Well like you i am an addict, i've been hiding behind this shit too long. Its time for me to be the man, the father, the husband and the example i am supposed to be. I have been quit for 8 days. It has been pure hell my mouth hurts, im trying to be nice. I have to do this this time, my life is on the line. if i don't quit this time i will never quit. I dont currently have any medical problems but i dont want any either. This crap i had to put in my mouth for the last 17 years has caused me to lie to my wife, show my 2.5 year old daughter what weakness is and spend ungodly amouts of money to say the least. This crap has owned me and now it is done owning me. This is me standing up for myself, for fighting for my family. im sick of lying to my wife or hidhing it in our gas budget. for gods sake my daughter knows what chew is and that daddy does it. I am also an alcoholic and she used to know the beer i drank too. I have been off that since sept 26th. Nothing else from christmas eve forward will own me. the weak little ineffectual nothing inside me will die and the strong happy go lucky guy i used to be before will come back alive. I cant be selfish anymore, i am part of something great in life and if i want to keep it all this crap has to be gone, or i lose it all. I'm not losing this time!