Scared as hell

[30yraddict]

I am not sure what is going on if it is the nic bitch screwing with me or what. I just broke down and started crying in the shower. It's been over a week and the sore in my mouth is still there. The voice in my head is telling me it is cancer. It can't be cancer I need to be here for my wife and kids. I am freaking out. How am I going to make it through tomorrow? Damit I feel like a big pussy. Cancer is some scary shit!

panic attacks are scary shit... and pretty common- especially when dealing with something as stressful as quitting dip. It may take more than one week for the sores to go away. Stop by the doctor to have it checked out- this will get you some peace of mind. Tell him/her about what's going on mentally... they might give you a script to help you cope while you get past the worst of this. At any rate- both the sores and the panic attacks will most likely pass quickly.

[Kjsylva82]

I am not sure what is going on if it is the nic bitch screwing with me or what. I just broke down and started crying in the shower. It's been over a week and the sore in my mouth is still there. The voice in my head is telling me it is cancer. It can't be cancer I need to be here for my wife and kids. I am freaking out. How am I going to make it through tomorrow? Damit I feel like a big pussy. Cancer is some scary shit!

[Kjsylva82]

Wait what??? Cars can run without dip? No shit?  Who'd  a thunk it. I suppose you'll try to tell me that I could mow the lawn without one too.

One day at  time  grasshoppa, you got this

Yeah who would of thunk it! I can do this one day at a time!

'Sing and Drink'

I have a new quit buddy! You have it figured out already. Only quit today. Never, ever break your promise you make today. Screw tomorrow until it is tomorrow.

In order to stay undefeated with the nic bitch, you can never look past the match you have today. If you don't win today, you will not be undefeated tomorrow. So focus and 100% of your quit is on today. Not on the future.

That philosophy has me still undefeated with the nic bitch.

Yeah you hear that tobacco industry, the score in 97 to 0 today. You're my bitch now! 'Finger' Nicotine, better to run and hide from me. You show up in my face and I will kill you! You temp any of my friends and I will cheer as they slice your throat and you bleed out. No Mercy for you. Run and hide, it would be better for you if you just die.

Heck yeah you taught me bro. Consider me your student happy to quit with you.

Nice work on the commute. Today was my first day getting home from the gym and not dropping one in the lip as I checked my email. Instead i got on the Live Chat link to help me pass through the trigger. Day 2 for me.. Let's do this.

Hell yeah one day at a time we can do this! Stay strong brother!

[p23]

Wait what??? Cars can run without dip? No shit?  Who'd  a thunk it. I suppose you'll try to tell me that I could mow the lawn without one too.

One day at  time  grasshoppa, you got this

Yeah who would of thunk it! I can do this one day at a time!

'Sing and Drink'

I have a new quit buddy! You have it figured out already. Only quit today. Never, ever break your promise you make today. Screw tomorrow until it is tomorrow.

In order to stay undefeated with the nic bitch, you can never look past the match you have today. If you don't win today, you will not be undefeated tomorrow. So focus and 100% of your quit is on today. Not on the future.

That philosophy has me still undefeated with the nic bitch.

Yeah you hear that tobacco industry, the score in 97 to 0 today. You're my bitch now! 'Finger' Nicotine, better to run and hide from me. You show up in my face and I will kill you! You temp any of my friends and I will cheer as they slice your throat and you bleed out. No Mercy for you. Run and hide, it would be better for you if you just die.

Heck yeah you taught me bro. Consider me your student happy to quit with you.

Nice work on the commute. Today was my first day getting home from the gym and not dropping one in the lip as I checked my email. Instead i got on the Live Chat link to help me pass through the trigger. Day 2 for me.. Let's do this.

[Kjsylva82]

Wait what??? Cars can run without dip? No shit?  Who'd  a thunk it. I suppose you'll try to tell me that I could mow the lawn without one too.

One day at  time  grasshoppa, you got this

Yeah who would of thunk it! I can do this one day at a time!

'Sing and Drink'

I have a new quit buddy! You have it figured out already. Only quit today. Never, ever break your promise you make today. Screw tomorrow until it is tomorrow.

In order to stay undefeated with the nic bitch, you can never look past the match you have today. If you don't win today, you will not be undefeated tomorrow. So focus and 100% of your quit is on today. Not on the future.

That philosophy has me still undefeated with the nic bitch.

Yeah you hear that tobacco industry, the score in 97 to 0 today. You're my bitch now! 'Finger' Nicotine, better to run and hide from me. You show up in my face and I will kill you! You temp any of my friends and I will cheer as they slice your throat and you bleed out. No Mercy for you. Run and hide, it would be better for you if you just die.

Heck yeah you taught me bro. Consider me your student happy to quit with you.

[Mthomas3824]

Wait what??? Cars can run without dip? No shit?  Who'd  a thunk it. I suppose you'll try to tell me that I could mow the lawn without one too.

One day at  time  grasshoppa, you got this

Yeah who would of thunk it! I can do this one day at a time!

'Sing and Drink'

I have a new quit buddy! You have it figured out already. Only quit today. Never, ever break your promise you make today. Screw tomorrow until it is tomorrow.

In order to stay undefeated with the nic bitch, you can never look past the match you have today. If you don't win today, you will not be undefeated tomorrow. So focus and 100% of your quit is on today. Not on the future.

That philosophy has me still undefeated with the nic bitch.

Yeah you hear that tobacco industry, the score in 97 to 0 today. You're my bitch now! 'Finger' Nicotine, better to run and hide from me. You show up in my face and I will kill you! You temp any of my friends and I will cheer as they slice your throat and you bleed out. No Mercy for you. Run and hide, it would be better for you if you just die.

[Kjsylva82]

Wait what??? Cars can run without dip? No shit? Who'd a thunk it. I suppose you'll try to tell me that I could mow the lawn without one too.

One day at time grasshoppa, you got this

Yeah who would of thunk it! I can do this one day at a time!

[Skoal Monster]

Wait what??? Cars can run without dip? No shit? Who'd a thunk it. I suppose you'll try to tell me that I could mow the lawn without one too.

One day at time grasshoppa, you got this

[Kjsylva82]

Day 3 first day commuting without a dip in my mouth. It was not that bad I used alot of seeds. I hope that hooch stuff is waiting for me when I get home cuz the seeds are hurting my mouth more than the chew was but a least I am not killing myself.

[Mthomas3824]

Keith.. Hey man.. This is Gooch.. SO glad you are here Bro.. I am 44 I have been hooked on dip/nic for a very long time.  I have had 5 gum graft (maybe more?) surgeries all due to dipping.  Sometimes I would dip in my top lip hours after the surgery because I had stitches in my lower gum.  That is insanity..  I too have had countless sores and lesions in my mouth over the years.  One time my dentists was going to take a bio and send it away to test it to see if it was cancer.. (none turned out to be cancer yet) still I kept on dipping.. day in day out.. sometimes i would quit for a week or two.. a day or two.. sometimes an hour or two.. but I always started back.  I have not dipped for 7 days now thanks to this site and my new friends here.  I feel better and more confident about my quit than ever before.  Stick around.. Post roll.. and say this to your self.. I AM QUIT!  More than likely you dont have cancer its just a sore.. more than likely you will if you dont quit!

Wow your messed up ! Lol, hey man I have never had to go through that but I am heading there if I don't quit. I am on day 2 staying strong screw the nic bitch. I keep hearing more than likely it ain't cancer but there still is a chance I am praying everyday that I don't . I don't care how bad the cravings are I am done . I can do this one day at a time with God and brothers like you. Stay strong!

Great dialog and good for me to read. The days quit add up. Keep a journal of your quit. We don't quit past today but I don't think it hurts to look back and celebrate, remember, and take in the victories of being quit.

You both have overcome more in a few days than others who only wish to quit. Battling the addiction and winning that battle will sure up your quit, your word, your integrity, your freedom.

You may have said no and abstained from the evil weed but your victory and reward is great!

You are proof that if you have the desire to quit, you will have the capability and capacity to win the war.

The big mind trick...just one will devastate you. You will hate that you caved, you will be back in bondage and you will come to a point where you want to quit again.

Your are quit and strong in it!

Thanks again for sharing, it strengthens us all in our matches. So pleased with my undefeated record. 96 to 0. I got scoreboard on the nic bitch!

[Kjsylva82]

Keith.. Hey man.. This is Gooch.. SO glad you are here Bro.. I am 44 I have been hooked on dip/nic for a very long time. I have had 5 gum graft (maybe more?) surgeries all due to dipping. Sometimes I would dip in my top lip hours after the surgery because I had stitches in my lower gum. That is insanity.. I too have had countless sores and lesions in my mouth over the years. One time my dentists was going to take a bio and send it away to test it to see if it was cancer.. (none turned out to be cancer yet) still I kept on dipping.. day in day out.. sometimes i would quit for a week or two.. a day or two.. sometimes an hour or two.. but I always started back. I have not dipped for 7 days now thanks to this site and my new friends here. I feel better and more confident about my quit than ever before. Stick around.. Post roll.. and say this to your self.. I AM QUIT! More than likely you dont have cancer its just a sore.. more than likely you will if you dont quit!

Wow your messed up ! Lol, hey man I have never had to go through that but I am heading there if I don't quit. I am on day 2 staying strong screw the nic bitch. I keep hearing more than likely it ain't cancer but there still is a chance I am praying everyday that I don't . I don't care how bad the cravings are I am done . I can do this one day at a time with God and brothers like you. Stay strong!

[Smokeyg]

You may not be able to quit forever (or even this entire week), but you sure as hell can fight through a single withdrawal. One at a time.

We're all on quit day # today.

[mikegooch]

Keith.. Hey man.. This is Gooch.. SO glad you are here Bro.. I am 44 I have been hooked on dip/nic for a very long time. I have had 5 gum graft (maybe more?) surgeries all due to dipping. Sometimes I would dip in my top lip hours after the surgery because I had stitches in my lower gum. That is insanity.. I too have had countless sores and lesions in my mouth over the years. One time my dentists was going to take a bio and send it away to test it to see if it was cancer.. (none turned out to be cancer yet) still I kept on dipping.. day in day out.. sometimes i would quit for a week or two.. a day or two.. sometimes an hour or two.. but I always started back. I have not dipped for 7 days now thanks to this site and my new friends here. I feel better and more confident about my quit than ever before. Stick around.. Post roll.. and say this to your self.. I AM QUIT! More than likely you dont have cancer its just a sore.. more than likely you will if you dont quit!

[MSymonds]

Stay quit - do not cave - unless you are a wus.

Read everything you can in hear - especially the hof speeches.
Stay quit no matter what - do no let the bitch win!!!

Print the spouse support page. My wife found it very helpful and she has been getting on here and reading some of the materials.

[swimmerdave]

Stay quit - do not cave - unless you are a wus.

Read everything you can in hear - especially the hof speeches.
Stay quit no matter what - do no let the bitch win!!!