Eric's Intro

[edub442]

Day 4

I used a few PTO days to make this a 4 day weekend in order to relax. When I woke up this morning I had a long look in the mirror where I debated in my head the value of posting roll today. I knew that a day off sitting at home playing video games or reading a book usually involved at least 1 can of dip. The thought of going all day without dipping seemed daunting. So I sat down and I read of few articles on this site from some vets, specifically BrianG's HOF speech. He mentioned several thoughts that I am struggling with such as the magnitude of quitting and the anxiety that takes over when you think about next week or next month. Then it hit me if I am feeling guilty even thinking about letting these random guys down then there must be something to this "brotherhood of quitters". I did post roll this morning and I have managed to be nicotine free today.

Craving triggers from today conquered by chewing gum:
After eating, at the movies, Boss called me on my day off...ass, playing xbox, and reading a book

Benefits of quitting so far:
More room in my pockets, money saved, TBD

Welcome edub! Just lay easy on the alcohol for the first few weeks....seen many a quit upended by it. I only wish I was as smart as you are now when I was your age. Took my dumb ass nearly four decades to finally wise up and quit. Stay close to this site for the first bit....I found that just reading through all the pages was a good distraction from the fog.

Finally, remember that, near as I can tell from many different web searches, nicotine withdrawal has NEVER actually killed anyone. It just feels like it when you're in the middle of a crave from hell. Just remember it came to pass, it didn't come to stay. You got this. PM me if you need someone to holler at!

Thanks man for the advice, I appreciate it! I like your saying "the craving came to pass", I think this is the key to getting through them. They seem to fade once you can figure out a way to distract yourself.

[CavMan83]

Day 4

I used a few PTO days to make this a 4 day weekend in order to relax. When I woke up this morning I had a long look in the mirror where I debated in my head the value of posting roll today. I knew that a day off sitting at home playing video games or reading a book usually involved at least 1 can of dip. The thought of going all day without dipping seemed daunting. So I sat down and I read of few articles on this site from some vets, specifically BrianG's HOF speech. He mentioned several thoughts that I am struggling with such as the magnitude of quitting and the anxiety that takes over when you think about next week or next month. Then it hit me if I am feeling guilty even thinking about letting these random guys down then there must be something to this "brotherhood of quitters". I did post roll this morning and I have managed to be nicotine free today.

Craving triggers from today conquered by chewing gum:
After eating, at the movies, Boss called me on my day off...ass, playing xbox, and reading a book

Benefits of quitting so far:
More room in my pockets, money saved, TBD

Welcome edub! Just lay easy on the alcohol for the first few weeks....seen many a quit upended by it. I only wish I was as smart as you are now when I was your age. Took my dumb ass nearly four decades to finally wise up and quit. Stay close to this site for the first bit....I found that just reading through all the pages was a good distraction from the fog.

Finally, remember that, near as I can tell from many different web searches, nicotine withdrawal has NEVER actually killed anyone. It just feels like it when you're in the middle of a crave from hell. Just remember it came to pass, it didn't come to stay. You got this. PM me if you need someone to holler at!

[edub442]

Day 4

I used a few PTO days to make this a 4 day weekend in order to relax. When I woke up this morning I had a long look in the mirror where I debated in my head the value of posting roll today. I knew that a day off sitting at home playing video games or reading a book usually involved at least 1 can of dip. The thought of going all day without dipping seemed daunting. So I sat down and I read of few articles on this site from some vets, specifically BrianG's HOF speech. He mentioned several thoughts that I am struggling with such as the magnitude of quitting and the anxiety that takes over when you think about next week or next month. Then it hit me if I am feeling guilty even thinking about letting these random guys down then there must be something to this "brotherhood of quitters". I did post roll this morning and I have managed to be nicotine free today.

Craving triggers from today conquered by chewing gum:
After eating, at the movies, Boss called me on my day off...jackass, playing xbox, and reading a book

Benefits of quitting so far:
More room in my pockets, money saved, TBD

[gottadoit]

Glad to have you with us on the August 17 Train!!!

[edub442]

This is my first post to this group/site. Yesterday, while I was driving home from work I was down to one last dip in my can and I decided that this would be my last dip ever. This is the 1st day in the last 10 years that I can recall not having a dip. I started dipping when I was 18 because I was dating a girl who hated the smell of cigarette smoke and dipping was easier to hide. I could tell you so many stories of crazy things I have done to either obtain dip or dip in secret. I've even fallen asleep dipping only to wake up choking...

I would have to state that it was also a key factor in my divorce a few years ago. All the pointless trips/excuses to dip in secret and the lying that I wasn't dipping or smoking strained the relationship. This is all old news but a key part of my dipping experience.

I've hidden a spit cup under my monitor at work for the last 5 years. As stress at work increased the number of dips per day increased. It has gotten to the point where I almost constantly have a dip in except during in person meetings. I also found a workaround for those by buying a can of frost snus that is spitless. My work doesn't allow tobacco on the grounds but the risk of being fired didn't even phase me.

Dip has impacted my entire life and these last 30 hours have been eye opening. You never truly realize that you are addicted until you try to quit. Several times today I've thought "man I can't wait to get home, prop my feet up and put a dip in". It has made me realize how engraved habit is in my daily routine. The cravings are hard to deal with but I have been chewing gum all day. I haven't experienced any headaches or crazy symptoms yet but I am feeling slightly depressed that I will never have another dip. It's a scary thought to live without dip and I'm going to have to develop a new way to handle stressful situations.

I am excited about this new chapter in my life and look forward to completing this with yall!