quit 5 days ago

[whacko]

Pinched.....I'm back for good.....maybe just to stare at your avatar for a couple minutes a day .

To all the newbs......my story is of success......but I'm lucky.  I stopped posting roll a few weeks after the 100 days.......stayed clean but that was dumb fucking luck!  You guys gotta post and keep posting! 

Think about it.......I went two years clean.......had a painful, expensive nasty bout with what my doc thought was cancer.......and less than 4 months after all that pain and misery I almost bough a can of shit!!!!!!  I'm back posting and letting these guys help me stay accountable.......the addiction is never gone people!!!!!!!!!!!


New guys here is my post from yesterday......read it and think about it!!!!:

Hi to all you quitters! Just took a moment to come back to KTC as it has been a LOOOOONG time since I posted on this amazing site. My quit date is 12 August 2011 and that puts me at 958 days with out the nic bitch. Why I'm back........had a scare with mouth cancer in the fall of 2013.......turns out it is severe dysplasia on my tongue but had to go through a surgery to remove/anaylize it........worst pain in my life. They basically fileted my tongue from the side......stitches popped out too early and my tongue basically started to turn itself inside out. 2 weeks out of work......unreal. Anyway turned out ok......have to go back for scheduled monitoring but no cancer. All this because I dipped for those years. Even after all this......yesterday was a bitch day at work and I started thinking about picking up a can at the PX during lunch! The fight never ends guys!!!!! Came back to KTC today and posted with all my quit buddies from 2011........almost fell yesterday but thanks to KTC I'll keep myself quit!!!!!

Thanks for listening guys!

Glad you're back. You have gone through some serious shit (definitely pre cancer type stuff from what I've read). I hope you stick around. If you go back that shit can return with more ferocity and malignancy. I too had a scare and surgery to remove a benign tumor (from my salivary gland though, not my tongue) but it didn't cause me to quit. I finally quit 148 days ago, thanks to KTC. Hopefully it doesn't return. I personally can't see any reason for us not to make our daily promises by posting roll and being involved here. I would like to have my kids know me with a face.

glad you're back. Keeping things real for me today. Glad you stayed quit too.

Wow thanks brothers. Certainly did not expect much of a welcome after not posting with my quit brothers for so long.......honestly came back for the selfish reason that I started to cave! Glad I didn't and proud to still be quit with all of you.

[brettlees]

Pinched.....I'm back for good.....maybe just to stare at your avatar for a couple minutes a day .

To all the newbs......my story is of success......but I'm lucky.  I stopped posting roll a few weeks after the 100 days.......stayed clean but that was dumb fucking luck!  You guys gotta post and keep posting! 

Think about it.......I went two years clean.......had a painful, expensive nasty bout with what my doc thought was cancer.......and less than 4 months after all that pain and misery I almost bough a can of shit!!!!!!  I'm back posting and letting these guys help me stay accountable.......the addiction is never gone people!!!!!!!!!!!


New guys here is my post from yesterday......read it and think about it!!!!:

Hi to all you quitters! Just took a moment to come back to KTC as it has been a LOOOOONG time since I posted on this amazing site. My quit date is 12 August 2011 and that puts me at 958 days with out the nic bitch. Why I'm back........had a scare with mouth cancer in the fall of 2013.......turns out it is severe dysplasia on my tongue but had to go through a surgery to remove/anaylize it........worst pain in my life. They basically fileted my tongue from the side......stitches popped out too early and my tongue basically started to turn itself inside out. 2 weeks out of work......unreal. Anyway turned out ok......have to go back for scheduled monitoring but no cancer. All this because I dipped for those years. Even after all this......yesterday was a bitch day at work and I started thinking about picking up a can at the PX during lunch! The fight never ends guys!!!!! Came back to KTC today and posted with all my quit buddies from 2011........almost fell yesterday but thanks to KTC I'll keep myself quit!!!!!

Thanks for listening guys!

Glad you're back. You have gone through some serious shit (definitely pre cancer type stuff from what I've read). I hope you stick around. If you go back that shit can return with more ferocity and malignancy. I too had a scare and surgery to remove a benign tumor (from my salivary gland though, not my tongue) but it didn't cause me to quit. I finally quit 148 days ago, thanks to KTC. Hopefully it doesn't return. I personally can't see any reason for us not to make our daily promises by posting roll and being involved here. I would like to have my kids know me with a face.

glad you're back. Keeping things real for me today. Glad you stayed quit too.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Pinched.....I'm back for good.....maybe just to stare at your avatar for a couple minutes a day .

To all the newbs......my story is of success......but I'm lucky. I stopped posting roll a few weeks after the 100 days.......stayed clean but that was dumb fucking luck! You guys gotta post and keep posting!

Think about it.......I went two years clean.......had a painful, expensive nasty bout with what my doc thought was cancer.......and less than 4 months after all that pain and misery I almost bough a can of shit!!!!!! I'm back posting and letting these guys help me stay accountable.......the addiction is never gone people!!!!!!!!!!!


New guys here is my post from yesterday......read it and think about it!!!!:

Hi to all you quitters! Just took a moment to come back to KTC as it has been a LOOOOONG time since I posted on this amazing site. My quit date is 12 August 2011 and that puts me at 958 days with out the nic bitch. Why I'm back........had a scare with mouth cancer in the fall of 2013.......turns out it is severe dysplasia on my tongue but had to go through a surgery to remove/anaylize it........worst pain in my life. They basically fileted my tongue from the side......stitches popped out too early and my tongue basically started to turn itself inside out. 2 weeks out of work......unreal. Anyway turned out ok......have to go back for scheduled monitoring but no cancer. All this because I dipped for those years. Even after all this......yesterday was a bitch day at work and I started thinking about picking up a can at the PX during lunch! The fight never ends guys!!!!! Came back to KTC today and posted with all my quit buddies from 2011........almost fell yesterday but thanks to KTC I'll keep myself quit!!!!!

Thanks for listening guys!

Glad you're back. You have gone through some serious shit (definitely pre cancer type stuff from what I've read). I hope you stick around. If you go back that shit can return with more ferocity and malignancy. I too had a scare and surgery to remove a benign tumor (from my salivary gland though, not my tongue) but it didn't cause me to quit. I finally quit 148 days ago, thanks to KTC. Hopefully it doesn't return. I personally can't see any reason for us not to make our daily promises by posting roll and being involved here. I would like to have my kids know me with a face.

[whacko]

Pinched.....I'm back for good.....maybe just to stare at your avatar for a couple minutes a day .

To all the newbs......my story is of success......but I'm lucky. I stopped posting roll a few weeks after the 100 days.......stayed clean but that was dumb fucking luck! You guys gotta post and keep posting!

Think about it.......I went two years clean.......had a painful, expensive nasty bout with what my doc thought was cancer.......and less than 4 months after all that pain and misery I almost bough a can of shit!!!!!! I'm back posting and letting these guys help me stay accountable.......the addiction is never gone people!!!!!!!!!!!


New guys here is my post from yesterday......read it and think about it!!!!:

Hi to all you quitters! Just took a moment to come back to KTC as it has been a LOOOOONG time since I posted on this amazing site. My quit date is 12 August 2011 and that puts me at 958 days with out the nic bitch. Why I'm back........had a scare with mouth cancer in the fall of 2013.......turns out it is severe dysplasia on my tongue but had to go through a surgery to remove/anaylize it........worst pain in my life. They basically fileted my tongue from the side......stitches popped out too early and my tongue basically started to turn itself inside out. 2 weeks out of work......unreal. Anyway turned out ok......have to go back for scheduled monitoring but no cancer. All this because I dipped for those years. Even after all this......yesterday was a bitch day at work and I started thinking about picking up a can at the PX during lunch! The fight never ends guys!!!!! Came back to KTC today and posted with all my quit buddies from 2011........almost fell yesterday but thanks to KTC I'll keep myself quit!!!!!

Thanks for listening guys!

[Pinched]

Whacko, I read your story from yesterday in to General Discussions thread and thought I would do two things...

A - Thank you for sharing that very enlightening story, great to hear that you are cancer free, not that what you didn't witness was bad but it could have been worse.

B - I wanted to ask that you stick around for a bit, you have a great story and a quit history thus far, why risk it by not being present? Why not share your experience with some newbies and help them by lighting the path with them

Pinched

[whacko]

Well its day 112! Steve1357 reposted a thread yesterday in the November 2011 quit group from when we were all in about our 1st Month. I am grateful that he did! It was a reminder of the deception and stupidity us ninja dippers went through when we were still using nic!

I write this update to my intro not just to thank Steve1357 but also to let all you guys out there that are about to enter the HOF that the addiciton is not over for me! If it were not for reading Steve1357's repost I truly think I may have caved yesterday. Why do I find myself after 100 days without nic thinking about doing it to myself all over again!?!?!?!? I am currently struggling with taking the weight off that I gained.....my addict mind is using that as bait....."dip will keep the weight off" the bitch is telling me! I saw the display at the gas station yesterday and actually looked to see if they had cope wintergreen which was my brand of poisen!

To all my November stuffer brothers out there I'll tell you my quit is still strong.......but the struggle is not over!

To all the guys in December 2011 if you read this........trust me.....it is not over at day 100!

[Scowick65]

Have to post this as a thanks to all the vets out here that have helped me quit! 

80 days in and I am on a business trip right now.......found myself at a local watering hole last night......not drinking heavy but had 2 beers.......thought about how good a packed lip would feel.  Then the thoughts of KTC set me straight. 

This site is amazing and I am so gratefull for all the support.....if it were not for all of you I would be finger bumping a can right now!

It is amazing is it not? I still want a dip sometimes. I simply choose not to. 'Finger' Nic whore. Proud to quit with you Whacko.

[whacko]

Have to post this as a thanks to all the vets out here that have helped me quit!

80 days in and I am on a business trip right now.......found myself at a local watering hole last night......not drinking heavy but had 2 beers.......thought about how good a packed lip would feel. Then the thoughts of KTC set me straight.

This site is amazing and I am so gratefull for all the support.....if it were not for all of you I would be finger bumping a can right now!

[whacko]

First things first:  you need to realize this is not a "habbit".  It is an addiction.  You are an addict.  I am an addict.  A year from now, we'll both still be addicts, but we are beating this thing one day at a time.  Coming to grips with that fact will help you understand that none of us can ever have "just one dip" or "just one can" ever again.  We will automatically revert to where we left off.  We will be worse users than before.  I learned that the hard way.  It's a long story, but the moral is that it led to me being on the can when the wife thougth I had quit.  That's the worst kind of ninja dipper, and the worst guilt trip out there.  Didn't matter though, the nicotine had me beat.

I took back my life 335 days ago after almost 20 years of being a slave.  I didn't tell my wife until about 300 days ago.  Waiting that long was a huge mistake.  I've typed it many times, but she has been a huge part of my quit.  She had no idea what nicotine truly is.  She though I was just a whiner with a bad "habit".  She read the info on the spouse section here and has helped me immensely.  She was more aware of the situation and was able to intervene when she saw my rage beginning to take over.  She helped to spare my children from mood swings.

And one more note:  your battle will be nowhere near over in 10 days.  Don't expect to be back to "normal" by then.  My temperment didn't level out until well past HOF, and I'm a fairly laid-back kind of guy.

Hope some of this helps.  PM me if I can help or you have questions.

Thought it would be cool to go back and read my first posts to see where I came from! Day 22 now and so glad I am still quit! This reply to my original post definately hits home with me now more than when I first read it! Nic is an addiciton!!!! Same as any other drug! Though of it as a bad habbit when I first quit but realize now that it is an addiciton I will have for the rest of my life! Any folks out there that just quit need to listen to this reply I am quoting from my first days! You and I are addicts!!!! Your quit needs to be treated like an addiction! have a plan to get through the craves! Have a plan to get through social events where you know folks who dip! Keep vigilant everyone!

[whacko]

Thanks Radman.....I know it won't be over in 10 days thats for sure! Actually I'm the most worried about what to expect in 10 days! I'll be back to my one hour commute to work one way......that's when I dipped the most! And at the base everyone dips......But......the only hope I have is that I don't want to go through this again!

[Radman]

First things first: you need to realize this is not a "habbit". It is an addiction. You are an addict. I am an addict. A year from now, we'll both still be addicts, but we are beating this thing one day at a time. Coming to grips with that fact will help you understand that none of us can ever have "just one dip" or "just one can" ever again. We will automatically revert to where we left off. We will be worse users than before. I learned that the hard way. It's a long story, but the moral is that it led to me being on the can when the wife thougth I had quit. That's the worst kind of ninja dipper, and the worst guilt trip out there. Didn't matter though, the nicotine had me beat.

I took back my life 335 days ago after almost 20 years of being a slave. I didn't tell my wife until about 300 days ago. Waiting that long was a huge mistake. I've typed it many times, but she has been a huge part of my quit. She had no idea what nicotine truly is. She though I was just a whiner with a bad "habit". She read the info on the spouse section here and has helped me immensely. She was more aware of the situation and was able to intervene when she saw my rage beginning to take over. She helped to spare my children from mood swings.

And one more note: your battle will be nowhere near over in 10 days. Don't expect to be back to "normal" by then. My temperment didn't level out until well past HOF, and I'm a fairly laid-back kind of guy.

Hope some of this helps. PM me if I can help or you have questions.

[whacko]

OK so now I know what they mean on here by "ninja dippers"! Guess I was a ninja dipper....but only at home! At the base everyone dips so its no big deal. I guess the best part of being quit is that I won't have to worry anymore about my family finding the can in the car or the garage!

I have thought before about how many people actually dip! In New England where I am from you rarely see folks dipping in public.....down south you see it more. But......there is dip for sale in EVERY convenience store and gas station in New England......someone is buying it or they wouldn't sell it! Guess there are lots of stealth and ninja dippers in New England!

I'll think about your advice about telling my wife.......we'll see. I think I can get through it without telling her. The real mood swings have subsided and I have 10 more days to get it out of my system before she comes home.

ALready been on the chat room for some advice too!

[tazmed]

Good to know there are folks out there that have been in my shoes with hiding the fact that they dip! I'm tired of living the lie and will use that as one of my motivations to quit! Can't keep worrying about when I'll be able to sneak a dip on the weekends when I'm not at work! It is the stupidst habbit I ever picked up!

Glad to have you aboard Whacko...

I'm on day 55 and just recently have begun to realize just how good I was at ninja-dipping. I've spoken to a couple guys who I've known for quite a few years, and have even spent time hiking and camping with them, but they had no idea that I was a dipper. Who knew I had that talent...

Anyway, as to your wife, have you considered telling her what you're doing? I had been dipping for more than 20 years before I met my wife so she really had no influence on my addiction which kind of contributed to my decision to quit without telling her. I only told her after about three days of quit, and only because I realized that I was being an asshole to her and our kids. I wish I had told her earlier...it would have at least given her the understanding of what I was trying to do after 34 years. The other aspect is that I missed out on her support for those three or four days that are so critical to a successful start.

My advice to you is to start drinking heavily...no wait, that's from a movie...my advice is to get her involved in your quit. She'll probably be pissed that you've kept your addiction from her, but if you approach it from the "I'm an addict and I'm asking for your help" perspective, you'll proabably be more successful.

As others have said, thanks for your service...there are a ton of us veterans (military version) around here and we understand what it means to be in your shoes. All you need to do is reach out if you're having troubles. Get some numbers, read all you can, jump into the chat room...use the tools that are here for you. You can do this and we'll be right behind you every step of the way.

[Scowick65]

Thanks for the service brother. I am here to serve you. Get in touch if you need help. You can count on me. You can do this. I was hard core addicted 248 days ago. Dipped for 20 years. Denny is correct. Read your ass off. It makes quitting get easier. Another little trick is that you will find that you really "get" what some quitters are writing. Somehow, you have a shared experience or outlook with them. As soon as you figure out who they are, get in touch with them. You can learn a lot.

Keep helping new quitters out. Well done Sir. This will strengthen your quit. Lets whip the nic bitch ass.

[whacko]

Good to know there are folks out there that have been in my shoes with hiding the fact that they dip! I'm tired of living the lie and will use that as one of my motivations to quit! Can't keep worrying about when I'll be able to sneak a dip on the weekends when I'm not at work! It is the stupidst habbit I ever picked up!