I can hardly believe that tomorrow I will be chew free for a week! WOW! I am a 37 year old Kodiak user that is done with that shit. I live in Minnesota.
I used Kodiak for damn close to twenty years. I started while playing baseball in high school and pretty much kept it going.
I was going to quit for sure when I met the girl I was going to marry. Well I met that girl back in 1995, didn't quit. We married in 98, didn't quit.
I was going to quit when my 1st child was born; that was in 02, you guessed it didn't quit. Our second was born in 04, still didn't quit.
My wife is a DENTIST! I don't know why or how she has tolerated it for this long, but she has. I met her with a chew in my mouth!! I somehow hid it long enough for her to deal with that flaw and marry me.
I kept giving myself different dates and they would come and go and I wasn't stopping. I am sick and tired of setting a bad example for my son, not to mention how my wife feels.
I work in television sports production doing Vikings, Wild, Gophers, Timberwovles and Twins games. I was determined to go into this basball season chew free. That didn't happen of course. Usually I look ahead and think well maybe before the Vikings, Wolves or Wild start up. That has always lead me right back to baseball season again.
Last thursday the Twins played a day game and on the way home I stopped to grab tin. $6.59 for that tin. I usually buy a half a log at the reservation smoke shop and save a few dollars. Either way that SHIT is easily going to hit 7 dollars a tin in no time. I was using a tin a day so I was looking at spending $2500+ in a year for that. What an investment that is. I sat in my car absolutely disgusted with myself. I said this WILL BE the LAST damn time I buy that shit in my life. I put that receipt in my wallet. FUCK YOU GUYS you got the last $6.59 your getting from me.
I told myself that I would pay my daughter $5 for every day she was alive and I chewed. I owe her college fund over 10 grand!! I owe my sons college fund over 7 grand. They WILL get that money.
I was honestly trying to think of ONE good thing chewing has done to enhance my life. I can't think of ONE. How the hell can I have spent 20 years of my life, thousands and thousands of dollars on something that has not done one damn thing to improve my life??
Maybe the "haze" that stare the quitter's in the face, is actually reality kicking us in the ass saying "what the fuck took ya so long ya dumbass"?