Now or Never

[seagems]

You've got this fellas, just take it one day at a time. It only gets easier. Your future self will thank you. Your wives and kids and grandkids will thank you.

[Wt57]

20 years of kodiak with no break ended twelve days ago for me.  A secret can every 2-3 days is over.  I've got a wife, four daughters, and basically everything I could have ever reasonably wanted in life except that I couldn't kick the kodiak habit.  This secret habit has jeopardized my life and really lowered my self esteem, I think.  It has been driving me nuts for a dozen years and I've finally had enough.  I'm turning 40 in a couple of days and I promised myself that I will not be chewing into my 40's.  I made this type of promise to myself on many prior occasions but never really gave quitting a real try.  I think I feel now that starting another decade chewing will mean that chew is definitely the thing that will shorten my life.  I don't want to have a short life, I want to have a long life so I can be around for my wife, kids, and their kids.  I am also really tired of the secret life and of constantly covering my tracks.  I am sure you can all relate, but 12 days ago I could not imagine work, chores, driving, t.v., or taking a crap without having a chew in.  Now that I am 12 days in, I am surprised at how fast your body can re-adjust.  Not to say that it is easy at all, but I thought the physical urges would be worse.  They haven't been so bad and the fogginess didn't last long (it helped that my first 8 days were on vacation).  The triggers are hard but I am hopeful that after doing my work, chores, driving, crapping or watching t.v. a few times without the bear, that even the pull of those triggers will lessen.  I need to do this so I will be around longer for my family and so that I can be a better husband and father.  (I used to actually think that chewing made me a better husband because I would encourage my wife to go out with her friends or take a break from the kids just so that I could secretly chew - all of her friends think I am such a great guy for giving her those breaks, but the truth is that I just wanted to sneak chews.  Talk about a fraud).  Without chew so far, every day I am feeling better about myself as a person and every day I feel the urges a little less.  I hope this trend continues and I appreciate the support of this site.  I know this is all or nothing.

I just re-read my first KTC post (above). 384 days into it and I know I couldn't have done it without the support of this site. I am damn proud of this accomplishment. For all of you newbies, just take it a day at a time, but don't give up. You've made a great decision to quit.

:rolleyes:

'archer'

cool post.

yes, cool post.. I read the whole thing before i new it was old. well done..I told myself the same thing quit by 40. well here I am 44, but It got 19 freekin days now and feelin good...well better than yesterday.. lol

Thank you I needed that tonight!

[kana]

20 years of kodiak with no break ended twelve days ago for me.  A secret can every 2-3 days is over.  I've got a wife, four daughters, and basically everything I could have ever reasonably wanted in life except that I couldn't kick the kodiak habit.  This secret habit has jeopardized my life and really lowered my self esteem, I think.  It has been driving me nuts for a dozen years and I've finally had enough.  I'm turning 40 in a couple of days and I promised myself that I will not be chewing into my 40's.  I made this type of promise to myself on many prior occasions but never really gave quitting a real try.  I think I feel now that starting another decade chewing will mean that chew is definitely the thing that will shorten my life.  I don't want to have a short life, I want to have a long life so I can be around for my wife, kids, and their kids.  I am also really tired of the secret life and of constantly covering my tracks.  I am sure you can all relate, but 12 days ago I could not imagine work, chores, driving, t.v., or taking a crap without having a chew in.  Now that I am 12 days in, I am surprised at how fast your body can re-adjust.  Not to say that it is easy at all, but I thought the physical urges would be worse.  They haven't been so bad and the fogginess didn't last long (it helped that my first 8 days were on vacation).  The triggers are hard but I am hopeful that after doing my work, chores, driving, crapping or watching t.v. a few times without the bear, that even the pull of those triggers will lessen.  I need to do this so I will be around longer for my family and so that I can be a better husband and father.  (I used to actually think that chewing made me a better husband because I would encourage my wife to go out with her friends or take a break from the kids just so that I could secretly chew - all of her friends think I am such a great guy for giving her those breaks, but the truth is that I just wanted to sneak chews.  Talk about a fraud).  Without chew so far, every day I am feeling better about myself as a person and every day I feel the urges a little less.  I hope this trend continues and I appreciate the support of this site.  I know this is all or nothing.

I just re-read my first KTC post (above). 384 days into it and I know I couldn't have done it without the support of this site. I am damn proud of this accomplishment. For all of you newbies, just take it a day at a time, but don't give up. You've made a great decision to quit.

:rolleyes:

'archer'

cool post.

yes, cool post.. I read the whole thing before i new it was old. well done..I told myself the same thing quit by 40. well here I am 44, but It got 19 freekin days now and feelin good...well better than yesterday.. lol

[Mthomas3824]

20 years of kodiak with no break ended twelve days ago for me.  A secret can every 2-3 days is over.  I've got a wife, four daughters, and basically everything I could have ever reasonably wanted in life except that I couldn't kick the kodiak habit.  This secret habit has jeopardized my life and really lowered my self esteem, I think.  It has been driving me nuts for a dozen years and I've finally had enough.  I'm turning 40 in a couple of days and I promised myself that I will not be chewing into my 40's.  I made this type of promise to myself on many prior occasions but never really gave quitting a real try.  I think I feel now that starting another decade chewing will mean that chew is definitely the thing that will shorten my life.  I don't want to have a short life, I want to have a long life so I can be around for my wife, kids, and their kids.  I am also really tired of the secret life and of constantly covering my tracks.  I am sure you can all relate, but 12 days ago I could not imagine work, chores, driving, t.v., or taking a crap without having a chew in.  Now that I am 12 days in, I am surprised at how fast your body can re-adjust.  Not to say that it is easy at all, but I thought the physical urges would be worse.  They haven't been so bad and the fogginess didn't last long (it helped that my first 8 days were on vacation).  The triggers are hard but I am hopeful that after doing my work, chores, driving, crapping or watching t.v. a few times without the bear, that even the pull of those triggers will lessen.  I need to do this so I will be around longer for my family and so that I can be a better husband and father.  (I used to actually think that chewing made me a better husband because I would encourage my wife to go out with her friends or take a break from the kids just so that I could secretly chew - all of her friends think I am such a great guy for giving her those breaks, but the truth is that I just wanted to sneak chews.  Talk about a fraud).  Without chew so far, every day I am feeling better about myself as a person and every day I feel the urges a little less.  I hope this trend continues and I appreciate the support of this site.  I know this is all or nothing.

I just re-read my first KTC post (above). 384 days into it and I know I couldn't have done it without the support of this site. I am damn proud of this accomplishment. For all of you newbies, just take it a day at a time, but don't give up. You've made a great decision to quit.

:rolleyes:

'archer'

cool post.

[Scowick65]

20 years of kodiak with no break ended twelve days ago for me.  A secret can every 2-3 days is over.  I've got a wife, four daughters, and basically everything I could have ever reasonably wanted in life except that I couldn't kick the kodiak habit.  This secret habit has jeopardized my life and really lowered my self esteem, I think.  It has been driving me nuts for a dozen years and I've finally had enough.  I'm turning 40 in a couple of days and I promised myself that I will not be chewing into my 40's.  I made this type of promise to myself on many prior occasions but never really gave quitting a real try.  I think I feel now that starting another decade chewing will mean that chew is definitely the thing that will shorten my life.  I don't want to have a short life, I want to have a long life so I can be around for my wife, kids, and their kids.  I am also really tired of the secret life and of constantly covering my tracks.  I am sure you can all relate, but 12 days ago I could not imagine work, chores, driving, t.v., or taking a crap without having a chew in.  Now that I am 12 days in, I am surprised at how fast your body can re-adjust.  Not to say that it is easy at all, but I thought the physical urges would be worse.  They haven't been so bad and the fogginess didn't last long (it helped that my first 8 days were on vacation).  The triggers are hard but I am hopeful that after doing my work, chores, driving, crapping or watching t.v. a few times without the bear, that even the pull of those triggers will lessen.  I need to do this so I will be around longer for my family and so that I can be a better husband and father.  (I used to actually think that chewing made me a better husband because I would encourage my wife to go out with her friends or take a break from the kids just so that I could secretly chew - all of her friends think I am such a great guy for giving her those breaks, but the truth is that I just wanted to sneak chews.  Talk about a fraud).  Without chew so far, every day I am feeling better about myself as a person and every day I feel the urges a little less.  I hope this trend continues and I appreciate the support of this site.  I know this is all or nothing.

I just re-read my first KTC post (above). 384 days into it and I know I couldn't have done it without the support of this site. I am damn proud of this accomplishment. For all of you newbies, just take it a day at a time, but don't give up. You've made a great decision to quit.

:rolleyes:

[seagems]

20 years of kodiak with no break ended twelve days ago for me. A secret can every 2-3 days is over. I've got a wife, four daughters, and basically everything I could have ever reasonably wanted in life except that I couldn't kick the kodiak habit. This secret habit has jeopardized my life and really lowered my self esteem, I think. It has been driving me nuts for a dozen years and I've finally had enough. I'm turning 40 in a couple of days and I promised myself that I will not be chewing into my 40's. I made this type of promise to myself on many prior occasions but never really gave quitting a real try. I think I feel now that starting another decade chewing will mean that chew is definitely the thing that will shorten my life. I don't want to have a short life, I want to have a long life so I can be around for my wife, kids, and their kids. I am also really tired of the secret life and of constantly covering my tracks. I am sure you can all relate, but 12 days ago I could not imagine work, chores, driving, t.v., or taking a crap without having a chew in. Now that I am 12 days in, I am surprised at how fast your body can re-adjust. Not to say that it is easy at all, but I thought the physical urges would be worse. They haven't been so bad and the fogginess didn't last long (it helped that my first 8 days were on vacation). The triggers are hard but I am hopeful that after doing my work, chores, driving, crapping or watching t.v. a few times without the bear, that even the pull of those triggers will lessen. I need to do this so I will be around longer for my family and so that I can be a better husband and father. (I used to actually think that chewing made me a better husband because I would encourage my wife to go out with her friends or take a break from the kids just so that I could secretly chew - all of her friends think I am such a great guy for giving her those breaks, but the truth is that I just wanted to sneak chews. Talk about a fraud). Without chew so far, every day I am feeling better about myself as a person and every day I feel the urges a little less. I hope this trend continues and I appreciate the support of this site. I know this is all or nothing.

I just re-read my first KTC post (above). 384 days into it and I know I couldn't have done it without the support of this site. I am damn proud of this accomplishment. For all of you newbies, just take it a day at a time, but don't give up. You've made a great decision to quit.

[gladitsnotheroine]

Two and a half weeks ago my wife surprised me for my 40th birthday with a trip to NYC with my brother-in-law to see the US Open (the trip was this past weekend). My brother-in-law chews a lot. At the time I received the gift, I was nervous as hell about the weekend because of the chew temptations I thought I would encounter. To my surprise, by the time the weekend got here and I was in NYC, I didn't feel much temptation at all. I just posted roll each day and took it one day at a time. I never would have expected it to go down the way it did, the pre-quit me would never have thought I could enjoy that trip without the kodiak. Even two and a half weeks ago I thought it would be torture. I was so wrong. I barely even thought about it, even when it was around me constantly - sometimes I was even alone in the room with it. To all of you that are in the early stages of quit or thinking about quitting, know that it does get easier. Just keep taking it one day at a time. I am on day 32 and already feeling the pull of the nic triggers so much less and less.

Glad to be quit with you. My best friend quit about a year prior to me, and I never understood how he was strong enough to not give in when he was around my sorry nic using self. As you stated though it is getting easier and easier, and I now understand how my friend was able to resist. Its a mindset, and today I told my mind that Im not using.

[AgLawyer]

Two and a half weeks ago my wife surprised me for my 40th birthday with a trip to NYC with my brother-in-law to see the US Open (the trip was this past weekend). My brother-in-law chews a lot. At the time I received the gift, I was nervous as hell about the weekend because of the chew temptations I thought I would encounter. To my surprise, by the time the weekend got here and I was in NYC, I didn't feel much temptation at all. I just posted roll each day and took it one day at a time. I never would have expected it to go down the way it did, the pre-quit me would never have thought I could enjoy that trip without the kodiak. Even two and a half weeks ago I thought it would be torture. I was so wrong. I barely even thought about it, even when it was around me constantly - sometimes I was even alone in the room with it. To all of you that are in the early stages of quit or thinking about quitting, know that it does get easier. Just keep taking it one day at a time. I am on day 32 and already feeling the pull of the nic triggers so much less and less.

Good job kicking ass and taking names with your quit. Well done.

[Gump]

Two and a half weeks ago my wife surprised me for my 40th birthday with a trip to NYC with my brother-in-law to see the US Open (the trip was this past weekend). My brother-in-law chews a lot. At the time I received the gift, I was nervous as hell about the weekend because of the chew temptations I thought I would encounter. To my surprise, by the time the weekend got here and I was in NYC, I didn't feel much temptation at all. I just posted roll each day and took it one day at a time. I never would have expected it to go down the way it did, the pre-quit me would never have thought I could enjoy that trip without the kodiak. Even two and a half weeks ago I thought it would be torture. I was so wrong. I barely even thought about it, even when it was around me constantly - sometimes I was even alone in the room with it. To all of you that are in the early stages of quit or thinking about quitting, know that it does get easier. Just keep taking it one day at a time. I am on day 32 and already feeling the pull of the nic triggers so much less and less.

Right on! Life without dip is BETTER...better than we imagined it would be, better than it was with dip, just plain better.

Thanks for sharing that.

[seagems]

Two and a half weeks ago my wife surprised me for my 40th birthday with a trip to NYC with my brother-in-law to see the US Open (the trip was this past weekend). My brother-in-law chews a lot. At the time I received the gift, I was nervous as hell about the weekend because of the chew temptations I thought I would encounter. To my surprise, by the time the weekend got here and I was in NYC, I didn't feel much temptation at all. I just posted roll each day and took it one day at a time. I never would have expected it to go down the way it did, the pre-quit me would never have thought I could enjoy that trip without the kodiak. Even two and a half weeks ago I thought it would be torture. I was so wrong. I barely even thought about it, even when it was around me constantly - sometimes I was even alone in the room with it. To all of you that are in the early stages of quit or thinking about quitting, know that it does get easier. Just keep taking it one day at a time. I am on day 32 and already feeling the pull of the nic triggers so much less and less.

[Scowick65]

Freedom is the shit. Great job. See you on day 27.

[AgLawyer]

Thanks for all of the support. I feel so lucky to have found this site. Tommorrow I post day 27, which was unthinkable for me at any time during the last 20 years. In 20 years I doubt I took a combined 27 days off of nicotine, let alone 27 consecutive days. 27 days without nicotine and I already feel better about myself physically and mentally. I had my 40 year-old check up today and the doctor said all is good. That sure feels good, even if the prostate check did not feel good. My goal is to keep the good health check-ups coming so I can live a long life and see my four young daughters one day turn into old ladies themselves. Chewing is not part of that picture. Posting roll with all of you and quitting with November is part of that picture. Thanks again.

SOLID motivation right there - keep it up!

[tazmed]

That sure feels good, even if the prostate check did not feel good.

Do like I did; find yourself a pretty blonde female doctor to do those exams. If anyone's going to be sticking anything up there, she's going to be attractive so I can enjoy it. 'crackup'

Keep up the good work! 'archer'

[steve1357]

Thanks for all of the support. I feel so lucky to have found this site. Tommorrow I post day 27, which was unthinkable for me at any time during the last 20 years. In 20 years I doubt I took a combined 27 days off of nicotine, let alone 27 consecutive days. 27 days without nicotine and I already feel better about myself physically and mentally. I had my 40 year-old check up today and the doctor said all is good. That sure feels good, even if the prostate check did not feel good. My goal is to keep the good health check-ups coming so I can live a long life and see my four young daughters one day turn into old ladies themselves. Chewing is not part of that picture. Posting roll with all of you and quitting with November is part of that picture. Thanks again.

Great job on 27 days Seagems. I bet that was a huge relief getting the clean pass of health from the doctor. It was also hard for me to think that I could quit when I was a chewer. Nicotine had me so messed up, I could not imagine doing my normal activities without it.

It has now became so clear how that was all lies. I now can not imagine myself ever using that trash again.

Proud to quit with you.

[seagems]

Thanks for all of the support. I feel so lucky to have found this site. Tommorrow I post day 27, which was unthinkable for me at any time during the last 20 years. In 20 years I doubt I took a combined 27 days off of nicotine, let alone 27 consecutive days. 27 days without nicotine and I already feel better about myself physically and mentally. I had my 40 year-old check up today and the doctor said all is good. That sure feels good, even if the prostate check did not feel good. My goal is to keep the good health check-ups coming so I can live a long life and see my four young daughters one day turn into old ladies themselves. Chewing is not part of that picture. Posting roll with all of you and quitting with November is part of that picture. Thanks again.