Welcome mc-
You can do this and the people here can help.
First, go read everything you can in the intro, learn to post roll. Post roll every day.
Secondly, post roll every day.
Third, reach out to your brothers and sisters here. We all know your story, because its ours as well. Rant, whine, bitch here with us, not on the innocents in your life.
On this site we quit 1 day at a time. Do not think about "forever", just be nic free today. That is your pledge by posting roll.
I quit with you today mc