Today is the Day

[30isEnuff]

Last night I had a dip dream within a dip dream that I caved in another dip dream. Don't know if that means something, but it was strange none the less. No more cravings throughout the day, I have gone through some stressful times over the last couple of months and never once even considered using dip. I have KTC to thank. The hardliners can kind of get on my nerves every now and again, but they do serve a purpose in the community. You obviously don't want to be the object of their disdain, and you don't want to cave when there are people so dedicated in your community. So hardliners, I may post my irritation with your straightedge ways; but you guys do serve a valuable purpose. Keeping the rest of us (who don't get excited very easily) quit.

Dave,

You can call me a hardliner, or asshole, or whole ass....I really don't much care as long as you're quit. You're too young, and as you said in a post somewhere much earlier in this introduction, you have too pretty a face for cancer to tear it up (although given you're a Marine, I have to doubt that somewhat).

I know you're pissed about the missed post. Sorry that happened, but take and use it to your advantage. Just like Guadalcanal....let that be your Never Again point.

I'm with you brother....we're gonna hit 100 together, then 200, then the next fifty or sixty hundreds after that...(by then I'll prolly be dead cause I'm friggin old!!!) :D

I just wish I could get through the inability to think clearly and consistently. Like SFGE says, one day it will come....right now we're on day 66 and being honest I gotta tell you I'm not feelin' it.

Quit on brother....ain't no turnin' back.

CavMan, what do you mean? All Marines have pretty faces... That's a given, just ask Nolaq, Pinched, Bulldog or any of the Marines here! Ha!

Seriously, you guys got this. Be patient and all will be revealed in time. If freedom from the nic bitch was easy to obtain we wouldn't have a addiction problem. The best part of my quit has been the journey and the discovery of myself along that journey. It does take some time but the freedom is awesome. Don't ever give up or miss out on that because it is worth going through the craves, the dreams and panic attacks. That will all go away in time.

SFGE,

The ONLY pretty Marines I have ever seen was a pair of Marine Captains (female) who used to work out the same time I did in the gym in Camp Arifjan....they were some lookers. Never met a pretty MALE marine in three decades of service....just sayin'.

I'm your Huckleberry....

Congratulations u r re-wiring ur addict brain. That is progress. Keep going. Enjoy ur victories. Quit is the good life.

[Nolaq]

Last night I had a dip dream within a dip dream that I caved in another dip dream. Don't know if that means something, but it was strange none the less. No more cravings throughout the day, I have gone through some stressful times over the last couple of months and never once even considered using dip. I have KTC to thank. The hardliners can kind of get on my nerves every now and again, but they do serve a purpose in the community. You obviously don't want to be the object of their disdain, and you don't want to cave when there are people so dedicated in your community. So hardliners, I may post my irritation with your straightedge ways; but you guys do serve a valuable purpose. Keeping the rest of us (who don't get excited very easily) quit.

Dave,

You can call me a hardliner, or asshole, or whole ass....I really don't much care as long as you're quit. You're too young, and as you said in a post somewhere much earlier in this introduction, you have too pretty a face for cancer to tear it up (although given you're a Marine, I have to doubt that somewhat).

I know you're pissed about the missed post. Sorry that happened, but take and use it to your advantage. Just like Guadalcanal....let that be your Never Again point.

I'm with you brother....we're gonna hit 100 together, then 200, then the next fifty or sixty hundreds after that...(by then I'll prolly be dead cause I'm friggin old!!!) :D

I just wish I could get through the inability to think clearly and consistently. Like SFGE says, one day it will come....right now we're on day 66 and being honest I gotta tell you I'm not feelin' it.

Quit on brother....ain't no turnin' back.

CavMan, what do you mean? All Marines have pretty faces... That's a given, just ask Nolaq, Pinched, Bulldog or any of the Marines here! Ha!

Seriously, you guys got this. Be patient and all will be revealed in time. If freedom from the nic bitch was easy to obtain we wouldn't have a addiction problem. The best part of my quit has been the journey and the discovery of myself along that journey. It does take some time but the freedom is awesome. Don't ever give up or miss out on that because it is worth going through the craves, the dreams and panic attacks. That will all go away in time.

SFGE,

The ONLY pretty Marines I have ever seen was a pair of Marine Captains (female) who used to work out the same time I did in the gym in Camp Arifjan....they were some lookers. Never met a pretty MALE marine in three decades of service....just sayin'.

I'm your Huckleberry....

[CavMan83]

Last night I had a dip dream within a dip dream that I caved in another dip dream. Don't know if that means something, but it was strange none the less. No more cravings throughout the day, I have gone through some stressful times over the last couple of months and never once even considered using dip. I have KTC to thank. The hardliners can kind of get on my nerves every now and again, but they do serve a purpose in the community. You obviously don't want to be the object of their disdain, and you don't want to cave when there are people so dedicated in your community. So hardliners, I may post my irritation with your straightedge ways; but you guys do serve a valuable purpose. Keeping the rest of us (who don't get excited very easily) quit.

Dave,

You can call me a hardliner, or asshole, or whole ass....I really don't much care as long as you're quit. You're too young, and as you said in a post somewhere much earlier in this introduction, you have too pretty a face for cancer to tear it up (although given you're a Marine, I have to doubt that somewhat).

I know you're pissed about the missed post. Sorry that happened, but take and use it to your advantage. Just like Guadalcanal....let that be your Never Again point.

I'm with you brother....we're gonna hit 100 together, then 200, then the next fifty or sixty hundreds after that...(by then I'll prolly be dead cause I'm friggin old!!!) :D

I just wish I could get through the inability to think clearly and consistently. Like SFGE says, one day it will come....right now we're on day 66 and being honest I gotta tell you I'm not feelin' it.

Quit on brother....ain't no turnin' back.

CavMan, what do you mean? All Marines have pretty faces... That's a given, just ask Nolaq, Pinched, Bulldog or any of the Marines here! Ha!

Seriously, you guys got this. Be patient and all will be revealed in time. If freedom from the nic bitch was easy to obtain we wouldn't have a addiction problem. The best part of my quit has been the journey and the discovery of myself along that journey. It does take some time but the freedom is awesome. Don't ever give up or miss out on that because it is worth going through the craves, the dreams and panic attacks. That will all go away in time.

SFGE,

The ONLY pretty Marines I have ever seen was a pair of Marine Captains (female) who used to work out the same time I did in the gym in Camp Arifjan....they were some lookers. Never met a pretty MALE marine in three decades of service....just sayin'.

[Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat]

Last night I had a dip dream within a dip dream that I caved in another dip dream. Don't know if that means something, but it was strange none the less. No more cravings throughout the day, I have gone through some stressful times over the last couple of months and never once even considered using dip. I have KTC to thank. The hardliners can kind of get on my nerves every now and again, but they do serve a purpose in the community. You obviously don't want to be the object of their disdain, and you don't want to cave when there are people so dedicated in your community. So hardliners, I may post my irritation with your straightedge ways; but you guys do serve a valuable purpose. Keeping the rest of us (who don't get excited very easily) quit.

Dave,

You can call me a hardliner, or asshole, or whole ass....I really don't much care as long as you're quit. You're too young, and as you said in a post somewhere much earlier in this introduction, you have too pretty a face for cancer to tear it up (although given you're a Marine, I have to doubt that somewhat).

I know you're pissed about the missed post. Sorry that happened, but take and use it to your advantage. Just like Guadalcanal....let that be your Never Again point.

I'm with you brother....we're gonna hit 100 together, then 200, then the next fifty or sixty hundreds after that...(by then I'll prolly be dead cause I'm friggin old!!!) :D

I just wish I could get through the inability to think clearly and consistently. Like SFGE says, one day it will come....right now we're on day 66 and being honest I gotta tell you I'm not feelin' it.

Quit on brother....ain't no turnin' back.

CavMan, what do you mean? All Marines have pretty faces... That's a given, just ask Nolaq, Pinched, Bulldog or any of the Marines here! Ha!

Seriously, you guys got this. Be patient and all will be revealed in time. If freedom from the nic bitch was easy to obtain we wouldn't have a addiction problem. The best part of my quit has been the journey and the discovery of myself along that journey. It does take some time but the freedom is awesome. Don't ever give up or miss out on that because it is worth going through the craves, the dreams and panic attacks. That will all go away in time.

[CavMan83]

Last night I had a dip dream within a dip dream that I caved in another dip dream. Don't know if that means something, but it was strange none the less. No more cravings throughout the day, I have gone through some stressful times over the last couple of months and never once even considered using dip. I have KTC to thank. The hardliners can kind of get on my nerves every now and again, but they do serve a purpose in the community. You obviously don't want to be the object of their disdain, and you don't want to cave when there are people so dedicated in your community. So hardliners, I may post my irritation with your straightedge ways; but you guys do serve a valuable purpose. Keeping the rest of us (who don't get excited very easily) quit.

Dave,

You can call me a hardliner, or asshole, or whole ass....I really don't much care as long as you're quit. You're too young, and as you said in a post somewhere much earlier in this introduction, you have too pretty a face for cancer to tear it up (although given you're a Marine, I have to doubt that somewhat).

I know you're pissed about the missed post. Sorry that happened, but take and use it to your advantage. Just like Guadalcanal....let that be your Never Again point.

I'm with you brother....we're gonna hit 100 together, then 200, then the next fifty or sixty hundreds after that...(by then I'll prolly be dead cause I'm friggin old!!!) :D

I just wish I could get through the inability to think clearly and consistently. Like SFGE says, one day it will come....right now we're on day 66 and being honest I gotta tell you I'm not feelin' it.

Quit on brother....ain't no turnin' back.

[DaveKnight]

Last night I had a dip dream within a dip dream that I caved in another dip dream. Don't know if that means something, but it was strange none the less. No more cravings throughout the day, I have gone through some stressful times over the last couple of months and never once even considered using dip. I have KTC to thank. The hardliners can kind of get on my nerves every now and again, but they do serve a purpose in the community. You obviously don't want to be the object of their disdain, and you don't want to cave when there are people so dedicated in your community. So hardliners, I may post my irritation with your straightedge ways; but you guys do serve a valuable purpose. Keeping the rest of us (who don't get excited very easily) quit.

[DaveKnight]

I'd like to think those of you who reached out this weekend when I did not post roll. I have two phones, the one with my KTC number was not on me (dumb phone). I was busy with friends and family all day Saturday and forgot to post roll (I thought of it early in the morning, but got busy helping the wife get breakfast ready). Life is starting to become more normal without dip. All weekend, I was never in danger of caving. However, I still need this site and the support system. The last thing I want is for a situation to sneak up that causes me to crave nicotine to the point of caving. Hope you guys can forgive my mistake, the intent was there; but the follow through was flawed.

On another note, I had a Doc Appt on Friday. For the very first time in my adult life I have been able to say that I no longer use tobacco. I had some blood labs done which all came back clear. Apparently I am in good health (now if I could only get rid of these 10lbs I put on at the beginning of my quit.

[Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat]

I am def. sensing longer periouds between the funky fog days. So glad I am off tobacco now. There's no turning back. Life's too good now.

You have not seen anything yet brother. It gets so much better. Be patient and take one day at a time like everyone says! BOOM, you got this!

[DaveKnight]

I am def. sensing longer periouds between the funky fog days. So glad I am off tobacco now. There's no turning back. Life's too good now.

[DaveKnight]

Hey DK. I don't want to sound like I am reducing your feelings of concern with all that is going on with your quit right now, but really the important thing is that you are posting roll and that you realize you need help. Others could benefit from your positive slant on your need to be quit. No BS here that I can see.... Something I did hear somewhere here early on in my quit was that if I focused on the fog that it could be worse. I'll try to find that advice and I will send it to you if I do. I quit with you today and everyday!!!

Doc,

That actually makes a lot of sense. The more you focus on an issue the more 'dominant' it becomes in your daily life.

[Doc2quit4good]

Hey DK. I don't want to sound like I am reducing your feelings of concern with all that is going on with your quit right now, but really the important thing is that you are posting roll and that you realize you need help. Others could benefit from your positive slant on your need to be quit. No BS here that I can see.... Something I did hear somewhere here early on in my quit was that if I focused on the fog that it could be worse. I'll try to find that advice and I will send it to you if I do. I quit with you today and everyday!!!

[Thumblewort]

I hit a stretch between 55 and 75 that was amazing, and everything was right with the world. I've had a couple of funks since, but the freedom periods are getting longer and more often. Best thing ever.

[DaveKnight]

Still muddling through the focus thing. Over that halfway-HOF hump. There is no turning back now. Time has been invested, commitments have been made, and I don't have to worry about losing my face. Life is good.

[Derk40]

Thanks again for all of the great advice. I have been more irritable and on edge since I quit. That may have had a lot to do with it. I have always been sort of a sarcastic, insensitive ass; probably amplified by being a grumpy, sarcastic, insensitive ass.

It is gonna suck until it doesn't and then it won't.

The above statement about sums up quitting. I was told that early on and it sort of blew right over my head cuz I was in a battle and it was hard to think. You need to fight like hell and trust us ... there is a payoff. Trust it cuz we who have run your path already can attest to it.

There is no overnight fix here... You can't poison yourself for years and expect to snap your fingers and be fixed. Time is what it takes.

You will be irritable, pissed off half the time, you will zone out, you will lose track of days... you will go thru all sorts of issues. You need to fight thru all of it and quit ODAAT. In time it gets better, but for now... Embrace the suck and fight.

Quit with you all day.

[DaveKnight]

Thanks again for all of the great advice. I have been more irritable and on edge since I quit. That may have had a lot to do with it. I have always been sort of a sarcastic, insensitive ass; probably amplified by being a grumpy, sarcastic, insensitive ass.