Im an addict, Im an addict, I am an addict. When you finally get the courage to admit, "your an addict" you know you are ready for change. IÂ’m not doing this for my girlfriend, the newborn baby on the way, my parents, my friends, for my girlfriend to want to kiss me again scared she will try and i will have dip in my mouth 'bang head' NOOOOOOO WAY...i am doing this for me. and only me. The other stuff is an added bonus. I have quit before I got the 7 months before felt great and then caved. Now i sit here wondering why i caved. I dont know honestly? Oh i know because I am a freaking addict! I didnt keep a good support system before and now I have one. My g/f fully supports me and realizes i am an addict, I have found friends already on here that are making me accountable. I am here to be accountable by every single person here on this site. To never let me fall, to always have my back and maybe one day I can change one personÂ’s decision on quitting and help them like I have been helped already by the people here.
So here is my vow and promise to you. I will be strong, I will not blame anyone for my addiction but myself. I will own it like a man and I will definitely not be ever using nicotine again. It may seem like at this point I am 4 days in but deep down I know this goes forever and thatÂ’s how I have to look at this.
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Eric