What the hell?!?

[Buckeye64]

Biscuit,

You have the right attitude. I know you're going to beat that bitch this time. Take your life back. Take your money back. Take your wife's respect back....

You motivate me. PM me if you need to chat motivator.

[Runwhatucan]

Biscuit,

On about day 5 the nic rage was working me pretty hard. Use that to your advantage...you really do have the ideal outlet to vent the aggression. Be strong in your quit and be an example to your teammates.

Just dont put your teammates out for the season, lol.

You can do this, Brother!

[brianl]

I cannot do herbal chew/snuff because it reminds me too much of chew. Instead I am popping sunflower seeds and chew gum all day long. Also, I haven't stopped eating in a week. But I'd rather gain 10 pounds now, which I can loose in another months, than possibly die from cancer in a few years.


I was the same way SB. The fake was probably the biggest trigger for me. The "ritual" of tapping the can, slicing it open with my thumbnail, keeping a can in my pocket...etc.
Seeds and gum got me through it..... A shitload of seeds and gum. I ate like a pig, gained about 15 pounds but that comes off.

Stay strong, you can do it. We are proof of that.

PM me if I can be of any assistance to you.
Brian

[Bean]

Bizquit,

Crick is exactly right...have fun with it. Embrace the suck AND your new freedom. Put a hurtin' on the nic bitch!!!

Good luck in hockey this season.

[Crick]

Hey guys,

thanks for all the support. Posted on roll call this morning before I left to go back to school.

4 hour drive. Usually I have a lip in. Weird feeling not to. My body kept telling me the whole ride that something is not right. Still can't believe how much control that shit has over my life.

Back home it was easier to stay quit, now comes the hard part. No matter where I am here, I get cravings. There are triggers all around me.

When hockey starts again tomorrow I will probably have the hardest time to stay quit.
Half of my team chews and every time I would get off the ice, the first thing I did was open that shit can. Thanks to this site however, I know I can manage it and not cave in.

One day at a time.

Seb

Congrats on the quit. I think you could have fun with this quit. Why look at hockey as a hard place to quit? Turn that around. Sounds like a good place to get rid of some of that agression. When you see one of your team mates put a fatty in, don't think about how much you would like one. Instead, think about your freedom from a controlling chemical. Think about how f'n nasty that mouth-turd looks in their lips. Smell their breath. Smells like a litter box.

The freedom from the nic bitch is worth the struggle. Keep slamming that bitch down. You've got the attitude to make it.

[Seabiscuit]

Hey guys,

thanks for all the support. Posted on roll call this morning before I left to go back to school.

4 hour drive. Usually I have a lip in. Weird feeling not to. My body kept telling me the whole ride that something is not right. Still can't believe how much control that shit has over my life.

Back home it was easier to stay quit, now comes the hard part. No matter where I am here, I get cravings. There are triggers all around me.

When hockey starts again tomorrow I will probably have the hardest time to stay quit.
Half of my team chews and every time I would get off the ice, the first thing I did was open that shit can. Thanks to this site however, I know I can manage it and not cave in.

One day at a time.

Seb

[CoryB]

SB,

Reading your description of the addiction and all it has done to get in the way of your life is almost 100% identical to how it affected my life. Reading it gives me flashbacks. I quit when I was 23 years old. That was 1799 days ago. Claim your freedom. This forum is the key to my success. Cling to this site and make yourself accountable. One day at a time.

[Bean]

I didn't even find this site until Day 9, so Congrats!!! Post roll, and stay quit. I rarely see posts about bathroom issues, but I had them. I added Citrucell to my breakfast. That and strong coffee...no worries.

Glad to have you on board. You can do this, brother!!!

[ncgolfer]

Biscuit,

When you wake up, go to March and post roll with the rest of your March brothers and sister. You have proven that you can get through the fog a few times, but you've never made yourself accountable to anyone. Posting roll is a sacred promise that you are quit for just that one day. For me it is enough of a deterrent that as long as I post roll I'm out for that day, and I will worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. We need your support over in the March group, and you could use ours. Once you've posted, get your wife on this site and let her snoop around, she'll probably become much more supportive knowing that you are taking this seriously by posting roll each day.

[teaka]

have you tried posting roll? you seem to have the right attitude and you know what your up against.......now post roll.......I have no doubt (given what you wrote) that you can quit....for good.

[Seabiscuit]

Hi everyone.

I quit chewing on Sunday the 19th of this month.

I have been chewing since I was 15 years old and tried to quit many times before. I am 24 years old now and sick and tired of this fing addiction. My first time I made it for 20 days and my second try lasted almost 60 days. However, the nicotine bitch got me both times. I only needed one, only one. I can quit any time now, I have total control over myself. BS!!!!

Every time I started again I chewed more than before. I was up to over a can a day. Some days I didn't eat breakfast only to have a chew before work or school. On other I got up early so I could squeeze in another dip before I had to leave. I stood up all night chewing, not going out with friends because I couldn't really chew there. Had a chew rather than to go to class or to work out. Well I am going to work out after I had my chew. Oh no, if I go work out now, I can't have a chew for at least another 2 hours. That can't happen, so there goes another lip.

I am sick of spending 20 dollars every two days. I am sick of spitting all day. I am sick of worrying about having fing cancer every time I have a sore in my mouth. I am sick of my mouth hurting and sick of being scared. I am sick of putting chew in front of every thing else.

It is time that I will take my life back. This time for sure.

I tried to do it on my own after reading everything on this site, but I almost caved about an hour ago. I wanted to chew so badly I almost ripped my eyes out.
But, instead of going to the store and buying some chew, I went back to this site and looked at all the cancer pictures and read some of the cancer stories again. I came to my senses again and told myself that this shit is not worth dying for. Never will I ever pay for something that can fing kill me.

I cannot do herbal chew/snuff because it reminds me too much of chew. Instead I am popping sunflower seeds and chew gum all day long. Also, I haven't stopped eating in a week. But I'd rather gain 10 pounds now, which I can loose in another months, than possibly die from cancer in a few years.

I also told my wife I was going to quit and she doesn't believe me. Her support is not the strongest since I broke that promise before. She is also fed up with my irritability. So I thought I would come here and scream at you guys rather than at my wife. This venting thing here is helping me out really well right now.

I can't sleep, I can't go to the bathroom like I used to, I am pissed off at the world, the cravings fog my brain and my head is throbbing so much I feel it could explode any minute, and my whole mouth hurts more than before I quit, but when I think about it, it is all worth it. At least I am not dying of f***ing cancer.

So thank you so much for this site. I will try to go to bed now and hopefully get some sleep today.

I am looking forward to finally getting this chapter of my life behind me.

8 days and counting


SEB