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[ross8yrs]

Day 124

I have not been on KTC for quite some time now. Things have been much better since the beginning days. night and day difference. Anyone in the beginning stages hang in there it is the best decision of your life. ALWAYS keep your guard up because no matter how long you have been nic free, that stubborn bitch will sneak up on you at the most unexpected times.

Engaged as of couple weeks ago, job promotion. Cannot complain on my end.

Stay quit. ODAAT

Ross

[Mike from AB]

Awesome work Ross, congrats on 90! 3 months!!

[ross8yrs]

Today Marks Day 90,

Seems crazy to me that I've made this mile marker. Never ever thought I could make it, especially in the beginning. Just took it one day at a time and had the, "fuck no, I'm not giving." in mentality. It still tests me to be sure, i crave here and there but I have to tools to bat that shit away.

I am very proud at this moment and thought I would take the time to write it down.

Stay Quit. LET THE HOF COUNTDOWN BEGIN

Ross

[Derk40]

Day 60-

I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50.  Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today. 

I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.

Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one. 

I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days,  maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.

Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change. 

Thanks,

Ross

Congrats Ross! 60 is not a small number - 60 is awesome and you should be proud of yourself!

Congrats my brother. I am right there with you. It is good to take the occasional step back to see what we have accomplished so far. Glad to quit in Sept with you.

60 is awesome Ross! My guess on why this number feels so good to you is as follows...

I think you are starting to realize that you are winning. I think you know the recipe for victory... wake up, post roll, stay quit ODAAT, repeat next day. I think you know the fight is still on and you are not backing down. I think you love being Free! I think you see that caving is not an option and there will be no turning back to the poison weed. I think you are damn proud to be 60 days quit  be part of September.

That is just my guess. Regardless, I am proud to be quit with you today!

[CaliforniaSlim]

Day 60-

I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50.  Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today. 

I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.

Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one. 

I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days,  maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.

Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change. 

Thanks,

Ross

Congrats Ross! 60 is not a small number - 60 is awesome and you should be proud of yourself!

Congrats my brother. I am right there with you. It is good to take the occasional step back to see what we have accomplished so far. Glad to quit in Sept with you.

[rickddd]

Day 60-

I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50. Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today.

I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.

Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one.

I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days, maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.

Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change.

Thanks,

Ross

Congrats Ross! 60 is not a small number - 60 is awesome and you should be proud of yourself!

[ross8yrs]

Day 60-

I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50. Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today.

I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.

Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one.

I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days, maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.

Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change.

Thanks,

Ross

[CaliforniaSlim]

Day 52-

Happy to report things are getting better steadily, the "blues" are finally clearing and becoming myself again. Sure there are cravings but nothing to ruin my day. Went Camping in the bush this weekend with almost exclusively hardcore chewers. Thought it would bother me more than it did.

I did try the herbal smokey mountain and that did curb the cravings for sure. I'm not sure if that's a step backwards or forwards but it did make me feel better around a fire.

Thanks for all the support and helpful words of encouragement. I know I'm not out of the woods and still have my guard up, just good to be becoming myself again.

Every day you don't use nic is a step forward Ross.. Nice Job.

[ross8yrs]

Day 52-

Happy to report things are getting better steadily, the "blues" are finally clearing and becoming myself again. Sure there are cravings but nothing to ruin my day. Went Camping in the bush this weekend with almost exclusively hardcore chewers. Thought it would bother me more than it did.

I did try the herbal smokey mountain and that did curb the cravings for sure. I'm not sure if that's a step backwards or forwards but it did make me feel better around a fire.

Thanks for all the support and helpful words of encouragement. I know I'm not out of the woods and still have my guard up, just good to be becoming myself again.

[jrod]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not.  I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today. 

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

Ross,

I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.

I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.

I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!

Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.

The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.

I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.

You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.

nice work guys, just keep it up.

And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.

It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.

So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.

Stay quit my friends.....

Yes, keep at it. The plan will work. Each body reacts a bit different to the quit, but each body shall heal. Sometimes this helps

How many days did you use how many days quit?

For me: 7300 vs 959.

That may give you some perspective.

35 days is a great accomplishment Ross. Be proud of yourself. I wish I would have had the brains and balls to quit at 26 year old. It does go slow when you first start out, but who cares. One day at a time is the only way to get there my friend. Slow and steady wins the race. Smell the roses, take deep breaths, experience all things like they are new again without the poison running thru your veins.


Glad you reached out with text today. You really strengthened my quit today. It was refreshing to see a young quitter stomping the nic bitch, using the tools, and taking his freedom back. It was great to talk to you and like I told you on the phone, what you are feeling is 100% completely normal. These guys are some solid quitters and they are giving you great advice. Just take it one day at a time and like Skoal monster said, "forget about all of your expectations about what being quit should feel like". Just be quit and live your life. Things will get better, I promise. And you will be stronger with each crave you resist and each funk that you crawl out of.

Enjoy your vacation Ross. Keep me posted on how you are doing, whatever is on your mind OR just a promise and a day count, whatever you want.

Talk to you soon.

Man, I'm so with you on this. I'm at day 29 and I feel like crap, and I have for about a week. At this point, the only thing Im enjoying about being quit is trying to help new guys get started. I don't even want to talk about my own quit because I'm just discouraged. Not sure why that is. Obviously I'm proud that I am quit, but right now being quit sucks ass.

We will get through it. I'm sure it's just a phase. Or, at least, it effing BETTER be a phase. Shoot me a PM if you need a depression buddy, haha.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not.  I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today. 

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

Ross,

I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.

I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.

I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!

Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.

The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.

I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.

You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.

nice work guys, just keep it up.

And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.

It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.

So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.

Stay quit my friends.....

Yes, keep at it. The plan will work. Each body reacts a bit different to the quit, but each body shall heal. Sometimes this helps

How many days did you use how many days quit?

For me: 7300 vs 959.

That may give you some perspective.

35 days is a great accomplishment Ross. Be proud of yourself. I wish I would have had the brains and balls to quit at 26 year old. It does go slow when you first start out, but who cares. One day at a time is the only way to get there my friend. Slow and steady wins the race. Smell the roses, take deep breaths, experience all things like they are new again without the poison running thru your veins.


Glad you reached out with text today. You really strengthened my quit today. It was refreshing to see a young quitter stomping the nic bitch, using the tools, and taking his freedom back. It was great to talk to you and like I told you on the phone, what you are feeling is 100% completely normal. These guys are some solid quitters and they are giving you great advice. Just take it one day at a time and like Skoal monster said, "forget about all of your expectations about what being quit should feel like". Just be quit and live your life. Things will get better, I promise. And you will be stronger with each crave you resist and each funk that you crawl out of.

Enjoy your vacation Ross. Keep me posted on how you are doing, whatever is on your mind OR just a promise and a day count, whatever you want.

Talk to you soon.

[Scowick65]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not.  I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today. 

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

Ross,

I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.

I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.

I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!

Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.

The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.

I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.

You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.

nice work guys, just keep it up.

And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.

It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.

So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.

Stay quit my friends.....

Yes, keep at it. The plan will work. Each body reacts a bit different to the quit, but each body shall heal. Sometimes this helps

How many days did you use how many days quit?

For me: 7300 vs 959.

That may give you some perspective.

[SirDerek]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not.  I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today. 

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

Ross,

I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.

I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.

I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!

Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.

The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.

I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.

You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.

nice work guys, just keep it up.

And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.

It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.

So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.

Stay quit my friends.....

[CaliforniaSlim]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not.  I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today. 

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

Ross,

I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.

I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.

I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!

Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.

The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.

I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.

You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.

[srans]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not.  I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today. 

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

Ross,

I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.

I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.

I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!

Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.

The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.

I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.