What do I know about me?

[LaQuitter]

My name is Todd. I'm the most addicted person I know (except you people)...
when I was about 8 years old I used to steal my dad's PBR, or Olymplia Beer and hide under a bridge to drink them....Did I know that one day I'd be locked In a rehab with a bunch of strung out junkies just like me? NOOOO.... ! I just knew that It tatsted great and made me feel good.. Until I was about 25 years old when It didn't taste so good or make me feel so good anymore.... I heard of AA so I tried it.  IT was less than desireable for me.. So I tried quitting on my own. That was the worst fucking nightmare of my life. DT"S shakes. crying screaming. Pain.....I thought I was going to die. wanted to die...Words cannot describe it....Flash back....When I was about 11 or 12 my older brother and I decided to try some chew.  I remember the brand name, Happydays, I think it was about $0.75 a can..Oh man I was big leauge... Smelled like ambroisa, I was hooked even before my first chance to hurl the crap up from my guts.... tried Levi, Redman, Beachnut, Man I tried it all ...Every cent I earned went to trying to buy that stuff. (side note) I found a can of Happydays about a year ago, Just about barfed from the smell)
Forward ......... chewed thru school. Quit school. chewed thru soccer Quit soccer. Got hit by car and face scraped off, teeth knocked out. chewed thru stiched and swollen lips... (drank beer thru straw at same time.... Skoal witergreen fine cut and only Skoal wintergreen finecut.... would do.. If the store didn't have my brand I wouldn't shop that store nomore because the I had standards ( fuck I was addicted) It got to the point where I would wake up choking on spit because I fell asleep with it in my mouth....Wanted to quit this disgusting habit. needed new pillows Ones without all the brown pepper stains. Tried like a pussy to quit on my own... flash back to quit drinking thought I was going to die again. Last maybe a hour or two before getting so angry at everybody that they were begging me to put a dipp back in before I killed someone..... Thought many times that I just needed to be locked away in rehab again. make it easier.. Thought if there was some kind of group out there for just chewers. asked fucking doctors if there was anything to take otherthan nicorete gum(for smokers) NOOOOOOOOO. I WAS JUST A BIG CRYBABY SUCKBAG WHEN IT CAME TO QUITTING CHEW..... when I found out about this site (From older bother whose quit is approaching 600 days)
I FUCKING DECIDED I AM ..........  I AM ..........I AM A FUCKING QUITTER.I'm the best damn quitter I know... I'ver quit a lot of things I'm not proud of..and few that were fucking miracles.....27 years later I own this quit. I'm quitting chew this crap.that makes my breath smell like someone just shit and walked away. I'm quitting this crap of $110.00 a month spit on the ground and the countless thousands of dollars I've spent on all the other crap at those stores, just so I wouldn't look like I'm there at 3:00 am just to get a can of chew. Man I AM DONE...It's all over but the kicking and screaming,but I've done that before and quite successfully still don't drink and tomorrow I won't chew.. With all You BADDASSED QUITTERS THAT ONLY YOUR MOM COULD LOVE

Sounds like you got the motivation bro! Kick this quit in the ass! LIVE on this site, it will be your refuge! YELL at people, YELL in general! Fuck it! We've all made it through the suck...embrace it....your quit group is going through it....and soon you'll be looking back and wondering who that fuckin addict freak was that kept you chained all those years.

You're a new person today! You are quit!

Awesome fucking post dude! Good stuff! Good read! Need more! Write more!

good post. I'm confident your brother has told you what this site is about and how to use it. You are correct we are all sick fucks. If we can do it, you can do it.

166 days later....

This has been the worst week, for me! I have found out some very disturbing things about my son and his school, my wife, my job, and the rush of triggers will not seem to end.... Through it all I have held on like a fort!! protecting my quit at all costs. I have gone thru at least 4 bags of sunflower seeds in two days....I will weather this shit storm... I will be the one who walks out of the bathroom with everyones eyes on me! Today, is almost over, and tommorrow isn't here yet, so I count today as a huge victory, with this momentuem to carry over for the next day.... tommorrow I will be victorious again!!!!


I owe it all to my brothers and sisters at KTC, who get me and can get me through the tough times! Without you I wouldn't be able to even take a stand against one of the few things I can fight in this battle! Thank you all very much!

Banner, you have been 100% pure badass from Day 1. It's been a pleasure quitting with you.

Stay strong....you WILL weather the storms. You have my number.....use it if you need to.

See you at roll tomorrow.

[Dr. Bruce Banner]

My name is Todd. I'm the most addicted person I know (except you people)...
when I was about 8 years old I used to steal my dad's PBR, or Olymplia Beer and hide under a bridge to drink them....Did I know that one day I'd be locked In a rehab with a bunch of strung out junkies just like me? NOOOO.... ! I just knew that It tatsted great and made me feel good.. Until I was about 25 years old when It didn't taste so good or make me feel so good anymore.... I heard of AA so I tried it.  IT was less than desireable for me.. So I tried quitting on my own. That was the worst fucking nightmare of my life. DT"S shakes. crying screaming. Pain.....I thought I was going to die. wanted to die...Words cannot describe it....Flash back....When I was about 11 or 12 my older brother and I decided to try some chew.  I remember the brand name, Happydays, I think it was about $0.75 a can..Oh man I was big leauge... Smelled like ambroisa, I was hooked even before my first chance to hurl the crap up from my guts.... tried Levi, Redman, Beachnut, Man I tried it all ...Every cent I earned went to trying to buy that stuff. (side note) I found a can of Happydays about a year ago, Just about barfed from the smell)
Forward ......... chewed thru school. Quit school. chewed thru soccer Quit soccer. Got hit by car and face scraped off, teeth knocked out. chewed thru stiched and swollen lips... (drank beer thru straw at same time.... Skoal witergreen fine cut and only Skoal wintergreen finecut.... would do.. If the store didn't have my brand I wouldn't shop that store nomore because the I had standards ( fuck I was addicted) It got to the point where I would wake up choking on spit because I fell asleep with it in my mouth....Wanted to quit this disgusting habit. needed new pillows Ones without all the brown pepper stains. Tried like a pussy to quit on my own... flash back to quit drinking thought I was going to die again. Last maybe a hour or two before getting so angry at everybody that they were begging me to put a dipp back in before I killed someone..... Thought many times that I just needed to be locked away in rehab again. make it easier.. Thought if there was some kind of group out there for just chewers. asked fucking doctors if there was anything to take otherthan nicorete gum(for smokers) NOOOOOOOOO. I WAS JUST A BIG CRYBABY SUCKBAG WHEN IT CAME TO QUITTING CHEW..... when I found out about this site (From older bother whose quit is approaching 600 days)
I FUCKING DECIDED I AM ..........  I AM ..........I AM A FUCKING QUITTER.I'm the best damn quitter I know... I'ver quit a lot of things I'm not proud of..and few that were fucking miracles.....27 years later I own this quit. I'm quitting chew this crap.that makes my breath smell like someone just shit and walked away. I'm quitting this crap of $110.00 a month spit on the ground and the countless thousands of dollars I've spent on all the other crap at those stores, just so I wouldn't look like I'm there at 3:00 am just to get a can of chew. Man I AM DONE...It's all over but the kicking and screaming,but I've done that before and quite successfully still don't drink and tomorrow I won't chew.. With all You BADDASSED QUITTERS THAT ONLY YOUR MOM COULD LOVE

Sounds like you got the motivation bro! Kick this quit in the ass! LIVE on this site, it will be your refuge! YELL at people, YELL in general! Fuck it! We've all made it through the suck...embrace it....your quit group is going through it....and soon you'll be looking back and wondering who that fuckin addict freak was that kept you chained all those years.

You're a new person today! You are quit!

Awesome fucking post dude! Good stuff! Good read! Need more! Write more!

good post. I'm confident your brother has told you what this site is about and how to use it. You are correct we are all sick fucks. If we can do it, you can do it.

166 days later....

This has been the worst week, for me! I have found out some very disturbing things about my son and his school, my wife, my job, and the rush of triggers will not seem to end.... Through it all I have held on like a fort!! protecting my quit at all costs. I have gone thru at least 4 bags of sunflower seeds in two days....I will weather this shit storm... I will be the one who walks out of the bathroom with everyones eyes on me! Today, is almost over, and tommorrow isn't here yet, so I count today as a huge victory, with this momentuem to carry over for the next day.... tommorrow I will be victorious again!!!!


I owe it all to my brothers and sisters at KTC, who get me and can get me through the tough times! Without you I wouldn't be able to even take a stand against one of the few things I can fight in this battle! Thank you all very much!

[GlennFtheKodiak]

My name is Todd. I'm the most addicted person I know (except you people)...
when I was about 8 years old I used to steal my dad's PBR, or Olymplia Beer and hide under a bridge to drink them....Did I know that one day I'd be locked In a rehab with a bunch of strung out junkies just like me? NOOOO.... ! I just knew that It tatsted great and made me feel good.. Until I was about 25 years old when It didn't taste so good or make me feel so good anymore.... I heard of AA so I tried it.  IT was less than desireable for me.. So I tried quitting on my own. That was the worst fucking nightmare of my life. DT"S shakes. crying screaming. Pain.....I thought I was going to die. wanted to die...Words cannot describe it....Flash back....When I was about 11 or 12 my older brother and I decided to try some chew.  I remember the brand name, Happydays, I think it was about $0.75 a can..Oh man I was big leauge... Smelled like ambroisa, I was hooked even before my first chance to hurl the crap up from my guts.... tried Levi, Redman, Beachnut, Man I tried it all ...Every cent I earned went to trying to buy that stuff. (side note) I found a can of Happydays about a year ago, Just about barfed from the smell)
Forward ......... chewed thru school. Quit school. chewed thru soccer Quit soccer. Got hit by car and face scraped off, teeth knocked out. chewed thru stiched and swollen lips... (drank beer thru straw at same time.... Skoal witergreen fine cut and only Skoal wintergreen finecut.... would do.. If the store didn't have my brand I wouldn't shop that store nomore because the I had standards ( fuck I was addicted) It got to the point where I would wake up choking on spit because I fell asleep with it in my mouth....Wanted to quit this disgusting habit. needed new pillows Ones without all the brown pepper stains. Tried like a pussy to quit on my own... flash back to quit drinking thought I was going to die again. Last maybe a hour or two before getting so angry at everybody that they were begging me to put a dipp back in before I killed someone..... Thought many times that I just needed to be locked away in rehab again. make it easier.. Thought if there was some kind of group out there for just chewers. asked fucking doctors if there was anything to take otherthan nicorete gum(for smokers) NOOOOOOOOO. I WAS JUST A BIG CRYBABY SUCKBAG WHEN IT CAME TO QUITTING CHEW..... when I found out about this site (From older bother whose quit is approaching 600 days)
I FUCKING DECIDED I AM ..........  I AM ..........I AM A FUCKING QUITTER.I'm the best damn quitter I know... I'ver quit a lot of things I'm not proud of..and few that were fucking miracles.....27 years later I own this quit. I'm quitting chew this crap.that makes my breath smell like someone just shit and walked away. I'm quitting this crap of $110.00 a month spit on the ground and the countless thousands of dollars I've spent on all the other crap at those stores, just so I wouldn't look like I'm there at 3:00 am just to get a can of chew. Man I AM DONE...It's all over but the kicking and screaming,but I've done that before and quite successfully still don't drink and tomorrow I won't chew.. With all You BADDASSED QUITTERS THAT ONLY YOUR MOM COULD LOVE

Sounds like you got the motivation bro! Kick this quit in the ass! LIVE on this site, it will be your refuge! YELL at people, YELL in general! Fuck it! We've all made it through the suck...embrace it....your quit group is going through it....and soon you'll be looking back and wondering who that fuckin addict freak was that kept you chained all those years.

You're a new person today! You are quit!

Awesome fucking post dude! Good stuff! Good read! Need more! Write more!

good post. I'm confident your brother has told you what this site is about and how to use it. You are correct we are all sick fucks. If we can do it, you can do it.

[Gump]

Hulk, there is no amount of screaming, cussing, pissing people off on here that you can do that is worse than putting that shit in your mouth even one more time. This is THE PLACE where you get to howl at the pain and curse your brothers and be a complete idiot and it's all good, as long as you stay quit from nicotine.

We're addicts. We get you. Kick and scream on, brother.

[coolcop]

My name is Todd. I'm the most addicted person I know (except you people)...
when I was about 8 years old I used to steal my dad's PBR, or Olymplia Beer and hide under a bridge to drink them....Did I know that one day I'd be locked In a rehab with a bunch of strung out junkies just like me? NOOOO.... ! I just knew that It tatsted great and made me feel good.. Until I was about 25 years old when It didn't taste so good or make me feel so good anymore.... I heard of AA so I tried it.  IT was less than desireable for me.. So I tried quitting on my own. That was the worst fucking nightmare of my life. DT"S shakes. crying screaming. Pain.....I thought I was going to die. wanted to die...Words cannot describe it....Flash back....When I was about 11 or 12 my older brother and I decided to try some chew.  I remember the brand name, Happydays, I think it was about $0.75 a can..Oh man I was big leauge... Smelled like ambroisa, I was hooked even before my first chance to hurl the crap up from my guts.... tried Levi, Redman, Beachnut, Man I tried it all ...Every cent I earned went to trying to buy that stuff. (side note) I found a can of Happydays about a year ago, Just about barfed from the smell)
Forward ......... chewed thru school. Quit school. chewed thru soccer Quit soccer. Got hit by car and face scraped off, teeth knocked out. chewed thru stiched and swollen lips... (drank beer thru straw at same time.... Skoal witergreen fine cut and only Skoal wintergreen finecut.... would do.. If the store didn't have my brand I wouldn't shop that store nomore because the I had standards ( fuck I was addicted) It got to the point where I would wake up choking on spit because I fell asleep with it in my mouth....Wanted to quit this disgusting habit. needed new pillows Ones without all the brown pepper stains. Tried like a pussy to quit on my own... flash back to quit drinking thought I was going to die again. Last maybe a hour or two before getting so angry at everybody that they were begging me to put a dipp back in before I killed someone..... Thought many times that I just needed to be locked away in rehab again. make it easier.. Thought if there was some kind of group out there for just chewers. asked fucking doctors if there was anything to take otherthan nicorete gum(for smokers) NOOOOOOOOO. I WAS JUST A BIG CRYBABY SUCKBAG WHEN IT CAME TO QUITTING CHEW..... when I found out about this site (From older bother whose quit is approaching 600 days)
I FUCKING DECIDED I AM ..........  I AM ..........I AM A FUCKING QUITTER.I'm the best damn quitter I know... I'ver quit a lot of things I'm not proud of..and few that were fucking miracles.....27 years later I own this quit. I'm quitting chew this crap.that makes my breath smell like someone just shit and walked away. I'm quitting this crap of $110.00 a month spit on the ground and the countless thousands of dollars I've spent on all the other crap at those stores, just so I wouldn't look like I'm there at 3:00 am just to get a can of chew. Man I AM DONE...It's all over but the kicking and screaming,but I've done that before and quite successfully still don't drink and tomorrow I won't chew.. With all You BADDASSED QUITTERS THAT ONLY YOUR MOM COULD LOVE

Sounds like you got the motivation bro! Kick this quit in the ass! LIVE on this site, it will be your refuge! YELL at people, YELL in general! Fuck it! We've all made it through the suck...embrace it....your quit group is going through it....and soon you'll be looking back and wondering who that fuckin addict freak was that kept you chained all those years.

You're a new person today! You are quit!

Awesome fucking post dude! Good stuff! Good read! Need more! Write more!

[russjns]

My name is Todd. I'm the most addicted person I know (except you people)...
when I was about 8 years old I used to steal my dad's PBR, or Olymplia Beer and hide under a bridge to drink them....Did I know that one day I'd be locked In a rehab with a bunch of strung out junkies just like me? NOOOO.... ! I just knew that It tatsted great and made me feel good.. Until I was about 25 years old when It didn't taste so good or make me feel so good anymore.... I heard of AA so I tried it. IT was less than desireable for me.. So I tried quitting on my own. That was the worst fucking nightmare of my life. DT"S shakes. crying screaming. Pain.....I thought I was going to die. wanted to die...Words cannot describe it....Flash back....When I was about 11 or 12 my older brother and I decided to try some chew. I remember the brand name, Happydays, I think it was about $0.75 a can..Oh man I was big leauge... Smelled like ambroisa, I was hooked even before my first chance to hurl the crap up from my guts.... tried Levi, Redman, Beachnut, Man I tried it all ...Every cent I earned went to trying to buy that stuff. (side note) I found a can of Happydays about a year ago, Just about barfed from the smell)
Forward ......... chewed thru school. Quit school. chewed thru soccer Quit soccer. Got hit by car and face scraped off, teeth knocked out. chewed thru stiched and swollen lips... (drank beer thru straw at same time.... Skoal witergreen fine cut and only Skoal wintergreen finecut.... would do.. If the store didn't have my brand I wouldn't shop that store nomore because the I had standards ( fuck I was addicted) It got to the point where I would wake up choking on spit because I fell asleep with it in my mouth....Wanted to quit this disgusting habit. needed new pillows Ones without all the brown pepper stains. Tried like a pussy to quit on my own... flash back to quit drinking thought I was going to die again. Last maybe a hour or two before getting so angry at everybody that they were begging me to put a dipp back in before I killed someone..... Thought many times that I just needed to be locked away in rehab again. make it easier.. Thought if there was some kind of group out there for just chewers. asked fucking doctors if there was anything to take otherthan nicorete gum(for smokers) NOOOOOOOOO. I WAS JUST A BIG CRYBABY SUCKBAG WHEN IT CAME TO QUITTING CHEW..... when I found out about this site (From older bother whose quit is approaching 600 days)
I FUCKING DECIDED I AM .......... I AM ..........I AM A FUCKING QUITTER.I'm the best damn quitter I know... I'ver quit a lot of things I'm not proud of..and few that were fucking miracles.....27 years later I own this quit. I'm quitting chew this crap.that makes my breath smell like someone just shit and walked away. I'm quitting this crap of $110.00 a month spit on the ground and the countless thousands of dollars I've spent on all the other crap at those stores, just so I wouldn't look like I'm there at 3:00 am just to get a can of chew. Man I AM DONE...It's all over but the kicking and screaming,but I've done that before and quite successfully still don't drink and tomorrow I won't chew.. With all You BADDASSED QUITTERS THAT ONLY YOUR MOM COULD LOVE

Sounds like you got the motivation bro! Kick this quit in the ass! LIVE on this site, it will be your refuge! YELL at people, YELL in general! Fuck it! We've all made it through the suck...embrace it....your quit group is going through it....and soon you'll be looking back and wondering who that fuckin addict freak was that kept you chained all those years.

You're a new person today! You are quit!

[Dr. Bruce Banner]

My name is Todd. I'm the most addicted person I know (except you people)...
when I was about 8 years old I used to steal my dad's PBR, or Olymplia Beer and hide under a bridge to drink them....Did I know that one day I'd be locked In a rehab with a bunch of strung out junkies just like me? NOOOO.... ! I just knew that It tatsted great and made me feel good.. Until I was about 25 years old when It didn't taste so good or make me feel so good anymore.... I heard of AA so I tried it. IT was less than desireable for me.. So I tried quitting on my own. That was the worst fucking nightmare of my life. DT"S shakes. crying screaming. Pain.....I thought I was going to die. wanted to die...Words cannot describe it....Flash back....When I was about 11 or 12 my older brother and I decided to try some chew. I remember the brand name, Happydays, I think it was about $0.75 a can..Oh man I was big leauge... Smelled like ambroisa, I was hooked even before my first chance to hurl the crap up from my guts.... tried Levi, Redman, Beachnut, Man I tried it all ...Every cent I earned went to trying to buy that stuff. (side note) I found a can of Happydays about a year ago, Just about barfed from the smell)
Forward ......... chewed thru school. Quit school. chewed thru soccer Quit soccer. Got hit by car and face scraped off, teeth knocked out. chewed thru stiched and swollen lips... (drank beer thru straw at same time.... Skoal witergreen fine cut and only Skoal wintergreen finecut.... would do.. If the store didn't have my brand I wouldn't shop that store nomore because the I had standards ( fuck I was addicted) It got to the point where I would wake up choking on spit because I fell asleep with it in my mouth....Wanted to quit this disgusting habit. needed new pillows Ones without all the brown pepper stains. Tried like a pussy to quit on my own... flash back to quit drinking thought I was going to die again. Last maybe a hour or two before getting so angry at everybody that they were begging me to put a dipp back in before I killed someone..... Thought many times that I just needed to be locked away in rehab again. make it easier.. Thought if there was some kind of group out there for just chewers. asked fucking doctors if there was anything to take otherthan nicorete gum(for smokers) NOOOOOOOOO. I WAS JUST A BIG CRYBABY SUCKBAG WHEN IT CAME TO QUITTING CHEW..... when I found out about this site (From older bother whose quit is approaching 600 days)
I FUCKING DECIDED I AM .......... I AM ..........I AM A FUCKING QUITTER.I'm the best damn quitter I know... I'ver quit a lot of things I'm not proud of..and few that were fucking miracles.....27 years later I own this quit. I'm quitting chew this crap.that makes my breath smell like someone just shit and walked away. I'm quitting this crap of $110.00 a month spit on the ground and the countless thousands of dollars I've spent on all the other crap at those stores, just so I wouldn't look like I'm there at 3:00 am just to get a can of chew. Man I AM DONE...It's all over but the kicking and screaming,but I've done that before and quite successfully still don't drink and tomorrow I won't chew.. With all You BADDASSED QUITTERS THAT ONLY YOUR MOM COULD LOVE