My story.

[SAM83]

So in a cyclist. Something we do as cyclists that a lot of people don't understand is that we shave our legs. We don't do it for aerodynamics like most people think, technicall, having hair on your legs is more aerodynamic (think dimples on a golf ball).

We do it for tradition. For as long as people have been racing bicycles they have been shaving their legs. They did it to make post race massages easier, they did it to make cleaning tar and debris from road rash easier. They did it show off the muscles they worked hard to create.

It's become a tradition for me to have a dip while I shaved and since I started dipping, to my knowledge, I had not shaved without a dip.

Friday was my first dip less shave.

My tradition has changed and to be honest it didn't feel right. That was probably my hardest urge since day one but I managed to get through it. I had received a text from Horseman earlier in the day and he was such a great asset in my Friday quit. He and Zillah have been checking in with me and I can't thank them enough for that.

Here is to new traditions with Zillah, with Horseman and with the rest of my brothers and sisters of quit.

Bastards 04'14

It amazes me how ingrained the poison was to our daily routines and life events. My buddy and I made venison sausage a couple of nights this past week. I had a real similar conversation with him. I had never done this without tobacco, it felt like something was actually missing from the experience. Weird and all in my head. It was a blast, the sausage turned out great and I did not have to take a dip out when we fried some up to test the batches. Quit on!

Do cycle for pleasure and/or race? Road or Mountain? I used to do both for pleasure, now pretty much just mountain bike for exercise.

[KindCanMan]

So in a cyclist. Something we do as cyclists that a lot of people don't understand is that we shave our legs. We don't do it for aerodynamics like most people think, technicall, having hair on your legs is more aerodynamic (think dimples on a golf ball).

We do it for tradition. For as long as people have been racing bicycles they have been shaving their legs. They did it to make post race massages easier, they did it to make cleaning tar and debris from road rash easier. They did it show off the muscles they worked hard to create.

It's become a tradition for me to have a dip while I shaved and since I started dipping, to my knowledge, I had not shaved without a dip.

Friday was my first dip less shave.

My tradition has changed and to be honest it didn't feel right. That was probably my hardest urge since day one but I managed to get through it. I had received a text from Horseman earlier in the day and he was such a great asset in my Friday quit. He and Zillah have been checking in with me and I can't thank them enough for that.

Here is to new traditions with Zillah, with Horseman and with the rest of my brothers and sisters of quit.

Bastards 04'14

[brettlees]

Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.

That's yesterday, today I made my decision.

Letting it go.

Bastards 04'14

Don't be ashamed. Move forward as a proud quitter.

Hey KCM Dood! Welcome to the group and yes that's fucked up but its no more fucked up than all of us here who bought a can of shit with big bold white letters on it that said "The use of this product will kill you" or something to that effect and then gleefully ripped that bitch open and poked the contents in our lips!

Fucked up - Check!
Acknowledged and moved on - Check!
Being Quit Today with you! - Priceless!

All three of you guys are rocking the quit! I love it! yeah, we all did some really stupid stupid shit. Now it's behind us and we're all walking out of it. We got each other's back. Dood forgive yourself and let it go. The nic bitch would love to see you making yourself feel bad, and hate to see you realizing that you really are so much better off free of her chains. Fuck that, eyes forward move ahead! Right there with each of you.

[apogeeammo]

Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.

That's yesterday, today I made my decision.

Letting it go.

Bastards 04'14

Don't be ashamed. Move forward as a proud quitter.

Hey KCM Dood! Welcome to the group and yes that's fucked up but its no more fucked up than all of us here who bought a can of shit with big bold white letters on it that said "The use of this product will kill you" or something to that effect and then gleefully ripped that bitch open and poked the contents in our lips!

Fucked up - Check!
Acknowledged and moved on - Check!
Being Quit Today with you! - Priceless!

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.

That's yesterday, today I made my decision.

Letting it go.

Bastards 04'14

Don't be ashamed. Move forward as a proud quitter.

[KindCanMan]

Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.

That's yesterday, today I made my decision.

Letting it go.

Bastards 04'14

[KindCanMan]

Last night was a bit weird. I had a great conversation with my wife who is now extremely positive and supportive and less upset. This helps. Knowing she is upset makes this harder. I know she's lost sleep over this. For Christ's sake, she's a dentist! She knows first hand the dangers of this habit.

I didn't sleep much. I went to bed early apprehending the sleeplessness that I read to expect. I woke several times and ended up waking up a couple hours early to do some reading and respond to some emails for work. (Trying to sell some bikes!) I don't know if my lack of sleep is due to the withdrawal or if it's the anxiety. All of this build up and excitement to make it to the three-day mark. I know I need to let that go. One day at a time. One decision each day.

Maybe this is karmic retribution for all of the sleep I've taken from my wife?

Strangely, I'm not tired. I feel good. I feel positive. I hope this lasts but I'm confident it's going to get harder.

Bastards 04'14

[Steakbomb18]

Kindman (I intentionally left out the "can"), thank you for sharing you're story. I particularly like the revelation that what you once considered a habit, was, in fact, a bonafide addiction. That' important, because as an addict we need to understand the commitment we make from day 1 on, that being we can never use nicotine again. Like the alcoholic, we're trying to become sober nicotine addicts, but we'll always be an addict and every day is an individual battle. On that note, don't worry about HOF numbers of 100 and beyond. You worry about notching that next day on your belt, and I'll worry about notching my next day. The great thing about KTC, we'll be notching daily victories together. I got your back, as do all of us.

[KindCanMan]

Thanks dood-

Dood, it's how we spell it amongst my friends. You are all Quitters and Doods. ;)

Thank you for all of the support. Today, well let's just say I've had a lot of coffee today. I've also had a lot of water, don't worry. I've been doing my best to keep busy. I'm probably driving my business partner crazy (I work from home so we're constantly on FaceTime). I'm definitely disconnected today. Working on work things and little hobby things around the house. Been outside a lot with the dog. Doing the best I can to stay positive. You are all helping.

Thanks doods.

[ZillahCowboy]

KindCanMan...
Welcome, and congratulations on your Quit, and your being able to successfully post on Day 1. Way to go.

You are probably now enterting what we call "the big suck"....the first few days of quit are full of fog, terror, confusion, and general disconnectedness. Hang in there. The fog will gradually recede, but it will not be easy even after that. Read everything you can on here and post roll daily (a sacred requirement). Also, get to know your fellow April '14 quitters who have, and are, going through the same thing you are.

Check your inbox for digits. Take care and let's get that quit on!!!
ZC

[Mthomas3824]

Guys, in truth I never expected such a huge response. Thank you.

For starters, I have had the "come to Jesus" talk with my wife. She knows, I know, we're open about it. I told her about you and I think it made her feel better. It's the only thing I've ever lied to her about and I'm ashamed of that. It's up to me to fix that.

Your support is awesome.

As for drinking lots of water, great advise. As a cyclist, that's easy for me to do and beneficial once those hot and humid SC summers come around.

One question, I've tried to find where to roll call, can anyone point me in the right direction?

Adam congrats on coming clean with your wife, I lied to mine for 33 years. As for posting roll click in the salmon color welcome center Above for directions, you will be in the April 2014 group. Pm me if you need anything.

Right on. I came clean with my wife the day I quit. She read for spouses and what a huge support she has been.

Wives are great. Its in their nature to forgive and they feel value in being able to support. My wife was and is amazing in helping me and being their in victory and pain.

If you really want to quit, you just got a lot of strength and support by involving her.

We think we lie to protect our wives from our problems. When we are honest and involve them, we end up fixing our problems.

Great strategic move for your quit and to increase the bond you have with her.

[Wt57]

Guys, in truth I never expected such a huge response. Thank you.

For starters, I have had the "come to Jesus" talk with my wife. She knows, I know, we're open about it. I told her about you and I think it made her feel better. It's the only thing I've ever lied to her about and I'm ashamed of that. It's up to me to fix that.

Your support is awesome.

As for drinking lots of water, great advise. As a cyclist, that's easy for me to do and beneficial once those hot and humid SC summers come around.

One question, I've tried to find where to roll call, can anyone point me in the right direction?

Adam congrats on coming clean with your wife, I lied to mine for 33 years. As for posting roll click in the salmon color welcome center Above for directions, you will be in the April 2014 group. Pm me if you need anything.

[KindCanMan]

Guys, in truth I never expected such a huge response. Thank you.

For starters, I have had the "come to Jesus" talk with my wife. She knows, I know, we're open about it. I told her about you and I think it made her feel better. It's the only thing I've ever lied to her about and I'm ashamed of that. It's up to me to fix that.

Your support is awesome.

As for drinking lots of water, great advise. As a cyclist, that's easy for me to do and beneficial once those hot and humid SC summers come around.

One question, I've tried to find where to roll call, can anyone point me in the right direction?

[SAM83]

Welcome Adam. The advice below is solid. Glad to have you aboard. Post roll and jump in with both feet! At day 10, I can tell you that so far the first 3 days were the toughest so far. Embrace the SUCK of those days :)

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Hello Quitters-

I hope that doesn't come off wrong. We're trained and raised to go through life not quitting because quitters never win, right? In this case, when I call you Quitters, I say so with reverence and admiration. I hope to join your league.

My story, I suppose this goes back to college or even before. I went all through high school and up until my senior year of college before I ever even attempted to try a tobacco product. I was an athlete. I didn't touch the stuff. In fact, I despised and still do despise my mother's smoking habit.

Sometime after I gave up running track and before I entered into the "real world" I picked up smoking on the side. A disappointment to myself. Some days I smoked more than others, mostly it was social but I was still addicted. I discovered cycling again, a sport I took up in my pre-teen years, and I started my slow journey towards quitting cigarettes. I met a girl, now my wife, and I didn't want to be a smoker anymore. I quit. Quite literally on the spot. I maybe smoked a handful of cigarettes from that point forward. I went without tobacco for several months, years even. Sometime around the time my wife, at that time my fiance who is now a dentist, was going through her board exams halfway across the country, I was settling on my first house and starting a business at the same time while working a full time job. The urges came back. I didn't want to smoke and had tried smokeless tobacco once or twice before so I figured I'd give it a go. To stop the anxiety and relieve some stress.

In all honesty, the habit has been touch and go. My usage since I began has been more frequent at times than others. It's something that I've always done in private and in my mind it was always a means to an end - it was something I did instead of smoking and to me it was never going to be something that I did. I wasn't a dipper.

Two years later, I'm using more often than I would like. It's the only secret I've ever kept from my wife. If she didn't know, like know one else knew, in my mind I wasn't using it. Somehow, that's how I justified it to myself.

There is no justification. I'm addicted and it needs to stop. That's why I am here. No more lying, no more pretending, no more hurting anyone else. It hurts my wife and it is hurting me. 

So, to all of you Quitters out there. I hope to be amongst your ranks. 100 days from now, 100 days after that and more after that. I have no doubts this won't be easy. Bare with me.

Cheers fellas (and ladies),

-Adam

Welcome Adam, glad to have you amongst us "quitters." Don't be sorry, we're damn proud of it!

Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. You my friend are not close to being alone. We even have a term for you: ninja dipper. I was a ninja dipper. Most of the people on here were ninja dippers. Your story is so very similar to mine and many others on the site.

Your biggest reason for using: it was a stress reliever. WRONG. One thing you will come to learn if you stick close to this site: 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems. I know I used to justify it using the same faulty rationale. We're doing ourselves a favor by dipping instead of taking it out on somebody else. Wrong again.

"Using more often than you would like" is not good enough. When you quit on here, you QUIT. No mas. Finito. The awesome part about quitting on KTC is we only quit today. That's it. We don't worry about tomorrow or the next day or the Super Bowl. Quit today. One day at a time (ODAAT). It won't be easy. It's simple, but not easy.

Read everything you can on the site. Go to the pink welcome center tab in the top left of your screen and start with why we post roll. By posting you're making a commitment to yourself and everybody else on this site that you will not use nicotine in any form today. No social cigs, no "just one dip", no patches, no nic gum. Keep reading all the information you can, it will help your resolve and increase your accountability to quit once and for all.

After posting roll, check in with some of your fellow April 2014 comrades. Get to know them, it will again help strengthen your quit because they will be there for you when it seems like it's too tough.

I will quit with you today and any day you're willing to put your life and your wife's happiness ahead of a can of carcinogenic worm dirt. You can do this. You WILL do this.

Welcome to the site Adam! Use our program as intended and you WILL quit!!! My only advice is fess up to your wife that you have fallen back into using nic and are serious about quitting. That way you won't have to go through this journey alone.

follow these guys' advice brother, they're damn good quitters.

I would like to emphasize 3 things:

1) follow the KTC plan to the letter if you want to be quit
2) spill your guts to your wife (I did - and it was a huge help)
3) tobacco will KILL you if you don't quit