Ok, now am in Day 4 just got home from work and actually feel about 1/2 normal... I now see how foolish I've been in the last 20+ years (probably closer to 22) of nicotine use.... I can't believe I spent that much time and effort to continue my addiction and have seen firsthand from others on this site who have caved...
I plan on posting roll call every day, going to chat, and want to keep a journal here on my progress... This is really the first day I've really been able to type away, since I felt so shitty the first 3... Have read up on some of the things to expect and other vets have been offering advice and support along the way... That shit means the world to me, especially, coming from someone who has done the same stupid shit for X number of years with nic....
I just want to say that the first 3 days reminded me of that movie "Groundhog Day" where B. Murray wakes up to the same freaking day over and over again... It was actually worse in that it felt like my brain was telling me "feed me, feed me" over and over again every minute or two... I have never felt so fucking uncomfortable in my own skin and I will never forget that... That is my motivation to never cave, that was utter hell relived over and over again just like that damn movie...
I just need to really focus on trying to get more sleep and I will be ok... I have reached out to my July quitters group and many vets have been cheering me on... I will try to be a little more active as my body starts to heal..
I like being a quitter+1 everyday I wake up and start my day... I will not give in to nic EVER again, it can kiss my ass!!