

I don't know what it was, but another little part of the brain took over when I got to that store. I just kept on driving. And I kept on thinking, don't think about it. Just go to work.

I had the same problem early in my quit. Convenience store clerks coming out of their stores waving to me as I'm driving by. Mother fuckers. "Come on in Soul. Come in and buy some death!" I wanted to burn those stores to the ground. Fuckers. Can't really do that so instead when I am forced to go inside one of these cancer supply huts I try to pass a little gas while I'm at the register. Just to let them know I care.

[tgafish]

Thanks all.

It's been a hard day. The hardest was this morning. I drove down my street to go to work and was about to pass the convenience store on the corner. I kept thinking and had almost made up my mind to stop, get a can and have a little pinch.

I don't know what it was, but another little part of the brain took over when I got to that store. I just kept on driving. And I kept on thinking, don't think about it. Just go to work.

That's all it takes buddy. You did it today. Wake up tomorrow and repeat.

[Wild_Bill]

Rocklion,
That's huge victory for the day. Those will ease up as time goes by.

Way to go!!

Quit with us today.

[Radman]

Thanks all.
It's been a hard day. The hardest was this morning. I drove down my street to go to work and was about to pass the convenience store on the corner. I kept thinking and had almost made up my mind to stop, get a can and have a little pinch.
I don't know what it was, but another little part of the brain took over when I got to that store. I just kept on driving. And I kept on thinking, don't think about it. Just go to work.

Congrats on winning that battle as the war rages on. That was an excellent personal victory, and next time should be easier. Those are the times that phone numbers come in handy. Use them however you want, call, text, whatever. Immediately stop and tell some quit brothers how pissed you are about what's going on. They can talk you off the ledge, cuss you like a dog, make you laugh, whatever works. I thought it may be a bit hokey when I first signed up here, but it's all legit... and damn helpful. If you got em, use em.... if you haven't got em, then go get em.

Good to be quit with you.

[Phil4]

"I just kept on driving."

That's how it's done right there. Nice work, rocklion.

[rocklion]

Thanks all.

It's been a hard day. The hardest was this morning. I drove down my street to go to work and was about to pass the convenience store on the corner. I kept thinking and had almost made up my mind to stop, get a can and have a little pinch.

I don't know what it was, but another little part of the brain took over when I got to that store. I just kept on driving. And I kept on thinking, don't think about it. Just go to work.

[Scowick65]

I see you posted a day 5. Nice. You can count on me for anything you need. Simply send me a PM to get that started.

[Kdip]

Cliff, Welcome to the site!!! If you do everything we say here and post roll daily, you WILL quit this crap for Good!!! You also have the backing of two kick-ass quitters here - DennyX and Luby!!! You can DO this one day at a time!!!

[luby]

Cliff. Welcome. You got this, a lot of people say the first three days suck and then you start to feel better, but everyone is different. My experience sounds pretty similar to yours. I was seeing everyone talk about the first three days and I was like "yeah I had moments like that but overall it wasn't that bad" but then the rest of my first week just kinda blew. I am 41 days in and all I can tell you is there are gonna be some times that just plain suck. On the other hand there are moments when you are gonna feel so good because you know you are free from being a slave to a can of poison, that your gonna feel great!
Also I used exercise to get through some of the early suck, and like you I would get light-headed, it was weird and kind of scary but if I slowed way down when I was running or took a walk around when I was lifting it would pass.
You got this, happy to have you here, PM me if you need anything.
Proud to be quit with you today.

[DennyX]

Hi Cliff – I too had been in the minority for the last 5 years. I didn’t know a single person that dipped and was never around anyone that smoked. I would go hide in the corner to get my nicotine feeding then come out and be family man for two hours before I’d go hide for another feeding. Cliff, you can do this man, trust me. We ALL have done this. Step out of the minority and into the majority – be a QUITTER in November. Read the Welcome center and learn how to post roll. Go into LIVE CHAT (upper right) and ask someone. At all cost, post roll and get your promise down to your group. Get to know them, you’ve got a good bunch of quitters in there. PM me if you need anything, to chat, text, anything. You can do this, I know you can. Welcome.

Denny

[Scowick65]

Read, post up and wait for all of the support you need. First things first. Post up and promise yourself and me you won't use today.

[Radman]

Syndrome is right. You gotta get into the November group November 2011 and start making that daily promise. Syndrome is a crazy sounding foniks-addicted poster, but a wise quitter. Get to know those folks in your group and they'll pull you through the tough spots, which will come and go.

Never get complacent, tough times pop up out of the blue. Don't worry about your weight for the next little while. Get your QUIT under control, then you can re-check your fitness and diet. It's tough to do both, trust me, I know.

I feel your situation, man. Sounds a lot like me. Started at 17, now I'm 36. Been quit almost a year, so it's doable. Read my HOF sometime (linked below). Bet it'll sound familiar.

[syndrome]

well cliff man click up there on that WELCOME CENTER link you see up top a the page. reed all the stuff there. speshully numbers 3 and 4. thats why we post and how to post. then post up. if your on day 5 a your quit that makes you in the novemberer 2011 class. post up there. today. this is how you invest in your quit. postin roll pays divadents. if you only post in this here thred no buddys gonna give a shit bout your quit. post up in roll call and guys will be lookin for ya if you go missin for so much as a day.

[rocklion]

Well an introduction. I am Cliff/rocklion, and I've been a dipper since I was 18 years old and started on it when I was in the army. I'm 36 now, so I've been using tobacco half my life.

I'm ending that now.

Last weekend, I quit tobacco for the final time. It was an easy decision. I don't like it anymore, and hate it, and have no excuses that I'm doing it because everyone around me does it. The reason I started dipping in the first place was because I had a bunch of friends around me saying I should do it. Now, I'm in the minority. I know no one who dips and only have one friend who smokes. Everyone has quit. I'm suddenly the minority.

So, on Sunday, I quit and went cold turkey. I thought I had a good chance because right now I'm on a roll in my life. I've just lost 40 pounds since February through dieting and exercise. I thought if I could do that, then this needs to be the next step.

The first three days were actually easier than the last two. There was a point on Day 3 when everything cleared up, I felt normal and then I thought I was out of the woods. Now it's back and it's gotten harder.

The last 3 nights I've barely gotten any sleep, so I'm sleep deprived. My original plan was to try and exercise to keep my mind off dipping and nicotine, but when I start exercising I get dizzy and lightheaded.

The whole sleep thing is the biggest bitch right now. If I had some good rest, then I'd have no probs ignoring the cravings. But being half out of it makes it hard.

I've gained 4 pounds over the last five days. Everytime I keep thinking I can get my diet back under check, I can't. I'm wondering when my appetite will return back to normal.

Anyway, that's me.