This is it, I'm too motivated to get my life back

[wmcatty]

Welcome aboard Mark. Your reasons and the rationale for quitting are sound, however, I caution you not to make bold statements so early in your quit like "I am here for the duration and won't ever be on any "Cave" list." You see, around here we all live by the motto One Day At A Time. It is a simple way of life. Make today count for you. Protect your quit. Post roll. When the sun rises tomorrow, do it all over again. We dont worry about tomorrow until tomorrow gets here. Enough said on that point.
Now, why do we post roll? Because we are all men of honor and making a promise to not use nicotine in any form that day and telling our brothers and sisters about it is our way of communicating that promise to the world...and men of honor keep their promises. Keep your promise and you will never have to worry about being on that Cave list you are already talking about. Right?
Now, get involved in your quit but dont forget to read all you can on this site. You will find that being in the fog will make you go through some physiological changes like you are already experiencing, but will also alter your usually sunny disposition. DO NOT TAKE OUT YOUR ANGER OR FRUSTRATIONS ON YOUR FAMILY! That is what we are here for. When the wife or kids happen to be in the way of your outburts, go outside and call one of us that have sent you a telephone number. We have been where you are at and can talk you down off the ledge. Agreed? Good! Now, look up at your Inbox(1) and open it up. It is a message from me with my telephone number. I will quit with you today Mark. Wayne

[St Patrick]

I have put it in my mind that Nic is POISON and if I touch it again, I will die.

That right there is golden StPatrick. Your eyes are opened to the absolute evil that nicotine is, she is the devil whispering sweet nothings to us, our kids, our parents. And all she wants is to kill us, but first makes us her bitch, doing anything she asks, going to any length to have her, then make us endure a slow terrible death. We planned our schedules around nicotine, we lied to ourselves and our families, we were absolutely sold out. Not anymore. I'm damn proud to be quit with you today and look forward to choosing FREEDOM with you tomorrow. Way to kill it. STOMP.

DennyX

Thanks Yoda. You are first to reach out to me, so you are dubbed "my master of quit". Things have been better over the last 36 hours. Crazy crave this morning after the shower. But, again, just painful. Didn't even cross my mind a dip would make it better.
Thanks again for being a mentor

[DennyX]

I have put it in my mind that Nic is POISON and if I touch it again, I will die.

That right there is golden StPatrick. Your eyes are opened to the absolute evil that nicotine is, she is the devil whispering sweet nothings to us, our kids, our parents. And all she wants is to kill us, but first makes us her bitch, doing anything she asks, going to any length to have her, then make us endure a slow terrible death. We planned our schedules around nicotine, we lied to ourselves and our families, we were absolutely sold out. Not anymore. I'm damn proud to be quit with you today and look forward to choosing FREEDOM with you tomorrow. Way to kill it. STOMP.

DennyX

[St Patrick]

Welcome St. Patrick.

Where do you like to ski? I'm a little partial to Utah. Embrace the suck.

I hope it hurts bad enough to never want to repeat withdrawals again. My only advice right now is don't think about 10,000 days quit.

Addicts with the mindset that they are quit for good can't process and the battle becomes impossible.

Quit today. Your mind can fight and quit today. Tomorrow has no meaning until you win your fight with little nicky today. Log your win, go to be, wake and its another, "today" Repeat.

I guarantee you this.

Post roll every day you wake and promise to be quit today.
Be a man of your word with your fellow quitters and keep your promise today
Repeat.

I agree with you completely. I won't ever think more than a day ahead. Thx for the kind words.
Love alta and snowbird, canyons is nice as well. But skied everywhere in North America and have to say vail is by far my favorite. The alone skiing you get on the back bowls is unmatched. Love that place

You do this every damn day...you will not fail, you will not cave.

Welcome to crazy quiltville. We are here to help you get your freedom back.

I agree with you completely. I won't ever think more than a day ahead. Thx for the kind words.
Love alta and snowbird, canyons is nice as well. But skied everywhere in North America and have to say vail is by far my favorite. The alone skiing you get on the back bowls is unmatched. Love that place

[ZillahCowboy]

Go St. Pat...Go! You've got a great quit going...and I like the fact that you've been posting roll daily (even before you joined this dialogue!). Hang in there, we are all struggling one day at a time and are here to support each other. PM me if you need to shout out or have any questions. ZC.

[jzzyzag01]

Glad to have you here Patty. Your quit sounds strong and I'm pumped for you that you're ready to grab your life back. Inevitably you'll run into those times where you'll tell yourself "one can't hurt, it'll just take the edge off." Remember one is too many and 1000 is never enough. It's just the nic trying to wiggle back in.

Take things one day at a time (ODAAT). Post your roll for the day, keep that promise to yourself, your family, and your fellow quitters. Go to bed, wake up and repeat. Soon enough you'll start piling up the days.

You don't ever want to go back through the "suck" again so stay quit. Own your quit. Kill the can before it kills you and promise yourself that you won't ever let a selfish dirty habit force you to tell your kids that it was more important than spending time with them.

Proud to quit with you today and if you need anything, feel free to PM. I have a pretty good feeling you're gonna be around here for awhile.

jz

[Mthomas3824]

Welcome St. Patrick.

Where do you like to ski? I'm a little partial to Utah. Embrace the suck.

I hope it hurts bad enough to never want to repeat withdrawals again. My only advice right now is don't think about 10,000 days quit.

Addicts with the mindset that they are quit for good can't process and the battle becomes impossible.

Quit today. Your mind can fight and quit today. Tomorrow has no meaning until you win your fight with little nicky today. Log your win, go to be, wake and its another, "today" Repeat.

I guarantee you this.

Post roll every day you wake and promise to be quit today.
Be a man of your word with your fellow quitters and keep your promise today
Repeat.

You do this every damn day...you will not fail, you will not cave.

Welcome to crazy quiltville. We are here to help you get your freedom back.

[St Patrick]

Hello folks,
My name is Mark, call sign, St. Patrick. I am 45 and live in Marietta,GA just north west of Atlanta. I have a beautiful wife and 4 kids. Two twin 10 year old boys that are both autistic and non verbal and 2 girls that are 6 and 4. Born and raised in Alabama, mostly Birmingham. Moved to Penascola for 3 years and moved up here in 2006 when the boys were dianosed with autism.
Started dipping some in high school when I was 16 or so. Really started dipping heavy when I went to college and everyone in my fraternity dipped. Since that time I have pretty much dipped copenhagen and their new wintergreen when it came out a few years back.
I have quit a few times before. The longest lasting about a year. But never went cold turkey. My first time and man is God hitting me hard for not doing this sooner. Body is all shaky, head killing me, moody, etc. Pretty much all the bad shit they say you may go through, I got it. But, that doesn't mean I can't handle this. I have put it in my mind that Nic is POISON and if I touch it again, I will die. I have yet to feel like I want a dip and that will make everything feel better. Exact opposite, I am knowing that it will just be worse and what I am going through will be two to three fold worse if I take one more shot of nicotine in any form.
I am done. I am tired of being a slave to something that is so physically repulsive to 98% of the world (except for the addicts still out there). Nicotine has made me numb to so many feelings you should enjoy in life. Like Jimmy V said, you should be able to laugh every day and cry every day. With Nicotine, I numbed every feeling that I had and pretty much was just aloof about anything and everything. I am tired of hiding from my wife and kids that I did this nasty shit. I never want to answer my 4 year old again when she asks "daddy, why did you spit out the window??". I want to be there for my boys. They will need me to be there for them and not 6 feet under because I wasn't strong enough to beat one damn drug.
Guess I have gone on long enough. I am here for the duration and won't ever be on any "Cave" list. Please PM me if you see we have some things in common or just want to shoot the shit.
Take care and ready to roll to 10,000 days.
Mark

PS. Do enjoy Snow Skiing, Diving, All sports (gator and Atl pro fan), Golf, Hunting and saltwater and freshwater fishing.