I dont know where to really begin my story, but I'm willing to bet alot of you have similar ones.
I first started dipping when I was about 12. I used to go fishing on the weekends with another boy my age who's father bought him chew all the time. At the time, I thought he had the coolest dad ever. Now looking back I think he was a pretty crappy dad. One thing led to another and next thing I know I'm enjoying dipping.
At 16 I was introduced to cigaretts, and I startes smoking. My high school had a smoking area (last one in NC, i've heard) so I started chewing less and smoking more. I smoked all through high school, and then college. After college I switched back regularly between smoking and dipping. I would dip for about 6 months or so, and then smoke for about the same amount of time. Every time I switched, I told my self that this was the beginning of quitting. We all know how that story goes.
2 years ago, I did quit tobacco. I used the patches and they really helped. I quit because I got into a new relationship and I didnt want to expose my partner to my nasty habbits. Everything went well for a while. The relationship did end, but I stayed strong and didnt start back.
I'm currently with somone else that I love and adore, but on the aniversary of the breakup with my ex I lost my senses for a bit and started dipping again. I knew it was a bad idea but did it anyway. Kept it secret from my partner because I'm ashamed that I did something so stupid.
So 6 days ago I quit again, cold turkey. The first few were horrible. I felt like I was turning inside out, and I was having mood swings that would do a grizzly bear justice. Its deffinately alot easier now that it as last week, and I'm glad I did it cold turkey this time instead of the long process with patches. Still having the mood swings, uasually at night.
And temptation is still begging me to head to the store for a can of wintergreen grizzly. Truth is I can almost taste it still. Wouldn't mind a Marlboro light either.
I'm not going to start back. Not again. Never. I hope to get to know you guys, and perhaps we can all help each other away from our nasty habbits.