I've been chewing copenhagen long cut since 14 and have switched between smoking and chewing, but mostly chewing because it didn't mess with my lungs for surfing. I'm tired of it. It's messed up my relationships and my mind for the better part of 10 years. I was thinking the other day about how I'm really not one to be a slave to anyone, but tobacco is quite honestly taking away something good from my life, and replacing it with fear of not having a crutch. I don't need crutches.
I quit this morning after stocking up on beef jerky.
Already in the fog, already pissing off my girlfriend.
I used chew as a way to shut myself up so I wouldn't need to speak my mind and that's definitely going to take it's toll.
Some bicyclist had the audacity to yell at me when he didn't stop at a stop sign earlier. Normally I would have yelled back at him, but I yelled at him and chased him down. If I was a fighter i would get re addicted to chew before a fight and then decimate, but I'm not and I'm worried that I might not have the willpower to quit once let alone multiple times.
Anyways, I'm new. I've been lurking in the shadows of these forums for a week or two. Today my gums were bleeding and I decided I've had enough.
